Live readings & Book Give Away

Hey guys, hello, hello, welcome in, welcome in. It feels so good to connect with you guys again. I mean, I know it's been a— it's only been a couple of days, but it feels like a long time. How are you guys doing with the energy? Hey Jill, hey Jay, welcome, welcome! How are you guys? Hey Jenny, hey Sarah, Patricia, woohoo! The gang's arriving! I was just saying I've missed you guys. I needed the downtime, and truth be told, I didn't take full downtime. I was actually working behind the scenes, just not really, um, expending too much energy. Energy. Um, but I've got some exciting projects going on that I'm working on that I'm looking forward to sharing with you guys, um, soon. So, uh, most of you know I'm creating my own deck, um, because you've seen my prototypes. The real deck is not going to look anything like this. And in that, I've ended up with 3 so far. So yeah, so that's coming. Hey Danielle, Kelly, hey hey! Awesome, Jay. You know what, you're right where you're supposed to be, doing the dance. That's the spiritual awakening tango. It really, really is good. Glad to hear it, Jenny. Hey, Kristen. Hey, guys. Awesome. All right, so I'm gonna start. We're gonna— let's play some cards. Let's get you guys some messages, some advice. That's what you're here for. Hang out. I am going to read a little bit. I don't know if I'm gonna read the whole chapter or not, but I'm gonna start reading Setting the Record Straight: The Fall from Grace. So I'm gonna read from the book a little bit about the fall from grace and kind of giving you guys a background of when I talk about the roots, like the real root causes, and I talk about going back, especially if it has to do with the feminine energy, the mother's presence, stuff like that. I'm talking all the way back. I'm talking fall, the fall from grace. Once you have a better understanding of the fuller truth to the fall from grace. It should help you at that point to be able to see— open up to see a different perspective on how we stay stuck in those lower vibrations and repeat patterns. Yay, thank you, Jay. Yeah, I'm going to— hold on, guys, it just seems— I don't know, can you see me very well? How's the lighting? Oops. Funny thing is, my office, um, used to be gray, and I wanted it gray, but then I got in here and I was like, yeah, no, I'm not feeling the gray. I wanted a pink office. That's great. My office is very pink. Um, it's a lighter pink, but I didn't realize for lighting purposes, for, you know, lives and film It sucks. So bear with me as I work all that out. Okay, sorry, let me take that off. Is that any better? And also, guys, um, I'm, I'm in the South. We're having some pop-up storms, so if you guys hear the thunder, um, it's getting pretty loud. It may also interfere with the connection, so I just wanted to give you guys a heads up. Hey, Cindy! Yeah, I know. Let me see. Okay, well, anyways, you're not here to look at my looks, so as long as you can hear me and you can feel the vibe, we're good. Oh, now I have a line. Anyways, let's roll with it. All right, so let's get into this. I know even for me today, the energy was a bit wonky, like doing really fine, you know. I've been, um, recharging my batteries, so to speak, taking it slow, and then all of a sudden, like, this wave of funk came by. I was like, what the hell was that? I gotta go meditate. So, so I feel it too, guys. I know it's been a bit wonky. Hey Yvette, how are you? How's the smoke air out there? I know how— I remember how it could get. Hey Donna, hello, hello. I love it, I love it. The gang is all here. All right, this morning I was led to pull out the, um, Mermaid Oracle deck, so let's kick this off with you guys with that. Oh, 110 where you're at? Well, it's 98 where I'm at with like 89% humidity. It's swampy, very swampy. Now for those of you don't know, yes, I live in the South, but I'm originally born and raised California. So I'm not originally from the South. That's why I really don't have a Southern accent. Only when I need to will I break out my Southern accent, y'all. And when do I need to break out my Southern accent? If I call a restaurant and want to order food, they apparently don't understand me unless I'm asking with a Southern accent. So when in Rome, You do what you gotta do to get food, right? Okay, abundance. I kid you not, you guys heard me say that I was led to pull this deck out. I have used this deck in, um, some readings today. This card keeps coming out no matter how much I keep, um, shuffling, so that's a good thing. Guys, and, and know that spirituality, this awakening path, it's like seasons, you know. Um, there's ebbs and flows to it, and that's okay. Um, so yeah, and there's that time— why am I saying that? Because a lot of us are going through this energy shift, this energy upgrade, full transformation. What happens before that? It's kind of more something constricting. Abundance, um, whatever abundance means to you, it doesn't just mean money. So yeah, it's, it feels— I don't want to say it feels— coming out of an energy upgrade. That's the word I'm looking for. On the other side of that is abundance. And abundance is coming in for all of us in different ways and forms. Uh, Arizona, the dry heat. I know people get irritated about that. Um, for me, heat is heat. Dry, wet, doesn't matter, it's heat. I'm more fall-spring girl. I'm definitely not a snow girl. I like it for a moment or two, but that's about about it. I'm in, um, South Carolina. So, all right, real abundance and relaxation. Yeah, guys, this is where we're moving towards in the future. Abundance. Relaxation and the Future. You know, the Future— this card came out in a reading earlier, and this mermaid is holding a crystal ball, which looks a lot like this one, but she's holding it, looking into it not wishing, not with anxiety, not wondering what does my future look like. No, she's looking at it like, yeah, I feel that. I know what I'm creating, you know. And this is the divine helping you. You are not doing this alone. You are being guided. Ah, in Goose Creek. Yeah, that is Lowcountry. I'm in the Upstate. Patricia, Oregon. Hey, all right. Yes, I love it. It's really heavy. Okay, let's get into some tarot. Let's see. Hey Kristen, Goosebumps, what's going on over there? All right, I'm going with— I'm gonna do J, Jill, and then I'm gonna start going down the line, guys, so bear with me here. All right. J, the Devil card came out. This for you, yeah, I mean, it could be the classic examples of addictions, toxic behavior, yada yada yada. For you, I'm feeling this is— it's your own thoughts, that habitual automatically going to the default of negativity and all of that. No judgment, no blame. Guess what? I used to too. That is— this is how we are programmed, guys. So this is part of being able to— when I talk about forgiving yourself and self-love, accepting all of you, this is a big part of it. But the Matrix teaches us to kind of shame those parts of us, if whatever, you know, isn't absolutely perfect, whatever the hell perfect is, right? This is about, you know, we all need to work on that, and that's the game. The Matrix teaches the 5 human habits. They're all negative, they're all lower vibration. When you get on this spiritual awakening, awakening journey, whether you've been on it for years or something tragic kind of catapulted the awakening, it is going on now even greater there with this last cosmic wave we're coming through. There's more light coming into the Earth. The Earth's heartbeat is vibrating different. More people are awakening. So guess what? Those of you who are already been awakening, you're now getting raised up a little bit. You're going to the next level. And oh yeah, the cards. And so there's a whole fresh set of people coming in. So what does that mean? That means, you know, this is a cycle. And different levels. The journey, the awakening, the journey, it's all the core of it. The root programming is the same. It is to come back into our true divine nature, remember who we are, remember why we're here, how everything is one consciousness, yada yada. But guys, I never discount getting out of that negative headspace in the matrix It's not easy, not at all. It is not. That's why you need to give yourself so much room, so much love and forgiveness and understanding, because you are essentially in between two worlds. You've got one foot still in the matrix as you're learning and growing, but now you've got one foot wanting to go forward into the new. So this journey, you see how it kind of goes? It's that tango. Yeah. And here's the other part. We get so used to being trapped in this energy. There's comfort in this energy. There's comfort in dysfunction because it's survival. We've learned how to survive it. We've learned how to control it. —so we think. We've learned how to manipulate it—so we think. Jay, for you, honey, this is altered ego wanting to keep you manipulating yourself, meaning staying in monkey mind, wanting to overthink, feeling like nothing's going to get better when the more that you try to move forward, that starts to act up. That's the name of the game. It only acts up until you get more momentum, more consistency doing this. Yeah, it is. And those are just the lies that we tell ourselves, those excuses. So when you're feeling that, and guys, this is for all of you, when you're feeling— it could be bored, it could be boredom, it could be meh. Um, even overly happy and overly excited is also an altered ego trap because it swings you too far the other way. The key is balance. Yeah, it is. It's not, it's not easy, but once you start to get into the game— and I refer The Matrix, um, as a game. Eventually, as I start reading the different chapters to you guys through here, I do have one on The Matrix. And you know how nowadays the video games— and I say nowadays because when I started with the video games, I'm talking like Atari and television, Centipede, Pac-Man, all of that— we— that level, you did that level, then you went to the next level. Well, now you know, games nowadays, you get a bunch of information here, and then, but to complete this level, you got to go to the next level, get a key from here to go back to this level and do more things here. I mean, it's just, it's a lot. It's like a freaking clown juggling all this crap while the whole time alter ego's telling you you're a loser, you can't get it right, you're always making mistakes, nothing's gonna get better. That's the same programming game you're trying to get out of. So it is doable. It's learning the new tools. It's learning why monkey mind is doing that, learning when monkey mind is doing that. And when I talk about whys, I'm not talking about reliving the shit that you about that. In fact, I tell my clients, you know, keep it to a minimum, and I help you not tell your own story because that'll just keep your story going. You want to tell yourself a new story. You want to get to that next level. A lot of us self-sabotage and think we're not doing things right, especially my Pisces. Jay, I did see that you were a Pisces. I have, um, I have a good number of Pisces, um, in my life. And yes, I, I know Pisces very well, and you guys love to spend 98% of your time worrying and thinking about things that will never absolutely happen, but there's comfort in that. That feels like control because you were very sensitive and you still are. Pisces are beautiful creatures by nature, but you guys also have all the, um, all the traits of the other 11 zodiacs. And you guys are, um, you're not fixed, you're a mutable sign. You're always in contradiction. I mean, 2 opposing fishes. Yes, yin and yang, but you're, you're always at opposition with yourself. So guess what? How do you control yourself? How do you get out of that? You learn you. You learn your own unique programming. You learn why you do the things that you do, and it's not what you learned in school. At all. All right, Jill, Page of Swords. Miss Jill. So Donna, you're Pisces too. Look, I'm— yeah, yes, yes, I understand the unique programming of Pisces very well. So guys, what I tell all of my Pisceans, please go easy on yourself. You are the worst critic you got, okay? There is no, no judging God out there. I know what religion teaches and all of that, but that doesn't exist. That's a man-made God to keep this matrix programming going. But to get out of your own head, it starts with you. But Miss Jill, Page of Swords. You know, this is my spy card. You know, somebody's watching, blah blah blah. But this I do feel has to do with the job. And I know, um, you just got the job. When do you start, by the way? Um, Yeah, going in a new direction. See, look at all these Pisces in here. Holy moly, love you guys. Any Tauruses? Where's my Tauruses? Um, Jill, there's been a burden that you need to drop that you've been carrying. You need to do that before you start this new, um, job, this new journey. You don't want to take the stuff from the past with you. You want to go into this position in a brand new mindset. Believe in yourself, absolutely, 110%. Cancer here. Yep, Cancer. We need a fish tank. Seriously, we need a bullpen and a fish tank. Um, let me see. Aries, Aries, Aries, Aries, and Taurus readings are always real similar. Libra, we need some balance here. I'm a Cancer moon too. I'm a Taurus sun, Cancer moon. So yeah, I have that Taurus exterior, but I have that, you know, gushy water moon. Sensitivity. Okay, Casper. Okay, Five of Swords. So who is this for? Who, who is really ready to drop the arguments, drop the battles, drop the conflict? You're battle weary. You're not wanting to take this into your future, but you're not quite able to get out of your own way yet. Who does that resonate? Kelly. Okay. All right, you're showing up in very stubborn energy. Um, it feels like in this, it's King of Pentacles in reverse came up, so yes, it could be about finances. Could be about a long-term relationship, um, could be about a few things. The ref— the, the stubborn energy, which is more a fear-based energy of coming out from behind the swords, behind the battlefield. It's like, yes, you're battle weary but you know how to function in the battle. You want out of the battle, but it's that unknown— what's going to happen, what's waiting over there for me— um, that's keeping you stuck, honey. That's all altered ego, because altered ego doesn't want you to grow, and it's going to, uh, want to really just make you so fearful of what is in the void, what's in the darkness, because altered ego only knows itself. It doesn't— it cannot give you the warm comfort feeling. It cannot tell you or give you the bright positive future. That has to come from your heart. That has to come from your feelings because altered ego runs from those things. Altered ego is a programming that thinks it is your I Am God self. Your altered ego has an identity crisis. You don't have an identity crisis. Your altered ego does, and it thinks it knows what's best, and it doesn't. It's now time for you to stand up and in love— remember I talked about accepting everything, accepting yourself as you are, everything you've done, didn't do, whatever, it doesn't matter. You're the only one judging you. So when you can accept all that, give yourself forgiveness, love, understanding, whatever you need to give to— in other words, the way to get rid of altered ego, we don't beat it into submission, we don't try to kill it, we have to love it free. But we have to give it a love that we've always been craving that we haven't had. So how do you do that? That's building the new foundation with the inner child, shadow, altered ego. That is doing this you know, watching what you say because now you know your cells are listening and whatever you think and feel gets written on your cells. It has to play out, it's a universal law. So the only way to get around it is to get a hold of yourself and change that programming. Yeah, yeah, exactly. An alter ego, it's the greatest squatter. It loves to live in your head rent-free. Okay, I know I haven't gotten to everybody, and I do want to get more people some cards, um, but I do want to read a little bit about the fall from grace before I go any further with the cards and stuff again, just so you guys kind of have a quick Cliff Note version of like the deep, deep-seated root. Yeah, exactly, words, words have power. Yes, Kelly, the feeling and making it real is because You can sit there and imagine and think about all the things that you want, um, and want to manifest it, but if you've got that subconscious programming going on underneath that you don't feel worthy enough, you don't feel that you deserve it, you got any guilt, shame, blame, judgment, doubt, that's what's stopping you. So you've got to— you need to get— raise your vibration to be at the vibrational level of what you want. Because when you put in your order form to the universe, the universe delivers. It doesn't decipher. It doesn't say, oh well, you know, you told a lie last week, nah, you're not getting that. It doesn't do that. It goes and gets it ready for you. Your job is, after putting out that intention, is to now become a vibrational match with what you want. Because if you already had it, that means you're a vibrational match. You want it, and want— you can also start changing that word as well to feeling. The key to feeling into this is imagining it as if you already have it. I desire. That is more magnetizing than I want. Want leaves room for it may not happen. I desire that. When you say that, that energy around the word desire is different than want. Oh, popcorn! Oh, that sounds good. I've got the tea. Who's bringing snacks? Yeah, we need snacks. You know what, that should be a requirement on, on all the lives now, where we just come hang out, talk, throw cards around, and have snacks. I love snacks. Patricia, I will get to that. I will, um, get you some cards and we'll look at all of that. Okay guys, let me jump into reading this before before time gets away. It's already been a half hour. All right guys, get comfy. Here we go. Setting the record straight. The fall from grace. Okay, I'm going to take my glasses off so I can read. There is a process to awakening, and there are many different spiritual paths that one can take. All of them are to be honored. It is up to each individual to decide what is perfect for them. In fuller truth, we are all here to ascend, as Jesus the Christ did, and help the planet to ascend. His time here on Earth was a living example of awakening and ascension via the resurrection path. To ascend, one must partake in the divine and holy marriage, which is mastering your mind, emotions, and physical body. Essentially, you must bring them into balance as they were before the fall from grace. Buddha was also a living example of this perfect and divine balance. The divine holy marriage. When you reach the level where you are no longer reacting and can maintain peace and harmony within yourself, that no matter what the appearance you have showing up, you know the higher truth. The core issue that is affecting the planet today is the conflict between thoughts and emotions within human consciousness. When you have thoughts and feelings that are out of balance, you you have chaos. One of the biggest fallacies perpetrated by the church that has caused magnitudes of chaos is religion's version of the beginning of the creation of life on this planet and their account of what happened in the Garden of Eden. By definition, the word religion comes from the root word religio, which is Latin and means to hold into bondage, to bind. I will leave that there and let you feel into that on your own. The belief in two powers of good and evil created by religion has led humanity down a dark, scary path for millions of years. Things progressively got worse in the different ages, which ultimately led to the destruction of those ages and civilizations. Dinosaurs, for example. The truth is there is only one power, one source, and that source is love and perfection. Anything outside of this is a creation from the belief in two powers, such as a loving and punishing God. That God is a creation out of the free will of humans to control and manipulate other humans by methods of fear-based beliefs. The truth of who we are What we are and why we are here has been hidden from us due to our choice to separate from our higher self and our spiritual connection. You see, the fall from grace was not because we disobeyed God and he then punished us and we need to turn from sin and seek a savior on our behalf to go before God and say we are good enough so we can spend eternity in heaven. The fall from grace was us choosing to make things harder and experience all that life on a third dimensional plane of existence offers. We are beings of consciousness on a third dimensional plane of existence on planet Earth. A third dimensional plane is a plane of demonstration, a place where light beings of consciousness choose to come to experience all that we choose to in physical garments. This is not our first time here, and life does not cease to exist after we leave these bodies. In fact, death is not final in full truth. It is a transition, one where we leave our current physical garments, our bodies, and return to our original state of light and energy form, which is consciousness. Not all of who we are in our true state comes into the physical body. The physical body is not able to contain all that we are. So a big part of our true self, our higher self, is in a higher dimension. This is your I Am Presence, higher self, your true God self. It did not fall from grace. Our little self, the human part of us, that is what fell from grace. And when we chose to come to this new planet called Earth to co-create with it, we experience what it is like to be God in physical forms. We pass through veils to protect our higher self. Awakening is the process of removing these veils. To give a quick as I can synopsis of who we are, where we come from, how we got here, what went wrong, where we are now and where we are going, since that is not what this book is focusing on per se. Yet it will help give a better understanding of how we find ourselves in the Matrix, what the Matrix is, and how to get out and live the life of freedom, understanding, and love we are all seeking, whether we realize it or not. It will also help to give a foundation of understanding for your cells are listening, as we are all a part of one consciousness on the same journey, just on different paths and different levels. Mother Father God is at the heart of creation, not only the universe but of us and every living thing we know of creation and that is yet to be created and come into form. Most of us are familiar with Father God, or God as a masculine figure, and have had many questions about the existence of a Mother God or the feminine in life. It took both the masculine and the feminine, the mind and the heart, two parts coming together as one whole to create in their image and likeness perfection in the infinite universe. You can think in terms of vibration, energy, light, and they would all be accurate. You see, Mother Father God Source All There Is, God and the Holy Spirit, or whatever other names you care to call them with whom you feel comfortable. There is no right or wrong, only that is, and only God is. In the circle of life, we are all one and one with all creation. We are here in these physical bodies having physical experiences because in fuller truth, we are all both masculine and feminine, and we are to bring into balance both of these polarities. Polarities like light and love, one in the same yet different parts. The masculine is the mind of God, and it is what we have been operating from for millions of years since the fall from grace. This is the light, the illumination. The fall from grace, which in fuller truth is when we shut ourselves off from the feminine, which is the heart of God, the love, the feeling side of life. Why and how did we do a stupid thing like that? In the first two Golden Ages, things were so much different. We were perfection, the image and likeness of Mother Father God, sent to this planet to experience what it is like to be creators in physical bodies. Now, things were very different in that time because we remembered who we were and what the purpose was for being here. When we came into embodiment of our physical bodies were much different than they are today. We also had an elemental being assigned to us, which when we turned from our all-knowing higher self and started killing each other, our elemental being would be killed as well. Everything always circles back to the one, infinite in nature and one with all. God is love, light, and perfection that can only create from that which it is. Therefore, anything outside of pure love— not the human duality love that we've all experienced in the matrix, the love that causes pain, but light and perfection— anything outside of pure love, light, and perfection is not a God creation, but a creation from the little self, the human self, out of duality. Duality being a belief in two powers, good and evil, a loving God and a punishing God. Duality is the matrix or human version of polarity. It is counterfeit. I like to think of it as a counterfeit handbag, museum quality but still a fake. Therefore, since duality is the counterfeit, the fake to the truth, anything created in and of duality will not be able to stand the test of time. The Bible is the biggest promoter of duality, and it starts in the first book, Genesis. Adam and Eve are in the Garden of Eden, and there are two trees, one being the Tree of Life, God's perfect tree, and the second tree, the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil. They were warned not to eat of that tree, and then a serpent came and tempted the woman, who then led her husband into sin. And that caused the fall from grace. Wow, there's a lot going on right there. First, you have two trees, yet the focus turns to the tree they were warned not to eat of. This is the first place we were reminded that there are two trees. Turn the focus off the counterfeit tree. Place your attention back on the truth of what you have forgotten: the Tree of Life, of which you are a branch. Christ is the tree, and Mother Father God are the roots. In which you are well grounded. This is the tree that grows within us. It is us, the Flower of Life blueprint. And it also is what we create. Everything in the universe is created out of this Flower of Life blueprint and this Tree of Life. Let's see, I'm just checking to see if you guys had any questions or what's going on. Um, Okay, good. You guys are talking amongst yourself. Good. All right, do you guys want me to keep going? Is this making sense? Okay, I'm just gonna go a little bit. We are not taught to remember the truths that we have forgotten because we have been in a great hypnotic sleep being force-fed the counterfeit information from the Tree of Knowledge of Good and Evil. We are told what is truth and we must conform or believe this way or that way, and it is the only way, and only one can be right. This is why we have so much unrest, anger, hatred, greed, etc., running rampant through the planet. It is why all kingdoms are out of balance, why the Earth is going through the great correction and the awakening. We are awakening to the, to the knowledge we have always had within us that we forgot because we have been taught that duality is the right way and anything outside of that is evil and wrong and will keep you separated from God and damned for eternity. This is the bullshit programming of the matrix. At least that is the name I gave it. Yeah, it is. It's a lot to understand. Hey Carol, hello honey. Yeah, you're welcome Cindy, you're welcome. Yeah, all right, let's keep going. The movie The Matrix did a great job at giving us visuals to the world of duality and its programming. Think of this life that you are living right now as a hologram, a video game named The Matrix. Within The Matrix are many different programs and holograms that are all based on the same formula or equation, duality, the belief in two powers, good and evil. The Matrix cannot operate outside of this platform. The whole thing will collapse when the masses wake up and come back to their true selves and turn towards the light and serve humanity from the Tree of Life. How does one get out of the Matrix? They remember how to bring into balance both the masculine and feminine energies and live from Christ's consciousness, the I AM presence within oneself. So that chapter goes on, but I'm going to leave it there right now because I know it is a lot. Let me see. Yeah, Jay, exactly. You know, that's, that's a good place to be because there is not one religion that has the truth. There's not one spiritual organ and spiritual group, blah, blah, blah. In other words, everybody has a piece to the bigger puzzle, and that's how it's supposed to be because we're all unique. You know, how boring would it be if we all like the same exact thing or we all learn the exact same way? It's not. We are here to remember who we are, remember that we are made in the image and likeness of God. We come from love. We have a divine inheritance, which is abundance, love, happiness, peace, and joy. But we've all been living— we've been playing a role. We've been the greatest actresses and actors in our own play. Why would this be done when we could have been perfect? Oh, I go into that. The reason to— Donna, to bring it all down— are you guys ready for this? Because we were bored. We were bored. So the original design is to take on these physical bodies to experience what it's like to be creator beings in a body, to have instant manifestations. We got freaking bored with that. Leave it to the human to get bored. So we decided that we didn't want to be all-knowing, we wanted to figure it out. So guess what? Remember back in school we were taught about the cave people? How do they fit in? Guess what? We were the cave people after we disconnected from the Tree of Life, our all-knowingness, and decided, no, send us down there, let us figure it all out. We had to learn everything. It was during that caveman time and through the centuries, human consciousness, duality, learning to control things happened. And we don't have to earn grace, we are grace. That's the thing, we've been taught so much BS that keeps us stuck, it keeps us in fear. That's why you guys will hear me repeatedly say challenge your own beliefs. You know, you don't— don't take— don't just take whatever I'm saying is truth. Don't take what somebody else is. You know, you, you do you. You take what resonates. But I will always challenge you guys individually to question all your own beliefs because most of it is wrong. Um, Yeah, I know. So yeah, and guys, I know right now while we're, you know, you're still in the matrix trying to figure it all out, it's this big labyrinth of shit and holograms and things aren't what they appear, yada yada. You know, the, the original design, as infinite and amazing as it is, The universe is very intelligent. It keeps it simple. It keeps it really simple. It's the human that wants to complicate it, and that is a mind trick. Trying to unravel that as well. Sarah, I hear you, I hear you. Yeah, exactly, you know, and we're here to help others. So remember, I at the beginning I talked about how there's more people, there's another, you know, great awakening happening again. Um, you guys, we're all awakening and at different levels, but we're all coming together to help each other through all of this. Yeah, exactly. You know, and that's the thing. Remember when I was saying there is no right or wrong? So however you choose to believe, whatever you choose to believe, I mean, there is the one core universal law and universal rule that is everything is love. So do unto another as you would have done to you. It's the law of karma because whatever we put out does come back to us. But I mean, if you want to believe that the tree, the big beautiful tree in your front yard is God and you want to call him Bob, nobody gets to tell you that's not right. If that's what works for you and resonates for you, so be it. That's what's right for you. And this is the thing, people, are so afraid of being unique and individual that, you know, our own uniqueness scares them because, you know, of the Matrix programming. And oh my God, you can't— that's so disrespectful to call Bob, you know, call God Bob in the tree. Who says? Your limiting mind, your limiting beliefs. Get out of my way. I don't have time for that. I got out of the matrix, I ain't going back. So yeah, you get to decide what, what it is, what resonates for you, what works for you, because you are here to be all that you are, your full I Am Presence. And so you know what, I'm almost done creating my deck, and I knew I was forgetting A very powerful saying I always say, and now I just remembered it, so I got to put it in there. Um, and that is, you're not— you weren't sent here, and you're not here to please God. You're here to experience God, and that's however you choose to experience it, with that one rule of do everything from love. All right, okay guys, let's go here. Let's see. You're right, Donna, exactly. That's the human, that's that human consciousness which I now call, you know, altered ego. It thinks it's God, it thinks it's nowhere, it knows everything. And here's the thing, It knows it fucked up. I'll probably get blooped for that, but it knows. It knows it cut itself off from knowing everything, and it— that's the game. So how do you feel safe and be able to grow and have your own beliefs? You start with the inner child because your inner child is that true essence of who you are. All right, let's get some cards. Yeah, YouTube, Facebook, they're always— they are, um, I know I'm not in Facebook jail, but they are definitely restricting who gets to see me and stuff because normally like when I do lives in the Healers group, I right away usually have over 100, 200, 300 people in the live. The last few weeks that I've been doing it, 30, maybe 50. It's just like, whoa. And I know some of my stuff, people aren't seeing it, not engaging. They're not gonna stop me though. I will still speak. Somehow, some way. Oh, and by the way, I'm probably not going on OnlyFans, not because of what they're going through, but they haven't approved me because apparently they cannot verify my YouTube channel or my Facebook where they see me doing lives and that I'm not impersonating myself. What? Yeah, I'm like, seriously? Anyways, so that's okay. It's okay. I will still be coming out with a membership site. It will have all kinds of stuff. Nobody's going to be left out, so don't, don't worry about that. Um, just allowing the divine to show me the right platform. Thank you guys, thank you. Yes, I'm really enjoying your guys's energy and your support and your backing. It really does mean a lot to me. More than you guys will ever know. Okay, Queen of Cups, Four of Wands, and the Hangman. Who in here is dealing with— feels like this is a love situation, not sure if it's what you want to do or not. This also doesn't have to be just love. This can be a family situation that maybe where you have been more analytical, more in your mind, more in that masculine energy. It's now time for the feminine energy to come through so that there can be celebrations and happy times. Hangman is also a Pisces card for me, kind of like, hmm, again, it's time to move out of that analytical. And I know how scary it is to trust your heart, but Pisces— and this isn't just for Pisces, you guys are resonating with me, you are highly intuitive, and It's just about trusting yourself, and that's what you need to do. You need to trust your heart, not your mind. Yeah, um, and guys, again, this can be a love situation, it can be twin flame, can be soulmate, it could be a friend, it could be family, but the overall message of these cards together is to get back to that time of being happy, celebration, creating something sustainable and new that's long-lasting. Get out of your head, get out of your head, drop everything down into your heart. To bring that to something more practical, how do you do that? How did I do it? Well, I didn't picture a physical heart, I didn't picture a red heart. For me, I pictured my heart space as not— it wasn't a hot tub. I had seen this image in meditation one day and it was so peaceful, so calming that I just wanted to hang out there. So that's my mental image of where I go. So I picture that in my heart and it's beautiful water. It's around, like you have seats in the water, there's lotuses around it, beautiful flowers, waterfalls. I mean, it's just, it's my peaceful place. That's what I picture as my heart. When altered ego, aka monkey mind, is in that hamster wheel or, you know, over-analysis, analysis paralysis, whatever monkey mind's going, I imagine hooking up a slide to monkey mind down to my, you know, Zen pool and sending the monkeys, the thoughts, that energy down there so it could just chill out and meditate. So whatever works for you to be able to get an image or whatever to go to get those thoughts down into your heart. Once they're in your heart, your heart is not the space to think. And guys, your mind will keep you busy with that mental masturbation, but your mind cannot solve the problem. The heart solves the problem, not the mind. All right. Yes. All right, guys, so yeah, this is resonating with you guys. I absolutely love it. I love it. Okay, so we've got the Eight of Pentacles reverse, Knight of Cups reverse— Knight of Cups, not Nine— and sneaky meeky over here, Seven of Swords in reverse. So Okay, feels as if somebody's going to try to come back around. Yes, it could be, um, a job. It could be, you know, and the only reason I say that is Eight of Pentacles is about hard work. Um, this could also be about a relationship. You put in a lot of hard work. You You've stopped putting in the work. The Knight of Cups, um, this feels like it was all really good in the beginning, but then, um, the more work you put in, the less work they put in, the more sneakiness, the more deception you started to find out about. Well, guess what? Sneaky meeky is about to come back around. This in reverse to me is about returning to the scene of the crime. Um, this is also— and this may not be for everybody, but depending on whose energy you're dealing with, this would be that energy of the person, you know, hiding the body in the trunk and showing up to help people look. So in other words, they know you've disconnected. That has thrown them in a tailspin. They are trying to figure out how to come back around but not make it look like they're in the same energy. All this is warning you they're in the same energy right now. Um, Yeah, it almost feels like it, Kristen. Um, the Knight of Cups in reverse in this spread right now is saying they are caught up so much in their emotions, it's overwhelming. There's a lot of regret. There is, um, they're doing the self-analysis. Yes, they are working on themselves a little bit. But they haven't quite pushed through that altered ego side, and they're still like, there's some things that need to come out that they don't want to come out. Yeah, yeah, well, they're trying to come back around. And again, this— I also feel that this is For some of you, um, friendship— it could have been friends with benefits or friends that had the possibility to have benefits or go somewhere. Can also be, you know, a longtime friend, family member, you know, child, somebody that wasn't fully honest. And this person, it may not even been totally malicious. Um, it really feels like this person, these people were very much in a lower vibrational victim consciousness, reliving their pain and basically lying to themselves. They can't even get honest with themselves. There's no way in hell they're going to be able to get honest with you or anybody else. This is really about them needing to work on themselves. But for you, this was what you needed at this time in your journey to take your power back from this energy, because this energy has been a repeating cycle. So this is all— this is, you know, yes, you have the choice. You can look at it as the negative of, you know, liar, cheater, you know, this, that, and the other, they did this to me. Or you can see the bigger picture of, all right, this was really a blessing in disguise. This was a lesson. This hurts so much that I'm finally willing to look at the truth behind it. And the truth isn't as scary as altered ego makes me believe it is. The truth is there is a wound within me. There's a false belief that somehow this person has triggered that I need to look at. You know, be grateful for what they've triggered in you. Yeah, yep. All right, so what is going to happen if you allow this person back? Pulled from a different deck. All right, Sarah, and I'm sure you already have the crown too. Queen of Pentacles— or Queen of Pentacles, sorry, Queen of Cups. Phil, this is you. This is your energy. You've been through the emotional wringer. You are now stepping up going, I know too much now. I'm gonna stand in my power here. But let me see if— no, the way I'm looking at it— there we go. I had to change it because when I'm looking down and I hold it up to you, it looks different. But see how the King of Wands is looking over at the Queen of Cups, and she's like, her mind is on her cup, her mind is on her, her wealth, her health, her sanity, her freedom, her happiness. And he's over here looking like, hey, I see you, you're not going to get away from me, I'm coming back. You know, I know this is the King of Wands, it's not the— what, Knight of Wands? King of Wands is very sensual. It's more of a stable energy, but it's a lot of passion. Um, I'm also feeling off this King of Wands that for some of you, you are in the Queen of Cups and the King of Wands at the same time. You are that King of Wands energy of solid knowing that you don't want that back. You're passionate about protecting your inner— um, could read this other way because I do have Tower in the— so if you do at this time and hear that when I say at this time, because energy is fluid, this is a process. This feels like it's gonna be up and down, probably um, at least for the next couple of weeks. Expect more stability, um, in relationships, in people, and in energy. Not until maybe probably mid-September, but a Tower moment is coming. Don't freak out. This isn't a bad Tower moment. This Tower moment brings you peace and balance. Stability and happiness. The Tower is an aha moment, something sudden, unexpected. Doesn't have to be negative, and I'm not feeling that this one's negative. It is more of finding out what intuitively you already know, but whatever it is, it is going to help you move forward in this journey. Yeah, exactly, being at the Tower already. Um, yep, abandonment, self-doubt. Oh yeah, yeah, Cindy. Um, It could be Virgo. As soon as I say that, the Hierophant in reverse. Toxic Virgo. A Virgo that, um, wants to feel like they fit in, but makes up stories, um, to feel more important than they really are. I don't want to say that than they really are. This person would have, um, they could have been a latchkey kid, somebody that didn't have a lot of, um, attention growing up, and so they have this codependency and they want to hold on, that they will make up stories to fit in type of thing. Um, that's the energy that I'm getting. Patricia, what do you mean? Um, The Hierophant is also somebody who is— the Hierophant in reverse is somebody who is just not, um, listening to their higher self. They are operating in more altered ego ways. All right, and here's another thing that I've also noticed. This is in general, um, so take it how it resonates or, or the advice for what it is. Um, I've seen recently where people get readings or want readings or whatever, but they have a preconceived idea of how they want the reading to go or what they want their answer or to look like. That in itself will block you from the true message trying to get through. That's altered ego's way of setting you up with expectations, not allowing the divine to flow, to get the message to you the way it needs to come through. All right, okay guys, so as you guys know, I am going to be giving away a book. I'm actually probably going to give away a couple of books. So how that is going to work, everybody who has commented, who's in here, who's commented, your names are all going to go into, um, into the system, and it's a random— it's not me picking, it's— it'll be loaded into the picker software As soon as I'm done, I will go through, get everybody— I don't want to miss anybody— and let the computer pick who are the winners. And what I will do is reach out to you so that way I can get your address, because I'm going to obviously physically mail it because it's a physical copy. Yes, I will sign it. And send it out to you. Before I send it out to you, I will sign it, and I'll be getting them out by the end of this week because I want you guys to have them. All right, um, tomorrow is Thursday. I do plan on, um, doing some impromptu lives. I know a lot of you like the scheduled ones, and I'll have a mixture, but I will be going live in the Healers group tomorrow not sure what time. And I'm also going to do lives on Facebook, both in my private group and my public profile, um, at different times, just so, um, you know, we can cycle through. All right. All right, Patricia, I'm gonna— I saw, I know you commented that earlier, so let me pull that. What I'm getting before even the cards come out It's kind of what I talked about earlier, the underlying energy, um, of the loss, of the loss of the finances. Um, okay. So it's about training yourself to see the positive in everything, because the good comes out of what we seem bad. When things happen to us, we have to pull back and ask, okay, where were my thoughts and my emotions before this happened? Because we have more say in what happens to us than we like to believe. So with that, um, with that, there is a blessing trying to get to you, Patricia. Absolutely is. It's a blessing, it's a celebration, it's happiness. Um, have the Knight of Wands. This is in and out energy. This can be player energy. But it feels, um, this can be your own energy with how you're seeing what's going on in your life, um, and all the different tragedies. Because I know there's been a lot, and one right after the other after the other, um, but I feel like you're, you're really trying to come out of that. That energy is rising up. Testing your new beliefs, your new actions. So I feel that this Nine of Wands is kind of your energy in and out, in and out on it. Make that commitment to yourself that you do deserve this healing, this growth, this time of celebration, because there's a lot of communication that's about to come in your way. Feel like there's doubt coming because I just grabbed a second deck. Four of Wands came out in reverse. Now you start with the Four of Wands here, this put the Knight of Wands in between. That kind of explains that back and forth because Four of Wands reversed This is, um, I don't want to say feeling sorry for yourself, but the dissatisfaction, going back into the default, um, doubts, not believing it's going to happen. Exactly. And see, Patricia, that's the thing. We naturally see it automatically as a setback. These things really are not setbacks. These are what launch your comeback. But as long as we keep seeing them as setbacks, that's what they are going to be, because we are stubborn creatures. We do not make change unless it's very painful, very traumatic, those type of things. To stop that cycle from happening, we have to change our beliefs, how we see it and how we feel it. So yes, believe me, I've had many tragic things in my life, and I was in that same mindset of, can I just catch a freaking break? Come on, you know, one foot up, then another setback, blah, blah. When I stopped seeing them as setbacks and I started being grateful, and that was difficult, and I'm not going to sit here and tell you that was easy, but when it would happen and I would be grateful, you know what? All right, everything is always working out for my highest good. Thank you for protecting me from my own stupidity, whatever it is, you know. And I'm not saying, Patricia, I'm not saying you're feeling sorry for yourself. I'm saying that this is a habit that we all go through, especially when things happen. But the why behind it lies within us. What were we thinking and feeling before said setback happened? So those things will come into our lives, those experiences, um, that show us. So in other words, if these things don't happen, we're not going to be able to look at the energy, go deeper to find out our own whys. So the whys are there is no spirit. There's no God sending this crap to you. It's literally our own thoughts and emotions that keep this playing out. But yeah, you get a hold of what I call the stinking thinking inside of yourself And I know, I mean, Patricia, I know about your TBI, and yes, there is a part of that, but the process that I'm talking about is if you don't think, that's the whole thing. It's not about thinking. Thinking gets you in trouble. The emotions, that feeling that, you know, whatever that internal dialogue is. And I'm not— and again, guys, I'm not saying that you had a thought about something tragic happening and something tragic happened. I'm thinking— I'm talking about feeling and thinking the 5 human habits: judgment, guilt, condemnation, blame, and shame. Those are all lower vibrational energies. When we're in that mode, that is what is going to come our way— more experiences for us to feel that way. So in other words, the universe can only give us back what we vibrate. So if we're vibrating at an emotional level in those 5 human habits, shit is going to happen. It's the universal law. And until we can— so we can intellectually know that, and we can know it, But until it actually gets into us at a cellular level, until we assimilate it, that takes time, guys. It— I didn't go from being where you guys are at in the muck, not being able to find my way out, to where I'm at now all of a sudden. It didn't. It wasn't a year, it wasn't a few months. It wasn't. It was repeatedly hearing messages, diving in, you know, when all kinds of crap was happening. I mean, right after another, after another. I had 3 strokes pretty much back to back. That was, you know, things like that. There were all kinds of things. Not to mention the two, the two deaths. Not, not even talking about the last one. Um, there was a lot of stuff, but again, the universe isn't going to change its laws because I didn't get it, or I was too hard-headed, or I wasn't allowing myself to absorb the energy. It's part of our process. This is part of the process. This is part of the journey, and you have absolute support from, you know, from me, from the community. We're all here to learn together and to help each other grow, um, and, and understand this. Because guys, we didn't grow up with this. We didn't, we didn't know this. Then things start happening, and you know, it's just, it is, it's a big pile-on. So what I'm saying, Patricia, is again, don't think about it, feel it out. Where were your feelings and emotions a few days before this happened? I mean, it could be, you know, a few minutes to a few days to a week. 2 weeks, because it's the law. We are beings of cause and cause alone. So we're not beings of cause and effect, meaning we are beings of cause. We cause things to happen based on what we are vibrating emotionally. The effects of that, you know, what we vibrate at goes out. The universal law is it brings back to us what we vibrate. So yeah, and go easy on yourself, Patricia. Give yourself extra love, extra grace, because you do have another challenge that you're working through. So, and you need to give yourself the ease and grace while you're gaining the strength and walking through this. Let's see. All right. Yeah, we do, we do all need to help each other because guess what, guys? This journey, it's lonely. So don't kid yourself, it's not all unicorns, glitters, and, you know, high vibrations. Absolutely not, it isn't. It is about, you know, there's a lot of fear, there seems to be a lot of darkness, a lot of loneliness, all of those things. We do need each other. We need each other to remind ourselves. Guys, don't think I don't need reminders, even at this level. Level of my path, I still need to give myself reminders. And I get reminders from you guys, you know, watching you guys feedback, or even, you know, yeah, feedback what you're learning from me. That helps me remember. We all need that. And there is no judgment on this at all. No judgment towards anybody. This is the safe place of Guys, the matrix is ugly. It's now being pulled back. We're starting to see it for what it really is. And guys, we're just at the beginning of this. You know, there's more stuff coming down the pipeline. That's why it's our role and our responsibility to be the light and hold the light, because there's others coming behind us. You know, as I'm here learning from you and sharing with you you're learning from me, you're sharing with me, you guys are going to have, you have your own stories, you're going to have your own YCal stories of how Your Cells Are Listening helped you get to your freedom, and that's how it's supposed to be, and you know that you're going to magnetize people to you out of your own story that I would never reach. It's that one consciousness Nobody left behind. Narcissistic program. You are in it. I know a lot of you don't know my full story and I'll start sharing it more and more. I was raised by an abusive narcissistic stepmother, married a narcissistic man, had narcissistic friends. It was like narcissistic stick fucking central in my life. So you're not resonating with somebody who hasn't been through the trenches, who hasn't been through the fire, who hasn't felt that depth of despair, who hasn't wanted to, you know, try to take her own life. I've been through all that. Yeah, the light coming down, I think it's coming from my chandelier. So, but yes, I do work with Metatron. He does, um, randomly pop up. I work with, uh, not just Metatron, I work with many of the archangels and ascended masters. Yeah. Yeah, Patricia, we're here. We're here to help you. You know, um, so far everybody that resonates with me, we have— I mean, obviously you resonate with people that you can relate to and that can relate to you, especially at this, you know, depth. You found your tribe, you found your community, and that's what I'm trying to build I want to build a community. I want us to have levels of membership to meet everyone because that's— this is my service to life. You know, I made a promise to God many years ago that when I was healed and I came through this, I would, you know, help others. I would share this with them, and that's what I'm here to do. And narcissists abuse, I know it really well. And now I also know it— I don't teach it or counsel it from that unhealed part. I've gone through it. I've healed it. I have no animosity, no ill feelings towards any of the past people in my life. As a matter of fact, I am the most grateful for them because if it wasn't for them, and going through all this, I wouldn't be where I'm at today. I wouldn't be here, 50 years old, living the best life, coming from what I came from. My real mom tried to kill me. She tried to throw me out of the— on the car, out of the car, down the freeway when I was under 2 years old. You know, I've had exes try to kill me. So it's, you know, I've got, I've got a very past, but What I'm saying is, you know, what I used to be ashamed of, I'm not anymore. Those were all lessons, and now I can reach people around the world who need to hear that message, who need that light of hope. Because guess what? I needed that light of hope. I didn't find it really, I found it through spirituality, and we all need our spirituality. But coming out of that toxicity and the religion and all the different toxicities— the Matrix is toxic— it is scary. Yeah, it absolutely is. But guess what? Inch by inch, it's a cinch. Yard by yard, it gets hard. I'm building a community of all of you. You guys are all on the ground level helping me build this. We're here for one another and we're only going to get bigger. We're here to shine our light. We're here to help each other through. We are not a community of people that are going to get together and just wallow in the shit. No, we know it's stinky. We know we don't want it. We're going to come together, raise each other up, talk about how to be our own cheerleaders, how to cheer each other on and know that You know, our turn is coming. It is. All right, you guys, I am— it's 8:30. As much as I still want to keep going, I need to turn on the AC. It has gotten— I told you we have a storm going on. The humidity, humidity must have peaked because I'm like stifling. So, all right, you guys, I hoped hanging out with me tonight helped you a little bit, and, you know, listening to a couple of pages of The Fall from Grace. Happy to come back on later this week, finish reading that as well. Just let me know, and be on the lookout for, um, who the winners are for the book from tonight's live. Next, or this Sunday on the live, I'm giving away, um, another book or two, so there will be more chances for that. All right, you guys, thank you again so much for hanging out with me. I love feeling your guys's energy, interacting with you. Absolutely enjoy it. You know, I may even start doing this on Friday nights. I don't go out, I don't do anything. I'm here, so why not? Why not hang out with you guys? Let's all grow together. All right, from my heart to yours, I'm sending you, each and every one of you, oceans and oceans of love, respect, happiness, grace, and abundance. May God's light and love shine on each and every one of you. Good night, you guys.