Intense Energy - narcissists showing out leading you to your healing/freedom

Hey, hey, hey, beautiful heart! How are you today? Whoo! This energy is wackadoodle. I don't even have proper words for this energy. Let me know how it feels for you in the comments. If you've been feeling this crazy, wacky energy, I'm gonna break it down a bit today. For those of you who stumbled upon this video, have no idea who the heck I am, welcome, welcome. I am Dr. Denae Arias. My clients call me Dr. D. I am a metaphysician here to help you understand this crazy energy, understand spiritual awakening, everything that goes on with that, because spiritual awakening is not for the faint of heart. It is intense. I'm known as the Awakening Doctor. I help you break down yourself, help you understand yourself, and create your own blueprint for self-mastery. Over here in my corner of the internet, we don't push an agenda. I don't tell you what to do. It may sound like that, um, but you always have that choice. I'm here to— my goal is to get you to question everything you've ever been taught, everything you've ever believed, and show you that you are one of a kind. You are unique. You are meant to be unique. You are not meant to fit in a box, and you're not meant to be a carbon copy. And I know how scary that can be when we've played in the matrix different personalities or personas, usually for survival, to fit in, things like that. If you resonate with me and, you know, my message, my vibe, you are at a point in life where you are ready for deep, deep change. You're ready to start loving you. You are most likely relating to being the black sheep of the family. You have felt odd, you didn't fit in, people thought you were crazy, but you've always been empathetic. You've been able to pick up on things that others can't. Um, that might have caused you some frustration. You might even felt like you were crazy or broken or you needed to fix something. I'm here to tell you, nope, you don't. And this awakening journey, we're on our way back to the truth of ourselves. If you have religion in your history or your background and that has been a source of confusion and pain, you have landed on the right channel. Hit that like and subscribe button to get notified whenever I post again. I am Neuro Spicy, I can be all over the place. I lead a very full, busy, active life, so right now I don't have a schedule as to when I post. I'm working on that, but anyhow, let's see what today holds because I'm recording this on July 30th. I will post it right after I'm done, no editing. What you see is what you get around here. If you like to be coddled, handheld, or given things that are sugar-coated, you're going to want to click off right now because I'm going to trigger the heck out of you. Now, with that said, those of you who do get triggered by me, I am sending you oceans and oceans of love. I don't see triggers as bad. I see triggers as opportunities because when people are triggered by you, or yeah, recognize that we are all mirrors to each other. So they're being triggered because you're living a truth that they may not have discovered for themselves yet. So just send them love. So again, if you're here You're watching me for whatever reason. I don't care. I'm sending you love and light anyways. Grab a drink, get comfortable, and be prepared to be just as surprised at whatever comes out of my mouth as I am. All right, let's get into this. I am pulling the overall energy from my, um, Inner Child deck. To see what is going on for you, because this energy— we are under a very rare cosmic planetary alignment. We're also in the 8/8 Lion's Gate portal. We have been under intense cosmic energy all of 2025, but it's building, so Yeah, those who are not on this path or working on themselves, and especially the narcissist— if you have any of those in your life, this may resonate with you. They're losing their caca. They really, really are. This energy is putting a lot of pressure on them. And again, the beginning of a spiritual awakening is the most intense, painful, emotional, mental thing you'll ever go through, and it's not pretty. So if you're on the receiving end of that from, from somebody, hang on. Know that— don't— try not to— try not to take the attacks and the verbal bashings personally. Because truth be told, it really isn't about you. It is about them, how they're feeling within themselves, all their fears, all their pains, all of that— those parts of themselves they don't love, they push down, and they reject. It's all coming to the surface and they're spewing it out, and they love to go for the jugular and hurt others. This is gonna trigger your wounds, your inner child stuff that you haven't looked at. And I'm here to guide you through this journey, guide you back to yourself, how to love yourself, how to trust yourself, trust your intuition, know the difference between intuition and ego manipulation. All right, so let's look and see. We've got listen to your intuition. What the hell was I just saying? Embrace your inner child. What is your deepest longing? Give freely and receive freely. Heal your rejection wound. Yep, this is what this energy is about. All of these are so fitting for right now. So yeah, this planetary alignment is pushing all the gunk to the surface, so you could be feeling it in many different ways. Um, just know that if this has to do with a relationship or another person, that is coming up because there's a false belief within you that you need that person or somebody to validate you and to tell you that you're okay so that you'll start to believe that and heal. That's the lie. This rejection wound, there's a lot that's wrapped up into this, but let me just peel the whole onion back and break it down as simply as I can at the core. This rejection wound is really about you rejecting you. That's where it starts. It starts in childhood. It starts when, you know, we're growing up. We don't know what we don't know. When we're born and up until 7 years, 8, 7 years old, we We are relating and trying to understand the world from all of our senses. We're getting data and information from our senses: sight, smell, touch, hearing, things like that. Now, how does things get whacked out of, you know, whacked out? How do we get altered ego? Altered ego is a programming. It is built out of misalignment, misjudging energy, because again, remember, you didn't know what you didn't know. But now you're an adult. Now it's your turn or your time to be responsible. It's time to go back and— I don't like to say parent the inner child, but it's time to go back and reestablish a brand new relationship with your inner child. Your inner child is your, your inner seat of truth, love, safety, security. Truth be told, you can't give freely and receive freely if you haven't established this new relationship with your inner child. And guys, trust me, I know. I've walked this path, you know. What I teach and share isn't just theory, it's not just textbook knowledge, it's real life experiences. My whole program, Your Cells Are Listening, or Your Cells Are Listening, was born out of my own experiences my whole life, putting it all together And now, you know, I understand that, oh crap, this is why I went through this. Yes, one for me, but here's the thing, whatever you're going through, yes, it's for you to see the truth behind it, fall back in love with yourself, you know, all of those things, but it's also for you to share with others, to help others, because there will always be others behind you that are going to need the information, the experience, and the knowledge that you carry, even if you're only 2 steps in front of them. So know that as you do this, yes, it's for you, but there is no distance or time with energy. All right, so all of this is coming up to say, hey, your inner child wants your attention because there are some limiting beliefs around life, around your worth, around love, abundance, you know, whatever it is for you that has you believing either you're not worthy or you have to go through pain and suffering. Remember I talked about the whole religious thing? That's a whole other layer. And for those of you who don't know, that is in my background. You know, I'm actually a pastor. I was ordained in the Christian religion, even though I felt more like a little double agent in religion. Because a lot of what was taught, even a lot of the stuff that I spoke about, there was always a different dialogue going on. Like, I'm not going to get into all of that now. I will down the road talk about that more, but there's a lot of issues or, or intense energy that gets projected in those environments. And it's the 5 human habits. Religion instills the 5 human habits to keep you playing small, to keep you from the truth. The 5 human habits, in case you're not aware, are judgment, guilt, condemnation, blame, and shame. Well, and let's add in gossip too. Guys, hear me out on gossip. Gossip not only steals your peace, it bankrupts you. So if you're having issues in your finances but you love to hear the tea about others or share the tea or, you know, just little chismosas, whatever, talking, Pay attention, be aware. Is your money taking dips? Things coming up, um, when you're doing that? Stop the gossip. Okay, the 5 human habits anyways, especially judgment. Judgment and guilt, shame and blame. I learned so well— I learned them when I was younger But religion was like a whole other level that just cranked that up. There was a lot to unpack and it will, it can definitely mess with your mind. I'm here to tell you there isn't a God out there that you need to please. There isn't a God out there that is disappointed in you. That's the alter ego programming, and if you think about it, that's what religion teaches. Oh, you have to do this, this, and this, or be this, this, and this, otherwise, you know, God won't love you and you'll go to hell, or, you know, whatever the belief is. That is all out of fear, control, and manipulation, because the powers that be know that if you know the truth, they would not be able to peddle their bullshit. Just saying. Okay, totally got off topic. Somebody needed that. Listen to your own intuition, guys. I'm gonna drop a little truth bomb here. Your intuition— for those of you who are going, but Denae, I don't know if I'm hearing from my intuition— intuition comes from your heart, it comes from soul. And it will always be a still small voice. It is a knowing. You don't know how you know, but you know that you know that you know that you know. It will never get loud. It will never scream. It will never argue. There will always be like a stillness and a peace with it. Altered ego On the other hand, that is monkey mind. That is that incessant chatter in your brain telling you, do this, do this. It's getting louder. Then it'll argue with itself. Then, for those of you old enough to remember Looney Tunes cartoons where there was the devil and the angel on the shoulder talking to the guy back and forth, that is both altered ego. Do not be fooled. Do not think soul is going to get into a bantering match with altered ego. It's not. That is 100% altered ego putting on a show, talking you in and out of things. Remember, intuition comes from the heart. It's not loud. It's a knowing. You know that you know that you know. There's no argument because monkey mind altered ego, your mind is very, very powerful, and it can talk yourself into and out of things. So that's where you— that's what you have followed most of your life, because that's how we survived in the matrix. That's why altered ego and monkey mind is there. They served a purpose. All of what we've gone through in the matrix, we've learned usually from pain, but we've learned what separation, rejection, and all of that feels like and looks like. That is the program of the matrix. Monkey mind and altered ego is a program. Now, how does that tie into the universal laws and laws of manifestation? Well, the laws of manifestation— everything is frequency and vibration. Your monkey mind, your thoughts, your analytical mind is a completely different vibration than your heart and soul. You will never manifest from your mind. Hear me out. Manifestation comes from the feeling side of life. That's the magnetizing side. That's the feminine side. That's the heart, soul, intuition. For some of you, this one with what is your deepest longing, this is coming up for you as like a deep fear in, in the respect that you feel like it'll never happen, you're not worthy, you're not lovable, you're whatever. That deepest longing is tied into the rejection wound. It is tied into you embracing your inner child, this giving and receiving freely. It's got to start with you. To be able to attract somebody into your life to love you the way that you desire, you first have to love yourself that way. I know, I know, somebody just did not like to hear that. You probably even groaned. But you know, the choice is yours. We're now in this energy of you get to choose. If you don't like the experiences you're having or how you're feeling. You don't need to look outside of you to have any of those circumstances or people change so you could feel better. That's where you've fallen off the wagon every single time. You'll never win that way. Everything that you need and desire first has to start within you. When you start giving yourself that the energy and the vibration starts to shift. The people around you start to shift. They start showing up differently. They will start mirroring to you how you're feeling about yourself. And if you spend a few moments with yourself right now thinking about this, the times where you haven't been feeling great about yourself Are people mirroring that to you? Yeah, here's how you get out of it. Everything is frequency and vibration. You got to clean up your thoughts and your feelings, and it absolutely starts with you. I know people don't like hearing that. They want a magic pill or, you know, something, you know, wave my magic wand, bippity boppity boo, and everything's fine. Sorry, we don't get to bippity boppity boo into our highest self, it is work, it is one of the hardest things you'll ever do, that's why not everybody is doing it. There is a mass awakening going on right now, doesn't mean everybody's going to choose to awaken, Why? Well, how intense have your emotions and feelings been? You know, ego death isn't fun. It's scary. It's intense. But it's come to clear things out. It's come to help you through, to help you see the truth so you're not in this hurt pain, misery, lack energy. The only way out of it is to go through, and going through is rewriting that subconscious programming. Because here's the thing, your subconscious doesn't know fact from fiction. It doesn't discern. It is programmed that whatever the, the strongest vibrational frequency You're giving it, so that's in your emotions. That's what it believes to be true, and it's going to go out and seek those people in those situations to validate that feeling. So if you're feeling like, I'm broken, nobody loves me, um, everybody abandons me, this is how it's always been, this is how it'll always be, blah blah blah, it doesn't know that you're crying out in pain wanting something different. It just hears that and goes, okay, we need more. She wants more. He wants more. And it goes out and finds more. The Matrix calls it Murphy's Law. So be very careful of what you're speaking and what you're feeling. Words How do we make words? Spelling. When you use words, what are you doing? Casting a spell. You are literally creating your life with your thoughts, your feelings, and your words. For some of you, especially those who have been on this path and have been following me for a while, who have taken my courses, and you know this, For you at this point, it's more of a habit because you did it so long. So now you've got to double down and be very aware of your thoughts and feelings so that you are telling yourself, you're fighting back, saying, no, that's not my truth. I'm not broken. I'm not this, blah, blah. That might have been my old story, but I closed that door. Now in this energy, in this manifestation portal, I am loved, I am love, everything is always working out for me. So meet yourself where you're at, and if you're really deep into these heavier, denser feelings, the way to get out of that is with consistency, because consistency builds momentum. But it's finding a lesser dense thought or feeling, and then you build upon that. So start with yourself. Pick one area about you that you really don't like, that you've repressed, and choose to look at yourself in the mirror today. Call that part out and send it love. Choose to love it. You can change it after you choose to love it. You are being called to love yourself right now. Pull all of your energy inwards and make your focus on you. The other person, the situation, whatever, leave it on the shelf. Altered ego is going to be like, no, no, mayday, mayday, Danger Will Robinson, abort mission, because it's gonna make you think you're putting yourself back in that danger zone to be hurt again when you're really not. You're protecting yourself, and that's what altered ego doesn't want. Altered ego doesn't want you to love yourself. It doesn't want you to find your truth and your authenticity. Why? Because if you do, there's no room for altered ego. Altered ego has been running the show the whole time. That's why it feels like you're in a loop or a hamster wheel making the same damn decisions over and over, because you are. Because you're making those decisions based on an old programming that most likely started before you were 7 years old and then hit teenage years and stuff, and now it just doubles down and validates that crap. Doesn't mean it was true. You know, we pick up things from caregivers or whatever when we were younger. I had a stepmother come into my life, and I'm not bagging on her. Years ago, yeah, I did, but I'm— I don't do that now. I'm very grateful for the part she played in my life. Because I needed those experiences to learn how to find myself and get on this path and be healed. My life would not be as freaking amazing as it is today had I not gone through those horrific experiences when I was younger. But she came into my life I think I was about 5, 6 years old. 6 years old was the first time I heard the word slut, and she would call me that all the time. Like, it was just always real negative. And I've always been very, um, well, yeah, sensitive but intuitive. And so words and feelings and energy, when they don't match, I could see that. And I could see that ugly energy that would be spewed over onto me. It came onto me as a blanket. Yeah, I was a kid, I didn't know, so I took it personally. Yep, spent most of my life like this. Through this awakening journey, you know, I learned energy, I learned all of these dynamics. I had to, to be able to unravel it and to create a program to help people. But through that, I realized she was playing a part. She was coming from a place of deep hurt and pain herself. She didn't know any better. Is she narcissistic? Yes, she is. But again, had I not had those experiences and all the other narcissists in my life, I wouldn't be able to be here and help others. Come through that narcissist, narcissistic abuse. That's a whole other level. So I am extremely grateful for that. But what I'm saying is, if you have anything like that in your background, a lot of this pain and shitty inner dialogue you're dealing with isn't even yours. So why are you still holding on? Because at this point in our lives as adults, We are continually making choices based out of our wounded self from 7 years old. You know, you know more now. Allow yourself to be your own cheerleader, your own hero. Fall in love with yourself. Find these truths for you. That's what you are being called to. That's why the fire has been cranked up and it's so intense. Because it is your time to awaken. I know it's not easy. I know it's scary and intense. I'm here for you. We have a whole community here for you. Engage, interact, like, subscribe, comment. Here to help. If you are still here, thank you, thank you. I am sending you oceans and oceans of love. From my heart to yours. Put a sword emoji in the comments if you're still listening. That is just your way of saying, hey, I'm part of this community, I resonate with this, and I'm going from survivor to warrior. Because that is what you are. You are a spiritual warrior, and your life comes with a bounty. If you're ready to unlock that bounty and start living the life of your dreams, let today be that day. Namaste. Bye-bye.