Finding yourself after this shift

Hey, hey, hey, beautiful heart! How are you? Welcome to my channel. I am Dr. Denae Arias, the Awakening Doctor, here to help you make sense of this crazy spiritual awakening journey and self-mastery, making metaphysics seem like ABCs. So let's get into this. In case you're wondering, yes, I have Mr. Kumara right here. The way the camera's angling, you can't see his face, but he's just giving me this very interesting look, like, Mom, why am I up so early? But Anyways, let's get into this. So this energy that we have been under is amazing. It is very potent. We've been talking about it, and I've mentioned that with this Lion's Gate portal and full moon, new moon, you know, all of this going on. I have never experienced a Lionsgate portal energy the way that I have been experiencing this year's portal, and it's, it's big in the respect or in the Yeah, in the respect of how potent the energy is, and depending on where you're at in your journey and where your consciousness is. I'm all about teaching consciousness, and your cells are listening. Guys, if you're new to me, welcome, welcome. Hopefully you've got a beverage or a snack, you know, just settle in. You never know what's about to come out of my mouth until it comes out, but over here I am all about helping you navigate through monkey mind, self-doubt, limiting beliefs, that shitty inner dialogue You hang out with me long enough, that dialogue is absolutely going to change. You're going to become your own best friend, and life is going to shift and change for you in ways you never thought possible. So that's what you can expect hanging out here with me. Anyways, back to this big energy. Depending on where you're at in your cycle of spiritual awakening, consciousness, how much work you have been putting in to rewrite the subconscious monkey mind programming will let you know, you know, where you're at in the energy. So for those of you in my collective that are really seeing the timeline shift. That choice was made. You know, the Lovers card is always about a choice, and we're in this series about, um, you know, the Wizard of Oz really being this spiritual awakening journey. In case you didn't know, the author was actually going through a spiritual awakening when he wrote that story. So for me, with this card, this energy, you know, Dorothy and the Scarecrow— the Scarecrow is an aspect of us. It is that 3D aspect. And you'll play the role of the Scarecrow while you're on this yellow brick road to self-mastery. The Scarecrow is a version of altered ego. You know, the Scarecrow is all about— doesn't have a brain. You guys hear me talk about You're not gonna solve your issues always in your mind, thinking, thinking, thinking, analyzing. Why? Because the mind and the thoughts are a different vibration from what the answer is. The answers are in the heart. So I love that in this spread, we've got the brain and we've got the heart. The brain or the Scarecrow represents the masculine energy. We are closing out the window, and we've been closing out this window starting— it started December 21st, 2012, when the Piscean Age started to wind down. The Piscean Age is very patriarchal, it's very mental. Um, which I know sounds contradictory because Pisces is very much a water sign, more emotions, but just hang with me here. So in this phase, um, again, we don't annihilate monkey mind. That's not our goal. We want to make it our friend. And the Scarecrow runs around scared and frantic in anxiety. Does that sound like your altered ego, your monkey mind? Over here on, you know, my little corner of the internet, we are all about your cells are listening. What the hell are you saying in that internal dialogue? Because that internal dialogue is the most important conversations you'll ever have. And guys, you don't have to take my word for it. Look at your own life. You've been running the same shitty inner dialogue since you were a child. So for those who might be new to me, um, Here you're gonna learn how to get a hold of monkey mind. Since I turned on this video, I have been getting a bunch of notifications on my watch. Normally at this early hour in the morning, my notifications don't pop off. So it's very interesting that it just keeps going off. I feel that's relevant for somebody because I feel like you start making a choice or a decision, and before you can really move forward in it You get distracted, your attention gets pulled somewhere else. I mean, hell, you may have a shit ton of things to get done, um, that you're always kind of scattered, especially if you are one of my neurospicy brothers or sisters. It is so easy to do, but part of this spiritual awakening journey and self-mastery is realizing that, recognizing those patterns, understanding your own makeup. And if you're like me, I was not diagnosed neurospicy or neurodivergent. When I was young or even as a teenager. I'm Gen X. We didn't talk about those, those things. Um, we— shit, we weren't even barely allowed to talk about our emotions. Nobody wanted to hear about that. So everything was swept under the rug. Um, so you could have learned to mask really, really well, but always kind of wondered, well, what's wrong with me? Or why am I so different? Well, my friends, it is for a time like this. You have been hidden, prepped, prepared. You have gone through the hurricanes of life. It wasn't all for naught. It's not because you're broken. None of that. It's because you have a purpose. You're here in this lifetime to fulfill that purpose. Purpose. And no, it's not easy. You're not still watching me if you are not on this path. I mean, then again, there might be a few who are still hanging around listening, but I'm probably triggering the hell out of you. That's good. Over here, triggers are a good thing. Triggers— if you start talking to yourselves and asking them to show you what that trigger wants to tell you, because that trigger will always be for your highest good. We're only triggered by things when we repress certain things about ourselves, um, deny or push down. I know, not easy to hear, right? But see, you've come far enough that you know, you already now know the red flags, you know the energetic burdens, um, you're no longer accepting that. You were a former people pleaser, and this energy's been coming up in the readings lately. You know, there's no shame in that, but people-pleasing isn't love. It's a trauma response. It's out of fear. Because when you really know yourself and you've looked at all of those areas that you don't like about yourself, and believe me, I know, It is not easy. I didn't like it, didn't want to do it, but I knew I had to. I knew it was the only way out. And guys, this road is lonely for a while. I'm not gonna sugarcoat that, it is. But guys, it's a season, it's not a life sentence. There is purpose in this process. There is purpose in the alone time. There is major purpose in the silence. So for those of you that have really gone within, have done this audit of your life, have gotten to the point where you've disconnected yourself from previous connections, now isn't the time to have the story about why or any of that. Recognize you're choosing yourself, and that's what's needed. Because prior to this, you were living, you know, like the Scarecrow, not 100% fully yourself, feeling like you've lost a major part of you. You didn't lose the major part of you. You lost the masking part of you, an old identity that you thought was you, that you've spent decades trying to fix. I'm here to tell you, you don't need to fix anything within you. You need to love you. You need to be your biggest cheerleader. You need to be speaking to yourself like you would speak to somebody you love. And if you're not, That right there, my friend, is the root of all of the different issues going on in your life right now. How can I say that? How can I be so confident in saying that? Because I've walked the path. I've helped thousands of people go through this as well, and it's a pattern. It's a program, and the way out is is to go within. It is a season of loneliness, but for the majority that I'm speaking to, you're coming out of that. This choice to be in this higher timeline— how do you know if you're in the higher timeline? You're no longer listening to news, you're not triggered by politics or all the games going on. You see beyond the distortion. You know there is a bigger agenda going on. You know at some level— we're just— politics is the easiest thing to pick on. That it doesn't matter what side of the house you're on, you're still in the house. And that house is built on a faulty foundation. At some point, anything that is not truth has to fall. You're witnessing this happen because remember I talked about at the beginning that this energy coming in is unlike any energy I've experienced before. There is a big I don't want to say a big duality to it because there's always, you know, polar opposites. But now in this higher timeline, we're not in the matrix. If you're hanging out with me, we're no longer in the matrix, baby. We left. We found that escape hatch. We said sayonara, see you later, hasta la vista, baby. No more. And we escaped, and we did it quietly. We did it quietly. It was like a secret passage. Now, to you it might not have felt quietly, but did you take a bunch of friends with you? Nope, you didn't. You did it alone. But that's the thing, you're really not alone. There is a whole collective of us going through this, and now is the time that we are finding each other. Why? Because next phase has been initiated. Now that we're over here, this Three of Cups, we now start to connect with people that have made this choice as well, that they've gone within, they've looked at themselves, they've built themselves up. They have this strength within them. They know to go into the heart, that the heart has the answers. The heart will never lead you astray. What the world has been missing all of these years is it's been out of balance, and it's only had one part of the recipe. That patriarchal society was all about the thoughts, the minds, the action. It left out the feminine side of life, the heart, the unconditional love. The complete recipe or package is you get an idea You drop it into your heart so that the love can basically audit it. And if it is coming from that unconditional love space, then that feeling— because you've had that thought, now you've got that feeling— that feeling from the heart is what is going to magnetize to you your desires. You're over here in this new timeline with new thoughts. You're thinking different, you're feeling different, you're moving about your day different. Things are happening and you're not reacting the way that you used to. That doesn't mean you're not gonna, you know, get triggered or something or somebody do something and it kind of sets you off, be aware of that because, you know, we're still human. We're still, you know, dealing with the opposite energies. And remember, that was a mask or a role that we've played. So yeah, it's in the energetic field, the energetic memory field. But it doesn't mean that you have to choose to come from there or connect in that way. Your energy is different. It feels as if your energy has come back online. If you went through this weekend, the Lionsgate portal and this full moon, I want to talk about this full moon energy. I enjoyed it. It felt really good. I was energized, motivated, which is completely opposite of how I normally go through full moons. But the crash for this full moon, holy moly, it was, you know, energy, energy, excitement. Let's go, let's go, get things done. Boom, boom, boom, boom, boom. Then all of a sudden, poof, hit a brick wall and then just kind of melted. And just kind of, yeah, melted, melted into my love sack and just didn't move for like 12 hours. No joke, I could not function. Um, not gonna get into that, but I knew that was part of moving through this energy. We are upgrading. We are a multi-body system. We upgrade on each body system. All of this, guys, the weirder part of it, the parts that feel like you're going backwards, know that you're not. Know that yes, you could have cleared things in your thoughts. So on your mental body, you've cleared it. You may have cleared it on your emotional body as well. Then there's a physical body clearing. Your body been acting out a bit, guys? I am not a medical doctor. I do not give medical advice. I will be the first one to tell you, if you think there's something going on in your body, go to the doctor and get checked. What I'm not saying is, you know, giving your sovereignty over to doctors or anybody else. Your body belongs to you. It is your mode of transportation. It is your Earth suit, if you want to think of like an astronaut. They can't go into space without an astronaut suit. Well, you can't be here on Earth without your Earth suit, and your Earth suit is so amazing, and you have no idea because you weren't taught that. But anyways, you guys know I can get off on tangents and hopefully find my way back, but this Earth suit When you change your thoughts and your emotions and you start intentionally and consciously speaking to yourselves, overwriting that subconscious programming, just like you planted a seed, that seed has to grow. Take bamboo. Bamboo, when it's planted, takes a long time to sprout, but once it sprouts, boom, it grows fast. But the foundation of that sprout took place in the dark alone when nobody could see it. You've been going through the planting of the bamboo season, and in that bamboo season that's been planted It's not on public display. It's done beneath the surface. It's a very metaphysical process. Do not think for one minute you're different in that way. Your body, your physical body, just like your spiritual body, your mental body, and your emotional body And yes, there are more than that, but here we're only talking about those 4 for now. But your body, your physical body will act out all the shit that you've stored in your cellular level. What do I mean? When you were younger, did you witness a parent, a close friend, or somebody go through something physically traumatic, health-wise, physically? If so, what was the story about that that you told yourself? That's the story that's written on your cells. That has to play out when you're older. Are you now going through something similar? If so, this message is for you. Your story, your outcome does not have to be the same as those previous generations or whatever you witnessed. You absolutely can change it, but it starts within you because that root is an energetic root of thoughts, feelings, and beliefs about something that you energetically picked up through your 5 human senses at a younger age that you didn't understand, but all that got written on your cells to play out later in your life. Why? Because the subconscious doesn't know the difference between fact or fiction. It only knows what you keep feeding it. So back to the whole doctor thing, by all means Go use the best of medicine, but you are a sovereign being. If what you're being told does not align with you at a conscious level, you are the one that can change it. How do I know? Because I walked it. I did it. Yes, they called me crazy. Yes, they laughed at me. Yes, I lost family and friends. People didn't believe me. But you know what? I had to make that choice within myself that I didn't care. This was my life. Nobody else was going to have the pen or pencil to how my life goes. I had multiple doctors tell me I wouldn't— I could not heal, I wouldn't get better. The best I could do was manage my symptoms. I even had one, a really well-renowned specialist at Stanford University, tell me there was nothing wrong with me after he had me walk across floor and back. Didn't talk to me prior to that or my symptoms or anything, just get up, walk, and walk back. I did, turned around, he looked at me, said, there's nothing wrong with you, but I'm doing a study on chronic fatigue. I think you'd be a great candidate for that. Let me sign you up. Well, there's a bunch more that goes to that. I'm not going to go into that story right now, but I had already been on this internal journey. And that interaction flipped my bitch switch in a heartbeat. I turned around, I looked at him, and I said, wait a minute, you just said there's nothing wrong with me. If you feel there's nothing wrong with me, why would you want me to be a part of a study to benefit you without real benefit to me? Because you just said there's nothing wrong with me, it's all in my head. This doesn't jive. And yeah, I basically told him faffangul. If you're not Italian, look it up. Told him that right to his face, and I said, you're full of shit, you're practicing, you know theory, but you don't know my body. You have spent under 10 minutes with me I will be healed, and I will come back, and I will show you. He laughed and said— wanted to refer me to a psychiatrist. The point I'm trying to make is I had already met myself. I already knew these metaphysical principles were true. I was already walking it out. At that time, I had 7 different specialists that I saw for all the different issues. They had me on 21 different prescription drugs. No, I wasn't functioning well. All the different side effects, this, that, and the other. It was all for a purpose, guys. Please keep this in context. What I'm saying is your body knows best. Your body is equipped to heal itself. I'm not telling you to do what I did. I'm sharing my story. My story is decades of this. This was not an overnight thing, but it started with my own thoughts and feelings, and then I walked it out. I gave myself a lot of grace. Yeah, there were times I didn't even believe it. There were times I thought I was crazy. But when I thought that and I gave myself grace, the courage rose up within me. I started getting more hits of that validation of what I was on to was real. The less that I focused on every ache and pain and what I couldn't do and this and oh, you know, all that lack, I started seeing, wait a minute, I can get up, I can move my body. Then I started telling my body a different story, even when my body hurts so bad I couldn't get out of bed to walk 10 feet. Yeah, I lived through that. But what did I do? I started telling my body the story I wanted it to believe, because at this point I knew I knew my cells were listening. I knew what was stored in there was shitty dialogue and it wasn't truth. I knew. Subconscious doesn't know fact or fiction. It only knows what you keep feeding it. A thought isn't a belief until you keep thinking it and you feel it's true. The good thing about that is you can change it at any time. I didn't say it was easy, but there is simplicity in this. And when you decide that this is what you want, that you know you're here to live a better life, that you are not meant to have your body broken down, your mind broken down, your feelings broken down, and be depressed and anxious all the time. That inspiration doesn't come from outside of you. It comes from within, and it wells up like a volcano. So if what you're hearing now through this reading is making your cells tingle, it's igniting you, know that that's not inspiration coming from me to you. That's me triggering that response within you because your cells, your soul knows its truth. What are you gonna do with it? That's up to you. On this journey, you are what you need. Your validation is the only validation you need. So if you've been thinking you need somebody else to validate you, you need somebody else to tell you you're okay, whatever it is, know that no, that's a lie. You're gaslighting yourself. The most important relationship, the most important conversation you'll ever have is with yourself. That sets the blueprint for every other relationship. I could not have gotten out of a narcissistic marriage, a narcissistic lifestyle, and I mean that because I grew up under a narcissistic mother. My friendships and relationships were all narcissistic. Why? Because that's what I knew. That's the energy and the story I kept feeding my body. But once I started practicing this and putting it into motion That's how I got out of it. You're right, I couldn't stay in that narcissistic relationship. Why? Because I had wisened up. And it's not that I just one day up and left and ghosted. I tried to have conversations. I tried to express where I was to see if he would get on the same page. Didn't happen that way. He doubled down in trying to get me committed because, you know, something was wrong with me. No, I woke up. You can't unsee this stuff when you awaken. And I hold nothing but love for every narcissist that's been in my life. Why? Because they helped me become or remember who I am and what I'm here to do. They were absolutely necessary in my life. Did I always feel that in this journey? Hell no, I did not. I went through different phases. So wherever you're at, if you're not at that phase of totally releasing and have totally forgiven and it doesn't bother you anymore and you could really just stand there and just say, I hold nothing but love for them because they played a role and yeah narcissists, narcissists are the way they are because they haven't met themselves. They are unhealed as well. So knowing what I know now, being in this journey that I've been in, I choose to hold nothing but love and hope for them that they find their way back to themselves and heal their lives. Because again, it takes two to tango. I'm not saying I was perfect or innocent by any means. I'm saying my responsibility was my shitty inner dialogue, the way I saw myself, the way I valued myself. And the more that I started to value myself and love myself and change that inner dialogue, the more the narcissist acted out. Why? Because I triggered them. Just like you can, or I can trigger inspiration in you, I can also trigger the shadow side. Same for you. You can trigger people in either way. It's not about you changing or you doing something different. You are not responsible for how people take your energy. If they're triggered and they're spiraling, you're not responsible for that. Hold space, send them love, But they've got to figure that out on, on their own. You had to figure it out on your own. This isn't the time for you to run around and try to save everybody. No, you've saved yourself. Now strengthen yourself. You've got to get to know yourself in this new energy. You are not the same person. And I've been saying this a lot lately, if you have not sat down and had a conversation, a heart-to-heart conversation with me me in the last 6 months, you don't know me. I don't care how long you've been in my life, what role you had, whatever. If you have not spent quality time with me within the last 6 months, you do not know me. Why? Because I'm completely different and I'm getting to know myself, so I'm fiercely protective of my energy and my peace. Why? Because I know what I came from. I know the hell that I walked through to get to where I'm at, to become who I am. And I'm not willing to pay that price to go backwards. Hell no. You want to connect with me now? Do the inner work. Rise up. Meet me where I'm at. And that should be the pattern that you set for people in your life. If you're still in the cycle of sadness or depression for not having certain people in your life, no judgment at all. Give yourself love and grace, but challenge yourself to find an easier thought. Go gentle on yourself because everything is a matter of frequency and vibration. And it's amazing how we will fight for our lack. We will fight to be in pain. We will fight to have people in our lives who haven't met themselves yet at the level we have. And expect them to show up for us and validate us and do all these things when they can't because they haven't done it for themselves. Let yourself off the hook and let them off the hook. Life isn't meant to be that hard. And if it's not a person, if it's money or abundance, yeah, that's frequency and energy. What limiting beliefs did you grow up with? Did you grow up believing money is hard, or you have to work hard for your money. Is that still true? If it is, then those are the experiences you will play out. If that's not what you believe anymore, then it's up to you to tell yourself that new story so it writes on your cells, so it overwrites the subconscious program of lack that's been playing out. All right, guys, that was a lot. Um, I hope you got something out of it. If you're still here, thank you, thank you, thank you. I am sending you oceans and oceans of love from my heart to yours. Please, if this resonated, don't forget to like comment, subscribe, send the video to somebody that you think could need it, and drop a purple heart emoji in the comments. All right guys, sending you oceans of love. Namaste. Bye-bye.