It feels uncomfortable balancing thoughts & feelings -- Divine Masculine - Divine Feminine

Hello, beautiful heart. How are you? Welcome to my channel. I am Dr. Denae Arias, the Awakening Doctor. I'm a metaphysician and creator of Your Cells Are Listening. All right, first I want to give a huge warm welcome to all of my subscribers. I appreciate you so much, and the energy with you subscribing allows me to connect to you even more, to bring you, even though these are general readings, more accurate-seeming personal readings. So thank you. For those who watch my videos but have not yet subscribed, I ask, if I resonate with you, please subscribe. It really helps out the channel. It helps get these messages to other people who need them. All right, and a warm welcome to my kaleidoscope gang, my tribe. I you guys. All right, so I'm going to get into the reading. I want to share something with you. I got a new— I got two new decks yesterday. They came in, um, for my birthday. So thank you, thank you, thank you. Um, absolutely love this deck. I don't know if you guys have seen it yet. This is just the box. It's absolutely beautiful. Um, here are— these are the back of the cards. I'm going to use these today. I'm just now getting acquainted with them, but the vibration off of this deck I connected with immediately. So we're gonna, um, use those. And I was also sent or gifted the Rose Oracle deck, so absolutely beautiful. I'll use those as well. So without further ado, let's get on into this. All right, Spirit, all of you and none of me. Show me the cards I need to see. Love, praise, and gratitude, glory and grace. Let me move that out of the way just a bit. Awaken, starting out with that oracle. How are you guys doing? And feeling with this eclipse that is coming up in a couple of days. We got a lot of intense energy going on, but it's here for our highest good. Worlds within worlds. Yeah, and Mother Earth. We are still in Taurus season. Happy birthday to my Taurians that have birthdays this week, the end of April. Happy, happy birthday. Let me know how you're feeling. It's like I said, I know this energy is a bit intense. All right, where your attention goes, your energy flows. Fall in love with yourself first. And forgiveness sets you free, not whom you forgive. All right. So you are awakening, going through, um, another level of the awakening process. The awakening, it's a journey. It's a journey back to the truth, the truth of you, the truth of the universe, the truth of one, the truth of love. There are levels to it. There is the resurrection and the ascension. The resurrection is resurrecting ourselves back, resurrecting ourselves out of the matrix, out of that duality thinking, so we can ascend into the higher consciousness. So yes, this Awakening card is letting me know, look, the last few weeks have really taken you through some deep energy. This is here as a reminder. What you— where your attention goes, your energy flows. So if you find yourself thinking about or having those internal conversations about the past and what you've lost or what didn't work out and all the pain, that's where your energy's at, and more of that will come to you. So right now in this process, you are being called to really be self-responsible for your inner dialogue and what you're thinking. Worlds within worlds. Fall in love with yourself first. Absolutely. Falling in love with yourself first. And I'm not talking about surface-level ego love. I'm talking about that deep unconditional love where you accept all of you, even those parts you don't like and that you feel others would not accept. They don't accept it because you don't accept it., and the power really is within you to change it. Mother Earth grounding, Gaia remembering you are one. This is also talking about raising that vibration of the feminine side of life and of, um, the love. So the feminine side of life is the heart, it's the feelings, it's the emotions. If you are holding any unforgiveness, one, from yourself, you've got to forgive yourself yourself, you guys, for whatever it is. Guilt and shame are two pillars of the Matrix that keeps it afloat. To get out of the Matrix and that human duality consciousness thinking, you need to forgive yourself and forgive others. When you walk in forgiveness, it doesn't mean that you agree with what's going on or what they did. It frees you from that energy. It frees you from that cycle repeating and repeating, and it holds back the other person's karma because your energy is still mixed into it. You need to forgive yourself and forgive them so that you both can go on your journeys how you need to. All right, so with the tarot, we are looking at the Seven of Pentacles, the Agent of Torches. In this deck, agents would be the knights, so this would be the Knight of Wands, that in and out energy. Crown of Cups, this would be Queen of Cups. Crown of Swords, Queen of Swords. And then Nine of Torches. And then Torches are the Wands. I think I already said that to you. All right, so let's look at this. Just look at the artwork on these cards. It is just absolutely beautiful. All right, so I am seeing some dualistic energy again. We've got emotions, we've got action, passion, and then we have the Pentacles here, which Pentacles represent the material world, whether it's finances, safety, security, you know, things that you can touch that are tangible. And I love how these look like arms and almost like she's looking outward from within herself. This is talking about that there really is no such thing as overnight success. That quality takes time and rushing creates unnecessary stress. This is saying don't be tempted to take any shortcuts right now, because if you do, you're gonna have to do everything all over again. Guys, I see this all the time during this awakening journey, especially when we're dealing with some really intense emotions, um, because we are in the habit of doing those altered ego things to keep us out of feeling those lower vibrational feelings, or things that, um, that we want to rush and just end and be at. This card is really letting you know, hey, stop a moment take inventory. You may need to ask yourself why, you know, what is your why, and then really reevaluate if you're in some frustration or some procrastination, resistance, however the energy's showing up for you. That could be frustration that you're not farther along, or the money's not coming in, or what have you. This is saying, hey, change your perception on it. Because you're not seeing the full story. All right, Agent of Torches. This can definitely, you know, and this dragon's looking right at her. This is about having that thirst for new experiences, new adventure, wanting to start a new project, expand whether it's your circle of friends finding a passionate friend to do things with. This card is all about surprises. So in other words, um, old lovers can pop up, old friends, new love. Expect the unexpected. If you are sitting in some energy that is difficult or heavy, this is saying bring some fun and humor to the situation. In other words, you need to relax a it. Get your mind off the situation so that the energy can flow and flow in the way that you want it to flow. This, this card really sums up the rest of these, but let me get through them. So you can have a full picture, and then I'll go ahead and tie it all up nicely. All right, so with the Crown of Cups, I love the goblet that she's holding. It is absolutely beautiful. I mean, this whole card to me is very breathtaking. Look at how this light is coming in. This card is talking about bringing in— you need some emotional understanding and compassion to yourself. This reading really is you with you. Um, there's more going on than you know. You've got to look deeper at everything. You know, the Matrix teaches us to really be surface level, address issues at the surface level, when that's just— it's like being on the hamster wheel. You're not getting down to the root and the heart of things where you really need to be. Um, You— this could be saying that there is somebody in your circle who can help you come back into a balance of emotions. Their, their energy is very grounding and it will help you. Um, it's also a card that is a sign that you need to create more space of harmony, whether that's at home, work, your personal inner actions. Um, but it's really calling you into balance with your emotions. And it's interesting because you have the Crown of Cups, which is all about emotions, and now the Crown of Swords, which that's all about thoughts. All right, which if you guys have been following me for a while, you know what I teach, that we have our thoughts first, and then based on what we're thinking and imagining visuals, the emotions come up to match that. Then it is a thought form. So with having both of these show up, you are being called at this time to be as fair as possible in whatever these situations are that you're facing. If you're coming at these excuse me, too hard because of limiting beliefs or filters or emotional attachments. This is a time to step back and change your perception. There is more wisdom to uncover, and you're being called to face whatever is going on with wisdom with grace and with calmness and with a logic. So in other words, if you're feeling really emotionally overwhelmed right now, you are being asked to come into balance. Um, this is also about if you have been collaborating with others and been feeling like the energy off, or that you need to go more on your own. Follow that intuition, that sign, because this can also say this is a time for you to go deeper within you and find, um, find your way on your own. You'll get farther that way. It does feel like there is energy on the board here that others' opinions and influences and their energy is causing confusion and setbacks for you. Okay, Nine of Torches. This card, if you look at it with the spider on it— when I first saw this card and saw this, you know, there's something— there's a saying I have been saying since the '80s, and it's, what a tangled web we weave when we try to deceive. Deception can come in many forms, even, um, deception— and this doesn't have to be like a betrayal or a backstabbing deception. We can deceive ourselves by gaslighting ourselves, not getting truthful and honest with ourselves. We can also weave this tangled web when we're not setting healthy boundaries and sticking to them for ourselves. This is also a sign that you kind— you need to have more patience, go easier on yourself. The time of relief is coming, but really protect your boundaries. Um, all right, let's get a couple of the interactive cards. Let's look at what what's going on at the subconscious level. The inner child and shadow. Wow. All right, so the first one out is my superhero card, and then look, we have that divine masculine energy that is at— and guys, I, I don't read for genders. I read energy. So when I'm saying Divine Masculine, you can absolutely be in a female garment. We all have masculine and feminine energy. But right now, this energy with this superhero and this guy right here, this is literally the visual to this dualistic energy reading, which we've been having this all week. Um, I've been talking about the dual energies, and the more that you focus on that dual, dualistic energy, or the limiting beliefs, ideas, thoughts, and perceptions, you will stay here. This card is needing compassion, understanding. Not from anyone else, from yourself first. You do have to go within to find your inner hero and allow that inner hero to take over and run your life now, because you've been living life through the filter of duality, through the filter of good and bad, judgment, guilt, condemnation, blame, and shame. For those in masculine bodies, I have, I have a good amount of male followers, and you guys have a whole separate level of layers that the feminine do not have. There has been so many mixed messages for the males in male embodiment. Be strong, don't let your emotions show, don't let them see you cry, you got to 'You the provider,' da da da da. But where's the outlet? Where is it that they can feel their emotions, release the toxicity? That is what is needed, because the way that the role— the gender roles have been basically taught or assigned, especially if, you know, you're a bit older has really been kind of barbaric and caveman-like. You know, we have been living under an energetic patriarchal system that, while it favored the masculine, it also tore the masculine down, put the masculine as separate and in this cage. So to speak, with nowhere really to go, and to really healthy— health-wise, mentally, physically, and emotionally and spiritually— be able to process and grow. We are now moving into an energy that is a matriarch. It's feminine. You know, whatever your spiritual beliefs are, whether it's Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, um, whoever, they all came with the same message. They delivered it in their own ways. They all showed the true path, which is we are here to— we're not here to please God, we are here to express God. We express God in our own individual ways. That was the purpose, the original divine purpose of ego, to be the master librarian, to help us decide and shape our personalities based on what we resonate with and what we don't resonate with. However, because of this matrix duality system that we were born into, we developed an altered ego. The altered ego is the counterfeit. It is the Matrix version of you. It knows the Matrix ways. That's the— it was created in the Matrix. It doesn't love you. It doesn't know real love, and it's process for this internal work. Going in, meeting your inner child, reestablishing that foundation. Going in, meeting your shadows, naming them, naming your alter ego so you can start to understand the players in your life and what is really going on. You are not broken. Fractured a little bit, but not broken. All right, somebody needed to hear that. So whoever that is, that is for you. So for the, um, masculine, for those of you in a masculine body with an Audi, you are being called to go within. Release, change, be open and allowing to the change because the old system of masculinity is coming to an end. The new age of the divine feminine, the love, that is now what we're in. All right, Lineage of the Rose, moved by the goddesses, here for this soul call, gather. Yep. This is all about when you are on this path of awakening, the teachers, the gurus, the masters, whatever name you want to give them, they appear when you need them. That's the whole part of this spiritual awakening journey. Centuries ago and years ago, people used to have to leave their homes, their families, go to another country, go out on this quest. They didn't even know what they were searching for, but they would go to the different sacred mountains and start their climb. And then mysterious masters would appear and take them into the mystery schools, and they would study those ancient mystery schools have been closed, but it doesn't mean that that activity isn't alive and going on in Earth today. It is. And you are being led to those of us in the physical body right now that are coming from that place of essential harmlessness, that universal consciousness, the Christ consciousness. Consciousness, those of us who have been doing this work behind the scenes for a while. So those that you are now really resonating with, there is a reason and a purpose. You are elevating higher. So it's not that what you've— the teachers you followed, the masters you followed, the work you've done before didn't work. It did. There's layers to everything. Don't discount anything you've done. Now you're going higher, so now you need different teachers— teachers who have already gone the distance, who've already done the deep work, who are already coming from the higher levels— because now it's your time. So if any of you are that internal dialogue, feeling like you messed up or you didn't go the right path yada yada. You have— you're right where you're supposed to be. Mother Rose, returning to each other, compassion, humanity. Yeah, you are here to usher in this new 7th Golden Age that requires a lot of growth, a lot of new knowledge, education, and purifying Welcome to the awakening journey. Yes, it is a beautiful journey once you've cleared all this, but the process to clearing it is intense. But it isn't designed to take you out. It is designed to refine you and help you. You are being called at this time to have patience. Patience with the process, patience with yourself, patience with others. You will be a big success. It doesn't come overnight. Remember, we talked about this. You are mirroring those that you are in conflict with now, or that are rubbing you the wrong way. Whatever the conflict, whatever the trigger, there is something in you, a limiting belief that is still buying into this. Instead of looking outside of you at what others are doing and needing them to change so you can change, that is altered ego trap. It's gaslighting. Separation. This is talking— yes, some of you watching could be in physical separation in the 3D. This for me in this reading is talking about separating your human consciousness, thoughts, ways, and habits, and allowing the divine to come in and rise up and see life from a higher perspective. All right, beautiful heart, I know I went over. I hope that this gave you some clarity. We have one more day to get your name into the contest. For the drawings for one of my decks. So how you do that, you subscribe, like, comment, share. And for all of those who have purchased personal readings from me through this month of April, your names will be going in as well. And for those of you who have purchased readings, doesn't matter what reading um, could be the mini, the 3-card, the one question, all the way up. 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