A decade into a creative project, the speaker grapples with self-doubt and questions whether the work mattered. Growing up queer meant constant self-editing for survival. Reclaiming your authentic self after years of hiding takes more courage than most people realize.
when you're working, I— people go, what's it been like? It's like, well, I don't recommend working on something for 10 years because the amount of pressure that you put on yourself of like, was this worth it? Should I have spent 10 years on this? Is it going to be good? Are people gonna— like, there's so many questions that come into your mind, self-doubt, so many variables that you can't control, and, uh It's, it's not easy, but I don't know any other way to move through life. The only version of life that I know is literally being pushed out of an airplane or jumping, because I think when you grow up knowing you're queer or knowing that you're other for so long of your life in your adolescence, survival is key, constantly having to edit yourself. And it takes a lot of courage to un-edit yourself and get back to who you really were.
