It's time to let someone go for you to heal and grow

Hey, hey, hey, beautiful heart! What's vibing today? How are you doing? All right guys, let's jump in. Let's see what is going on. So as you know, or maybe you don't, but you're going to know, we have another big cosmic, um, day. So today, uh, the Taurus stellium is back. And we've had— it's been on hiatus for a few weeks, but now we've got 4 bodies, 4 cosmic bodies in the sign of Taurus. That's what creates a stellium. So we've got the Moon, the North Node, uh, Jupiter, and Chiron. I could be wrong on those two, but anyways, um, What does all that mean? Well, Tora being in the sign of Taurus— Taurus is a grounded, nurturing, abundant sign. So today, especially if you've been feeling out of balance, ungrounded, really, um, do something extra for yourself today to ground. Um, also try to take— carve out 20 minutes for yourself to sit in meditation, or as silent as you can get. But bottom line, what I'm trying to say is go within. Spend— try to spend at least 20 minutes to yourself. No cell phone, no inner— no interactions, no distractions. Just just you and Source. And again, meditation is not about going in to get something. It is going in to be, to receive from Source. We don't go into meditation asking anything, you know. And, uh, we've been taught prayer wrong. We're taught to pray for things, that is, that's counterfeit to who we really are. Our design, we didn't need to ask for anything. We're not meant to go in prayer to ask for things from God, especially if it has to do with health, wealth, love, peace, happiness, joy. All of that is part of us being an I Am creative being. But again, we've lost our way. So now I know I've been talking on this subject for a little while, um, and it takes a little time to get comfortable, especially if you've had, you know, the, the teachings or the beliefs that you have to go, um, to prayer and ask or beg. So anyways, take, um, 20 minutes today if you can and just be. And even if you can't silence your mind or really get into meditation, spend 20 minutes just in gratitude. Um, and when you find it hard to start gratitude— and as I get it, some days it is that way— start with the simplest of things. I'm grateful for today. I'm grateful to have running water. I'm grateful I have food. You know, start at the little and then just keep going. Set a timer for yourself for 20 minutes. Um, yes, you could use that meditation for gratitude if, you know, you're not used to being able to just go into a 20-minute meditation and have your mind silenced. All right, so let's get going. Okay, so with the tarot, we're starting with the Nine of Swords. You know, all of this, that's monkey mind thoughts, that's all limited beliefs, uh, all the doubts, all the fears, all the fun stuff like that. Okay, so Feels as if— let me get these ones turned over. Inward Revolution. And what did I tell you about doing today? And Meditation. Guys, I can't make this up. You saw me shuffle, you saw these come out, you saw I didn't turn them over as I talked to you about meditation. Hello! And going inwards and meditation. So 42, Inward Revolution, Number 8, meditation. I love this picture because this is a person just being, allowing Source, Great Central Sun, to fill them up. Okay, so now back down to here. This is speaking about the duality, um, which, no surprise, of course it's going to come up. That's what we're all trying to move away from. Um, so if you've been trying to really get your mind and your thoughts under control, especially about past hurts, betrayals, and things like that, um, Six of Pentacles reverse. So this is talking about old memories, limiting beliefs, perceptions about giving and receiving, um, and how you've been the giver, giver, giver, but you don't know how— you haven't allowed yourself to receive. And when this stuff starts to come up, we quickly jump back into this anxiety card, um, the Hermit in reverse. For me, this is about looking outside of ourselves for the answer instead of going within in this meditation, just being and getting the answers. This is— no, I know that's probably what I should be doing, but I'm not feeling that. I'm too anxious, I have too much doubt or nervousness, whatever's going on. So I'm just gonna sit here and worry and think about, you know, all how I used to do things and try to control the situation, yada yada yada. You guys know what I mean. Nine of Pentacles in reverse. Okay, what is going on with all of these reversals? Um, this feels like this energy not being content being alone, uh, because the Nine of Pentacles is a singular card. It's about, uh, being happy on your own, manifesting the things that you want, that type of energy. This is saying it's in reverse. It's saying that there's some discontentment going on. Um, this is also feeling like— for me, this is also another card, or a card of split energy, split energy manifestations, meaning the physical manifestations that are coming through are less than what you really want. Why is that? Because there was some doubt, fear, and anxiousness going on when you set that intention for whatever it is you want to manifest. This is it showing up, but showing up in split energy, because again, the universe doesn't decipher. It goes to work immediately as soon as you ask. And it's going to deliver the exact same vibration. Justice. I know yesterday this card kept coming out upside down. I'm glad to see it today. It's up, it's right side up. Yeah, you know that it's time to come out of the woe is me This is what's always happened to me, that Eeyore. Because look, Justice is here. Justice is saying, leave it to me. You go inward. You focus on just being. You focus on connecting to source and trusting. Some of you are still at the stage of believing. That's okay. But there's a step. First we go from believing into knowing. They're two completely different vibrations, but you can't get to knowing without first believing. That's what this is saying. This is saying, you know what, I do— I believe that Source is going to show up for me, but I know I have to be responsible. There are certain things I need to do I need to move from believing to knowing. And this is where in this— all of this is talking about going from believing to knowing. This is the knowing card when it's upright. You know that you know that you know Source is not going to let you down. That's what it feels like, um, the challenge for today is, is moving from that believing— yep— into the knowing. Because believing, there's still room for doubt. Yep. Five of Pentacles. Feeling left out in the cold, feeling forgotten. That's what this energy is. Or this could also be, you know, you put, um, faith or trust in something or someone and they didn't deliver. They took and didn't deliver. But this is saying, you know what, I know that there is no loss in divine mind. I know everything is working out for my highest good. And that my job is to go within, to hold that space, to say my affirmations until they come true. You can't just say it a few times and then expect it to happen. You know, there's a story that, um, about Maitreya back in the mystery schools when the students would say, but I've tried, I've said it, you know, 100 times, or I've done it 100 times. He'll just look at you and go, good, do it 1,000 times. Do it until you receive the demonstration. That's what it's about. But the human consciousness gets in the way. It likes to do it for— the human consciousness is very lazy. It wants to say it a few times And then when it doesn't instantly happen, getting into the Nine of Swords, the Five of Pentacles, all of that— it doesn't work, blah blah blah. It's not you against anybody else, it's you with altered ego, and it has had more consistency and more momentum. That's what you got to get past. So you keep it up until divine justice comes in, until these situations change around, change up. That is your job. That is moving from believing to knowing. Believing is, yeah, that all sounds good, I know it'll happen someday. Knowing is, you know what, I don't have any time to fuck around. I'm serious about this. I'm done with all of this monkey business. I want change in my life. And this reading is literally laying it out what you need to do. Fall in love with yourself first. Stop telling yourself you're dumb, you're this, you shouldn't have trusted this, you shouldn't have trusted this person, blah blah blah. That is self-sabotage. That is judgment and criticism against yourself. Stop it. The feeling of the struggle creates the struggle. Gotta watch those words, gotta watch those thoughts. The mind's mastery lies in the heart. Absolutely, absolutely, absolutely. All right, let's get— let me get a moon card to wrap this up, but I need to see which one I want to use. All righty, all righty, all righty. We're not going to use the Moonology deck. We are going to use this one. Oops. This is— this one flipped up around, fell on my lap, hit the floor. Initiation, number 35. What did I talk about? I think it was Sunday about initiations. We, you You know, um, these different situations that seem so similar to our past are really our divine opportunities. They're tests. Another way to say that is initiations. Do you believe? Do you know? Do you want to continue forward, or do you want to stay stuck? That's what initiation asks you. And the initiation will always come after, you know, you've learned, or you're supposed to be learning the lesson. It's the initiation part where you decide to do something different that really, um, solidifies that. Look, number 6, fulfillment. That's what this initiation is about. Fulfillment of your life's purpose, of your dreams, of your wishes, of your heart's desires. All right, beautiful heart, I hope that helped. As always, I am sending you oceans and oceans of love from my heart to yours. Namaste. Bye-bye.