Old wounds resurfacing is on tap today! Be delulu till its trutru!

Hey, hey, hey, beautiful heart! How are you today? Welcome back to my channel. If you're new, welcome in. I am Dr. Denae Arias, also known as the Awakening Doctor. I am a metaphysician and a therapist here to help you navigate this spiritual awakening journey into self-mastery. Another way of putting that, helping you through the delulu until it's true true. So here we go. Let's just talk a few minutes about this cosmic energy that we're under because it is interesting. Today we have a planetary shift. We have Venus has moved into Cancer, which is normally favorable, kind of nurturing type of energy. But right as it moves into there, it's, it's sitting by Saturn. So that's not as very favorable. It's almost like Venus in Cancer is sitting on a cactus. So Expect some bumps, to say the least. Things can be uncomfortable. We also have Chiron going retrograde. Chiron is known as the wounded healer. Whenever Chiron's in play, it highlights wounds— not the ones on the surface, not the ones that we're aware of. Think deep buried roots. I talked about yesterday the energy and kind of going within, and the truths hide beneath the surface. So cue Chiron, here we go. It's going in retrograde, so it's going backwards, which means it's slowing down. It's giving us that opportunity for these wounds to come up again, not to take you out. This is definitely a divine opportunity to look at those wounds, face them, and rewrite them. Because a lot of this wound— wounded energy isn't what we think it is. It's not what we have been trying to fix or heal all this time. So if you are feeling that heavy wounded energy and like, what the heck is going on? You're in the right place at the right time. Everything is happening as it needs to. Remember I said this journey is not comfortable by any means. Um, it is not a let me just take an inner tube put it on the nice calm river, sit in it, you know, sip my wine, beer, whatever, and just meander down the river. Oh no, no, no, no, not at all. It may look calm, cool, like relaxed. You can just sit in there, kick back, and just meander down. Oh no, as you're meandering down, all of a sudden That water, that weather is going to change. Next thing you know, you are going down some rapids in an inner tube. You're not even in a rafting tube, you are in an inner tube. Okay, maybe you have floaties on. What I'm saying is you are not prepared physically, emotionally, mentally for what you are going to encounter on this lazy river ride that you thought it was going to be. And again, no judgment in that. Hey, I speak from experience, guys, so I know I did not think it was gonna be, you know, the most intense white rapid rafting ride I have ever been on in my life. But here I am, I survived it. I'm here to help guide you through it. And yeah, for the record, I do love whitewater rafting, um, and all the times that I have gone, I can definitely say I've had some intense experiences and rides, but nothing like this spiritual journey. So hang in there, you're amongst friends, I'm the guide. Let's go! All right, so knowing what this planetary energy is like, you could be feeling the wounds, you could be feeling a little tender, some past could be coming up. Um, I've mentioned if people from the past pop into your mind out of the blue, know that no, that is not you thinking of them first or conjuring them up or reminiscing. It's your picking up on them thinking about you. That is 100% what this energy is. So, because again, if your wounds are coming up, remember I've been teaching that energy doesn't know time or distance. That's irrelevant for energy. So whoever you are energetically connected to that this energy reminds you of. Because remember, this is karmic energy. This is the, um, wounds, abandonment, rejection, all of those things that we haven't looked at within ourselves and started to work on first. This whole energy, this whole planetary setup is here to say, hey, Hey, hey, hey, don't look over there, look over here, because the old way of being seen and relating no longer works because you've done so much work on yourself. You're not in that same place. This is calling for a new level, and you at this point, you're working through, I don't need that outside validation. I I need to validate and love myself first. And I know, not easy, not easy, but it's doable. All right, so we're starting out with enjoy your shower, and it's number 3. It was on this spiritual awakening journey going through the ego death. And spoiler alert, if anybody's told you or if you believe you only go through one ego death on this journey, you've been lied to. So I'm just gonna be honest with you now. No, it's not a one-time deal. It can happen a few times. Each time it does though, it doesn't last as long. There's more revelations, things like that. But anyways, when I was going through this, it was interesting because all of a sudden, like, the energy was so intense. There were times that whether, you know, I didn't want to go outside and ground, or I couldn't, whether it had to do with the actual weather, or or whatever reason, right? I remember just having this desire to just get in the shower, and so I would. And there were times that when I would get in the shower and let that water hit me, that it was like going through a refinement. I would just let— that's where I would cry, scream, you know, let things out. Um, the shower was also my magical place of amazing ideas and things like that. But what I'm saying is, if you're feeling this heavier energy, things like that, the shower truly can be that magical place, as that water is helping to cleanse out this energy not just metaphorically. So be intentional with your shower time. Your shower time could absolutely be a magical place of creation for you. Try it on, see if that works. Feel your heart. This is piggybacking on yesterday. Your heart space, this is your center of truth. It's a completely different vibration than your brain or your mind, and yes, brain and mind are two different things, but this is where in this new energy, this timeline that you've jumped to, why things feel so different. Why if you try to analyze or think too much, it's uncomfortable. It's because it's a completely different vibration. Your mind doesn't have the answer, your heart does. So if you don't know what to do, if, um, you're feeling overwhelmed, confused, need answers, challenge yourself to drop it into your heart space, not your mind. Ask your heart to show you the answer. And remember, we talked about yesterday, and for those of you, if you didn't see the video yesterday, it's the one before this, so go and listen to that if this is resonating. Of course, now I lost my train of thought. I'm sure it'll come back. All right, learn to trust and surrender. Yes, now it's interesting because this one is upside down, so which I'm not surprised. I picked up on it yesterday, feeling it in the energy today, that even if you feel so at rock bottom Guess what? Even when we feel like we're at rock bottom and the cave has caved in and we can't see our way out, that is a point of change. That is the point I call ground zero of where you've hit rock bottom and Now is the time to surrender and trust because the only way to go now is up. But so many people spend way too much time down at rock bottom because they're holding on, not trusting, not surrendering. They're holding on to these wounds like it's a badge of fudging honor. How's that working for you? It really is safe to let go and surrender, but I know how difficult it is, you know, being on this side of it and looking back. Not that I have regrets. My path was my path. Everything on it I needed to get me to where I'm at, and I'm grateful for all of that. But hindsight and all of that, I wish I would have listened sooner or put it into action sooner. In other words, you know, I stayed in the pit longer than I needed to. Once I truly surrendered and trusted and just said, you know what, I got nothing to lose, I I have tried it my way, I've tried it this other way, I've tried control, I've, you know, tried everything. I haven't tried surrendering and trusting at this level. Had I tried surrendering and trusting before? Yeah, of course. But what I didn't realize was that was coming from altered ego. It was more like trying to control my environment, trying to control the outcome, things like that. And it always brought me right back to that pit, that zero point, because every time I was at that pit and zero point, and oh my God, was it intense and so uncomfortable. But I knew, I knew there was better. I knew there was more. And yeah, when you're— how do you know when you're in that pit? Monkey mind, that internal dialogue is so loud. And you're the villain, you're this, you're that, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. Let go of the blah, blah, blah because altered ego monkey mind is a program. It was programmed out of your wounds. That's the only language it knows, okay? Altered ego monkey mind knows no other language but pain, wounding, victim, lack. That is its comfort zone. So if that internal dialogue is what's going on, you know right away that's monkey mind. That is not your heart. And monkey mind doesn't speak truth. Yeah, it'll remind you of your experiences, but just because you had the experience doesn't mean that's the full truth. This awakening journey, this is where you question everything, everything you were taught, everything you believed. Spoiler alert, there is no one right path to follow. Each one of us are unique. Your spiritual awakening, your path, your journey should absolutely be that unique. It doesn't need to match me, doesn't need to match your spouse, your best friend, or, you know, whoever. By all means, learn from everybody and then take what fits and feels right. Because guess what? A lot of times on this journey where this trust and surrender comes in is learning that it is safe to not know. It is safe to let go and, you know, hope, hold on to hope of how you want it to work out, but letting go of what is happening and that inner dialogue around what is happening because You've had those experiences, if you're still talking about those experiences in the way of, well, I'm so tired, I just want to give up, you know, my story has been this, this, this, and this. Stop telling that fucking story, okay? Stop it. That's your problem right there. Coño, stop. Tell another story. Why? Because that old story is 100% monkey mind. I am not negating your experiences. You've had those experiences so you would get to this point in life where you could reflect back and go, wait a minute, now I have more knowledge and understanding. Let me look at that. So with the cosmic energy today, yeah, old stories could be just all over you. You could have woken up and decided to wear it like a new outfit. How's that outfit feeling? Is it feeling too tight? Are your boobs popping out? You know, what's happening over there? Because you are being called to face your fears of rejection. And like I said yesterday, the fear of rejection— truly, when you peel all the layers back, you find out the fear of rejection isn't others rejecting you. That's just how we've come to believe it based on those experiences. This is how I say— this is why I say the experiences happen, but it doesn't mean that was truth. Because this fear of rejection, the only way to heal that, one, you got to face it, but you face it within yourself because the fear of rejection gets played out with different people in your life seeming to reject you. Why? Not because you're broken, not because you're not good enough, but because you're rejecting yourself. If you're sitting there going, well, how the hell am I doing that? That inner dialogue I was just talking about. Every time you judge yourself, you guilt, shame, blame, talk shit about yourself, you are rejecting you. I'm just gonna let that sit for a little bit. The good news is, yes, you absolutely can rewrite this. You are the only one in control of yourself. You may not feel like you're in control right now, but truly you are. You don't need to wait on anybody to get their shit together to come over to show you love or say something to you or validate you. You give it to you first. And yeah, for those of you who I just heard, D, I've been doing that. How long? How long? Let go of time. Let go of how long. That is a stumbling block. Why? Because you're still stuck in lack. Well, I don't have it now, so when? And it— that easily brings up that old story. That's where you've got to trust and surrender. When you trust and surrender, you let go of this time frame and you go within and you give yourself that validation, that love. Go easy on yourself. Be your own cheerleader. Takes practice, takes consistency. Consistency builds momentum, and before you know it, your outer experiences and your outer world is changing. You're seeing manifestations. You're seeing people respond to you differently. You truly are The author and creator of your own story. If you do not like what you're experiencing right now, write a different story. But to write a different story, you have to let go of the old one. You are the master of connection. Yeah, like I was just saying, you are the master of your life. No better time than now to start acting like it. Own it. Because when you do, the path gets easier. Life is still gonna life, you know, don't get me wrong. We're still in these human bodies having human experiences. But when you go within, you find your authenticity, you become your own cheerleader, you give yourself the validation and love lifing when life happens isn't as difficult. It's like you can ski right through the bumps. But if you've never skied before, you can't just get up on your skis and have somebody push you and you'd be able to navigate. Not at all. To navigate life, you've got to go within. It always starts with you. All right, beautiful. I hope that helped. I hope you got something out of this. I am sending you oceans and oceans of love today. If you're still here and this resonated with you, drop a rose in the comments below, and I will see you in the next video. Bye-bye.