The video presents a raw, lyrical monologue that mirrors the structure of Logic, Alessia Cara, and Khalid’s song “1‑800‑273‑8255.” The speaker repeatedly voices intense suicidal thoughts, feelings of alienation, and a sense that life is not their own. Midway, the narrative shifts toward a plea for self‑preservation, emphasizing the value of staying alive, describing moments of breath, love, and self‑recognition. Poetic imagery—underwater breath, chest‑to‑chest connection, reflections, snow‑melted tears—illustrates the struggle and the yearning for hope. The piece functions as an artistic reinterpretation of the original suicide‑prevention anthem, using personal confession to convey both despair and a hopeful call to live.
Chapters
I feel like I'm out of my mind. It feel like my life ain't mine. I don't want to be alive. I don't want to be alive. I just want to die today. I just want to die. I don't want to be alive. I don't want to be alive. I just want to die. Now let me tell you why. All these other things I'm talking about, they think they know it. I've been praying for somebody to save me. No one's heroic. I— my life don't even matter right I know it, I know it, I know I'm hooked deep down but can't show it. I never had a place to call my own, I never had a home. Ain't nobody calling my phone, where you been, where you at, what's on your mind? They say every life's precious but nobody care about mine. I've been on the low, I've been taking my time. I feel like I'm out of my mind, it feel like my life ain't mine. Who can relate? Woo! I've been on the low, I've been taking my time. I feel like I'm out of my mind, it feel like my life ain't mine. I want you to be alive. I want you to be alive. You don't got to die today. You don't got to die. I want you to be alive. I want you to be alive. You don't got to die. Now let me tell you why. It's the ready first breath when your head's been drawn in underwater. And it's the life that's in the air when you're there chest to chest with your lover. He's holding on though the road's long until you light in the darkest thing. And when you stare at your reflection, finally knowing who it is, I know you, thank God, that's you. I know where you've been, where you are, where you're going. I know you're the reason I believe in life. What's a day without a little night? I'm just trying to shed a little light. It can be hard, it can be so hard, but you got to live right now. You got everything to get right now. I've been on the low, I've been taking my time. I feel like I'm out of my mind. If you like my life, be mine. Who can relate? I've been on the loop, I've been doing my time. I feel like I'm out of my mind. If you like my life, be mine. I finally want to be alive. I finally want to be alive. I don't want to die today. I don't want to die. Finally want to be alive. Finally want to be alive. I don't want to die. The one I don't need. I just want to leave. I just want to leave. Pain don't hurt the same, I know. The lane I travel feels alone, but I'm moving till my legs get by and I see my tears melt in the snow. But I don't want to cry, I don't want to cry anymore. I want to feel alive, I don't even want to die anymore. Oh, I don't want to, I don't want to, I don't even want to die anymore.
