August 26th, 2023 Divine King! Class 3 - Dark Masculine

So here's the good news, gentlemen. We get to explore a very unique topic this morning. And by unique, I mean it's something that you've all have heard of, you've all probably felt, you all know that it exists. But now we get to explore and just kind of talk a little bit about it and just have a nice, good, open discussion and good, open dialogue for the last, for the next hour, hour and 15 minutes and some change. Just really, really kind of hone in on the importance of what we're discussing and how it impacts you and most importantly, your family. And that is the dark masculine. Now you might remember last week we talked about low masculine and we discussed how to heal that judgment. We discussed how to have love for yourself. And we also discussed how to just simply be aware that that emotion is the low masculine.

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The emotion of judgment, the emotion of escaping, the emotion of being a victim rather than a victor. Blaming other people for everything, always pointing fingers and making sure that everyone else knows it's their fault, not yours. But the dark masculine gentleman is much, much different. And you can probably already know and guess and assume what it is and what it feels like and why it's there. But I would like Trent to tell me what he thinks the dark masculine is all about.

Dark masculine man. Probably that inner conflict we all have. The anger, the. The beast wanting to let it eat type thing. Just the conflict. I mean, just that that inner turmoil is kind of what I pictured as. And like the, the rage, the anger, the darkness, the. Yep, mainly the anger I feel like, yeah, keep an anger.

You got it, my man. Got it. So all of us have two spirit bodies within us. We have our little boy, which is low masculine. The. The little boy who throws a tantrum. The little boy who just gets what he wants, do whatever he wants.

Always.

Angry and pointing fingers. And then you have the Viking, the beast, the wolf. Call it whatever you want. It's an image. But this is an energy. And it is an energy that you cannot suppress, nor should you. This is an energy that you do need to know and understand and be with and really feel. Feel this energy, be with this energy. Know this energy, what it looks like, how it moves. And some of you have heard me talk about the wolf or the bear or the lion. Like, it can be an image, it can be an animal. But the dark masculine is that energy that will burn down all the relationships around you. That's the energy that we feel every now and then. But the truth is we have to heal both. The little boy and the Viking, to be a true man, to be a true king, to be a true healed warrior of the world. Hurt people, hurt people, but healed people heal people. And for you to walk in this power and this energy and this conviction and this magnetism that you all want, that you all seek, where life is easy, where everything is simple, where you have this absolute conviction of you know exactly what you want to do, you know your exact purpose, you know exactly why you're doing it, and it's super simple to get that information. You got to tap into this guy. The dark masculine is extremely powerful. Now you can probably all guess if there's a dark masculine, there's a dark feminine, and there is, right? My wife calls her the Wicked Witch. And we've all probably seen her before too. So when we're comparing forces, right, the wicked witch is, is different. It's, it's a different type of energy. It's, it is more dangerous but not more powerful. It's more hateful and spiteful and more wiry and more explosive than, more contained. Ours would be like a 50 caliber sniper rifle and theirs would be like a grenade that has the pen taken out and given to a six year old. Their energy is much different, much harder to control. And that's why women take a little bit longer to really go into their divinity. But when they are, they're very, very healing, right? A healed woman is one of the most beautiful people to ever meet. She's so soft and loving and gentle and, and she can just heal you with a hug. And a healed man can do the exact same thing. But we have to type into this energy right here. We have to know what it is. We have to know who he is. So I'm actually going to go ahead and give you your homework now. I want, I want you all to know what your homework's going to be this week. And you're not going to like it, But your homework this week. And I will play, I will put the playlist on in our WhatsApp group. But I'm gonna put a little bit of a music for all of you and there's gonna be two things I want you to do with that music. Maybe three. Two. Maybe three. Two for sure. Three. Possibly. Number one, I want you to go into the darkest place of your house, put that music on, set an alarm, and just breathe by yourself for 30 minutes. And I want you to breathe like you're about to fight somebody. And you all know how to do that. I want you to breathe like there's Someone about to come into your house and, you know, rob you. My dark, masculine energies that you all know looks a little bit like this. I don't own any guns personally, not for any particular reason other than I own a lot of knives. And I want someone to come into my house and I. I kind of hope that someone does break into my home. I even leave the front door open, hoping that if someone does come into my house, I get to slit their throat and watch them bleed to death in front of me. Because then, of course, there would be no argument that they came into my house and they were trying to steal me because I wouldn't be shooting him in the back. There would be no question in court. It would just be a nice, slow, serrated death. That's my dark, masculine. And we all have it. And I found that when I was locked in a nice, dark place, physically, like a closet, a room, turn all the lights, shut the windows if it. If you have to go outside and it's 5am and you gotta. Whatever. I'll put the music on, but I'm asking for 30 minutes every day this week. Go ahead and let your women know that you're working on your dark energy this week, because they all know that you're in this class. They might not have sex with you if you're in a relationship. Which brings me to part number two. You are not to ejaculate this week at all. Zero, nothing. You can be married. Congratulations. Let her know, Sorry, it's not going to happen if you're not in a relationship. It's going to make it a lot easier because you're not watching porn anyway, so there's nothing you're going to do. You're just sitting there because that's how some darkness can come up real quick. You want to see darkness? Give a dude a week without nothing to do, he'll start burning the woods down. So it's gonna be your second homework and your third heart. The reason I said three, right? I said two of three, is your woman's not gonna like this very much. You don't have to tell her, by the way. That's up to you. You don't have to tell her. I'm not telling her, but she's going to notice a little bit of a different bedroom ritual, if you know what I'm saying. Because you're holding it in from now until Saturday. And so she might be all upset, trying to be like, what's up with. What's up with Josh? How come Josh isn't You know, doing the dance. What's up with this? And Josh is like, I'm. I'm good, baby girl. You. You good? Cool. And watch the control in the shift in the house move so quickly. This is a way to get power. This is a way to get control. This is a way to get dominance very, very fast. Because a woman will try to do everything to please her man, and when she can't, her dark energy will come out. And it's a really, really fun time. So enjoy. That's your homework this week. If you have any questions, of course, let me know. If you need any other assistance, let me know. Because what we're dealing with here is it's our shadows, right? It's. It's our perceived power. It's the way of the harsh world. There's a book, if anybody wants to read a book on this topic, called Iron John. And Iron John is the. The described individual, the. The Viking inside of you, the person who is angry. And there's two really, really beautiful ways to realize this anger. If you're never mad, kind of like Trent, that's not great. You want, you need, you must pull out that absolute savage and figuratively chop some heads off. It's a must. You have to, because if you do not, he's gonna get locked in that cage. And whenever that cage door gets opened, maybe you're drinking, maybe you're in a fight with your woman, maybe you lose on a bad investment, maybe a business relationship goes south, it's going to be a cannon that's going to explode, and you are going to say some venomous words, and that relationship will get ruined. That relationship with your mom, that relationship with your dad, your sister, your whoever. Type in one gentleman, if that makes sense. Also, it's extremely, extremely powerful to have this energy, to know this energy. You can accomplish anything. Let me say this again. You can accomplish anything. When you are tapped into your dark masculine, This is the most directional force in the world. Right? Women do not have a. An energy of direction. They have a. An energy of receiving or burning.

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Our greatest strength is direction, when we get extremely focused. So if you suffer from adhd, can't. My brain moves too much at night. Right. If you have too many thoughts all the time and you can't get focused, you're not tapping into your dark masculine. You're not pulling them up. You're staying in low. You're staying in little boy mode because you can't make a decision. You don't know which way you're gonna go you don't know what you're gonna do. I'll give a shout out to my boy Jeremy Ritz, right? He tapped into his dark mask in a little bit when he was like, you know what? I'm gonna just stop drinking a week before the event. I don't care. And I'm gonna write a book and I'm gonna do this, and I'm gonna do this, and the whole thing directionally changed. Tapping into dark masculine is how you get done, and you do it in a great way. So I'm a pause here for a moment. Just open up for questions. Does anyone have any questions so far? Anything that you're like, yeah, this makes sense or you want to talk more about?

Yeah, I'll talk on a little bit. I. I got really good at turning mine off and on. And I've noticed, like, because I've been fighting with Cali just a little bit, and I kind of see what you said, like, if you. If you don't get mad sometimes, man, like the. That comes up in my head and wants to fly out of my mouth. I'm like, oh. So I almost got too docile at home, I think.

Yeah, Isn't that weird, dude? When you're like, it is.

Because I'm like, whose head is this? Like this. I'm like, I just envisioned like, I'm gonna kick this window out of this house. And I'm like, that's not me. So. Yeah, that's a good. I like how you explain that.

Yeah, we got. We gotta let it meet. Because if we keep that thing caged in because Gemma, we all know what's going to happen, right? She's going to say one thing. Can I tell you guys a two minute story? This happened last night. It was awesome. So I've been in my Divine King for, like, since this class started, to be honest. I've been on fire. And I've. I. I'm on a speaking tour right now, and I've just been crushing it. And I haven't seen Svet in like, five days. We're at a friend's house, and last night there's this really fun story that came up that happened like two years ago. So this was like, Jason was like six months old. No, She was either six months pregnant or he was already born. I don't remember. She does, though. I could ask her if you guys need me to. All right. So she was. She was putting something on and she asked one of those tricky questions. But it was a. It was a different tricky question than Normal. The question was like, how do you think I look in this outfit? Something like that. I was like, baby, look perfectly normal. Oh, fucking mess that up. I went out the fucking window. You think I'm normal, right? So this is forever ago. So last night she brings it up at a dinner party, right? Because she just wants to know where I'm at.

I think.

I think she just wants to know where I'm at. And, bro, I was like. We all laughed about it. We kept talking about it. It was hilar. It turned into a big, funny conversation, right? Everyone was laughing. It was beautiful. There was no anger, There was no resentment. There was no animosity. Because, guys, I've been so. I've been so high for the last two weeks. Just, just. But they're going to do that. Like, women are going to bring those things up every now and then, just test you to see where you're at. And had I been in dark, had I been not pull going? Because I've had to go very deep as well the last couple of days. I've had to go into darkness. I've had to go into. I've had to teach you guys this stuff. I had to practice it. So I've had to go deep, low, high. I've had to go through all the emotions. So everyone was healed. The boy was healed, the Viking was healed, the king was healed. Everyone was good. All the energies in my body, everyone was happy. And so she brought up no anger, no resentment, no animosity. I knew exactly what to say. It was very nice. We laughed about it. Was a big joke, is cool. But women are going to do that every now and then. Women are going to press those buttons. They're going to bring up that thing that you did 47 years ago, right? On a Tuesday. One word and it's okay. It's all good. But if the Viking hasn't been taken care of, you're gonna snap at her in front of everyone. And then that one second you're gonna explode and you're gonna damage her and build her resentment. And when a woman has resentment, she doesn't trust you. When she doesn't trust you, everything is broken. It can happen in one word. So I guess the question is then, like, how do you get this energy? Well, it doesn't have to be physical. Although for men at 99 is right. 99% of the time, it's physical. A lot of people think that your dark masculine is drinking a bunch of beer and watching UFC fight. No, it's not dark masculine, okay? That's just being a boy and having fun. Hey. Which is cool. All good. I like drinking beer and watching UFC fights, too. Dark Masculine is about breathing deeply into darkness and seeing exactly what your dark looks like. Does he have a name? Does he have an image? Does he have a shape? Knowing what it looks like, mine changes. So there's no wrong or right answer. Can be whatever you want. But you gotta know and you gotta heal him, and you gotta feed him. You gotta feed him, Gotta give him some meat. So what that means is you do need to pick things that you do not think are easy, that you do not think are comfortable, that you do not think that you should do, and then go do those things. And if you don't think those things are hard, you're incorrect. They need to be nice and difficult. And it can be periods of seconds. Gentlemen, I'm not talking like. We all know David Goggins. David Goggins lives in dark masculine. And it's amazing. I love it. It's incredible, right? That's where he lives. He lives in dark masculine. So it is a constant, constant energy that gives him so much power and so much energy and so much force. But we all know that as a man, as a father, as a husband, which he's not. He's not really the best in that role. And that's okay, because, you know, it's also cool in the endurance races that he does the, you know, Moab 240s or the Leadville hundreds or the hurt 100, he doesn't finish first. He finishes third, fourth, or fifth. The men that finish first or the women are in their light. So keep that in mind. I love Goggins, and I would love to heal him, too. But what I can say is there are times, there are periods, I think weekly, I think weekly, that we should tap into this and let him. Let him out for. For 10 seconds. It doesn't have to be for hours, for 10 seconds. And if you think about it, that's how long it takes us to come as guys, essentially, right? Like, at the end of the day, like, the actual act of the whole thing, it's very, very quick. That is another way that tons of dudes think that they're releasing or healing the dark masculine. And that's actually true. Dark masculine is healed by your. By your physical ejaculation, by your overall excitement. That is a way to heal, because after that, you feel amazing. We all do for again, for, like, 10 seconds. And then afterwards, like, all the thoughts, all the bills, all the worries, all the problems come back into our life. So, again, guys, I'm just talking real with you. So we all know this to be the case. That is a way to heal. And that's why I'm letting you know that this week, you're not able to do that at all. I don't care if you're married for 47 years. Sorry. Because now I want you to be able to feel him come up and just be like, what the. And then you gotta, like, breathe into that and start to heal him and let him walk around on a leash a little bit. Know that you're still in control. But he can go out and eat, and you can get that power. You can get that direction, you can get that animosity, and you can get your purpose. Because you can and will find purpose in your darkness. And if you think that's why everyone doesn't have it, you would be correct. Because your Viking knows where to go. So most people are stuck in their low masculine for their entire lives because if they go into darkness, darkness is overall consuming. Darkness is overall power. When you get into darkness, and the longer you stay there, the more powerful you will become. But you can be powerful and light. What's the. Luke Skywalker and Yoda, when they're talking, right? Luke Skywalker asks Yoda. He's like, is the darkness. Is the. Trying to think of the exact terminology. Something like, is the darkness more powerful than the Force? And Yoda's like, no, it's just easier, right? This is easier. It's easier to tap into this and to be in it, because there's no purpose to your. You. Sorry. There's. You have purpose, you have direction, but you don't worry about anything else. You don't care. You're just going to burn the boats. You're going to go take the island. You're going to go conquer. You feeling me? Gentlemen. All right, so this poem, I want you to sit into it for a second because all of us want this type of woman. And as we think about it.

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Just want you to really, really think through what it means to you. And we'll do some shares after the poem is over. This poem is called if you choose to love an awakened woman. My current wife, Solana, she sent me this poem. One hour after I left her house. The very first time we reconnected. Yeah. I was getting on the plane, she's like, yo, hey, by the way, here's a te. Here's a poem. Read this. Are you in. That's what she said. You in for this? She. She. She sent me this actual poem. Because this is what we all want, gentlemen. And if you don't want it, you need to know this now. And you know where the path is going. If you choose a love and awakened woman, understand that you are entering a new, radical and challenging territory. If you choose to love and awaken woman, you cannot stay asleep. If you choose to love an awakened woman, every part of your soul will be aroused. Not just your sexual organs or even your heart. Frankly, if you prefer. If you prefer a normal life, stick with a normal girl. It is comfortable to love a woman who has not yet activated her inner sacred powers. Because she does not push your buttons. She will not challenge you. She will not press you into you becoming your higher self. She will not awaken the forgotten and numbed out parts of your spirit that urge you to remember there is more to your life than this. She will not look into your weary eyes and send a lightning bolt of truth through your body, jolting you awake and stirring your long lost desires for soul's love within you. A safe, unawakened woman will be wonderfully satisfying and soothing to your ego, your heart and your body. She will walk quietly beside you and make you feel needed, responsible, like you are fulfilling your manly role. If this is enough for you, then accept it. Love her with all of your heart. Remain faithful to her and thank her daily for the gift of her mild, unthreatening feminine presence in your life. If this is not enough for you, if your heart, body and spirit is only craving the other kind of woman, the wild one, then know you are on the cusp of a soul shifting transformation. So there's two more parts to this poem. But I think all of you know who this woman is. And I think most of you have been with her before. This was my ex fiance, the woman I was engaged to. She was so quiet. She made me feel needed. She made me feel responsible. She gave me the gift of her mild, unthreatening feminine presence. Because when we are with her, we feel in control. We feel powerful, we feel strong. And she did not ever challenge me. She not ever pressed me into becoming my, the highest version of myself. So if you're with this woman now and you were not married, really, really think through how you can change that relationship. And if you are married and this is your woman that we're describing and you want something more, show her your kingship and she will rise very quickly. Women rise much faster than men do. My wife can create this course. She'll launch this course and it'll sell out within like 10 minutes. I gotta beg dudes, Beg them, like, bro, I promise this will change your life. I swear. Like, dude, your heart will get healed, your love will be better. You'll make more money. And they're like, well, you know, probably not, dude, I got. I got work on Saturday morning. I don't think this is the right time for me. But there's my boy in Hawaii at 2 in the morning because his wife went through the queen course and he saw her rise and he's like, I need to do something too. Does it make sense? Gentlemen? So let's continue with the poem. Know that you are making a serious choice with karmic consequences if you choose to step into the aura and body of a woman whose spiritual fires are blazing. You are accepting that you need a certain level of danger and risk in order to grow. Once you begin to love a woman of this nature, you must accept total responsibility for the life changing that will ensue. Your life will not be sleepy, comfortable all the time. Your life will not allow you to stay in your stuck old ruts and stagnant routines. Your life will take on a radically new flavor and scent. You will be ignited by the presence of the wild feminine. And it will begin to send electric shockwaves of spiritual light through your entire chakra system, attuning you to call the divine. Choosing to be sexually and romantic intimate with an awakened woman takes masculine courage. To walk fearlessly into the unknown, but it will reap rewards behind beyond your mind's comprehension. She will take you into undiscovered worlds of mystery and magic. She will lead you, mesmerized and half drunk with love, into the forest of sensual ecstasy and wonder. She will show you sacred skies so full and burning with stars that you will start to wonder if you're living on the same planet that you are born on. She will break and tear you open so that your fierce, passionate heart drives you half mad with longing. You will want to consume and penetrate her on every level so that your masculine essence can consume and penetrate the world, illuminating the universe with your devoted love. Yeah.

Yeah.

That'S what I wanted. When I read this, I was like, give me that, dude. Give me that. And then this part. She will see you like you've never been seen before. She will trust you. She will appreciate you. And gentlemen, she will not run from your darkness because your darkness does not scare her. It is a monumental risk to love an awakened woman because there is suddenly no place to hide. She sees everything. Therefore, she can love you with a depth and presence that your heart and body have yearned for so long, so fiercely, that you wonder whether you've actually been alive for all the time that she's been away. Loving a woman like this is a choice you make to start living with your soul on fire. Your life will never be the same again once you've invited her energy in. Take this risk on yourself or step back, stay with a normal girl and accept a different, safer, more comfortable and somewhat calmer life. Just make sure that if you choose the latter, you don't spend the rest of your days with your eyes looking back over your shoulder, straining to see once again the hazy vision of feminine mystery that has now disappeared from view. She is long gone, spiraling back up to the stars, the distant galaxies in the heavens from whence she came. All right, so gentlemen, get. Give me a type in a 4 in the chat pan if you want to guess your next homework. All right, your next homework is I want you to read this to your woman. So I will copy and paste this, don't worry, put it to the WhatsApp group, but I want you to read it to her. And if she doesn't start to cry and jump your bones and break the very first homework that we talked about, you're probably not in a great relationship and she probably hates you. But if she does break down, start crying and know that you're rising into a different level of man, great, because she will start to see you shift. And if you do not have a woman yet in your life, make the decision now. If you continue going down this path of becoming a king, this is the type of woman that you're going to attract. Because true kings, kings that are gentlemen, it's very easy to call yourself a king. You'll hear all the time. Now that you're aware that this world exists, you'll go to conferences and classes and programs and people wear their king shirt and you'll start getting Instagram messages. They're like, you're a king, Be a king. Kings never talk about being kings, ever. They never even say the word. They don't have the shirt. They don't have a goddamn hat that says I'm a king. Everyone knows it when they walk into the room because they're so powerful. When they walk into a room, all the children will walk up to them and want to play with them. All the young boys, the 14 year olds, the 15 year olds, the 16 year olds will walk up to them and want to Be like them. King's energies are silent. So that's your fourth homework. Calvin, were you. Were you able to log on to. To hear the other three? I think you were. I think you're just like one minute late.

The other three, Maybe I missed that.

I don't know.

Yeah, I was one minute late.

Okay, so the other. It was pretty early in the call.

The other three homework assignments.

Yeah, so.

Other three homework assignments. Lock yourself into the darkest place.

Yeah.

You can find your house. I'll put the music on. I want you guys to breathe for 30 minutes. Do not take your phone with you. You can set outside, or you can do your old school alarm that Jeremy has. Jeremy spent 15 bucks to get an old school alarm because he's a baller. All right? So, you know, set an alarm. 30 minutes. You can go longer, but I just want 30 minutes. I want you to breathe like you are an absolute villain. Like you're the joker in the Dark Knight. I get those deep, deep, deep breaths. And then this one, right? And then for those of you, again, not in a relationship, this will probably be a little bit easier because we're already. We're already going down a path that we're not engaging with anything external. But if you are in a relationship, and Calvin on your relationship cannot ejaculate this entire week. So if your girl jumps your bones, hey, let her have a good time. Do whatever you got to do to make sure that you don't do that. You'll figure it out. Sound good, Trent? This is gonna be a tough one for Josh. Josh wants to slit my throat. His dark. His dark mass is coming out, but that's okay.

No, I actually got. I got an in, man. I'm out of town till Thursday, so.

This ain't gonna be bad at all, you lucky devil. Oh, my gosh.

But I'm actually going wait till you on Friday. Yeah, I was supposed to do it Saturday, but I'm actually going in to fire a whole store too. So that's usually when my dark magic comes out. Like when I got go and like, let grown men go that are no longer have a way to make a living. So sure this works out well?

Yes, sir. All right, so Josh is gonna be good on this one. Trent, how you gonna be on this? Dude, you gave a thumbs up too fast. Why is it. Is that just the easiest thing ever? Shouldn't be that easy.

No, man.

I mean, I. I'll be all right.

I got.

We can.

We can. We can last a week.

It's all good, bro.

Perfect.

Perfect. Perfect. Oh, by the way, you can still have sex, right, guys? Just keep that in mind. Jeremy talking to me, by the way. Not Ritz. You can still do this. You can still be intimate with your woman. Just. You can't get anything for you. So you think, Ritz, Easiest journey ever.

Yep.

Okay, we'll see, guys.

You're going back to, like, the middle school days. You're gonna have, like, blue balls and a raw dick from grinding, huh?

Yep.

Good old middle school. You're getting a hand job on the bus. Like, that's your. That's your. That's all you want. That's good. Perfect. So here it is, guys, and you all pretty much nailed it. So the dark masculine can look like a lot of things. This one is where when your little boy gets. When your little boy gets hurt, it can trigger this rage, and it just goes right up the ladder, essentially. But I love this one, right? The destructive wild man who will tell down an entire city because he feels like it. The unhealthy father who treats his woman like a little girl versus his lover. Let this one sink in for a second. This is also the opposite of the woman, right? The woman can do this, too, where she's always coddling you and washing your clothes and cooking your food and doing everything for you all the time, right? Because it's the mother who's just taking care of her little boy. So look at this one for a moment. Look at this list, and I want you to pick which one your dark masculine is. I'll go down the list of everyone who's here and just kind of tell me, like, who. Which. Which dark masculine is it for you? Keeping in mind that dark is generally quite manipulative, very powerful, very focused, very directional. For me, for most of my time, it was this one and this one, right? The sexual Viking, Meaning I was just on a conquest. I just wanted to take down all the women. I wanted to break their hearts. I wanted to have as many as I could. I want to be as good as I could with women. Not for them, but for me. I wanted to feel whole. I wanted to feel complete. I wanted to tell all my boys, look at. Look at the woman I just hooked up with with guys, right? Because it made me feel good about myself. And then the rage monster was just the. The truth is, I was just mad at myself for not being great. That was my rage in 2015, 2014, 2013, right? I was just. I was just mad at myself for not being an amazing man. And you can use dark Basket. You can use light masculine to make more money. Gentlemen, you can use these energies to go shoot. I need to absolutely, without question, go make some money. That needs to be my purpose for the next six months. I need to go make money. I'm gonna get over the fear of rejection. I'm gonna become an insane warrior. I'm gonna go knock on every single door in my neighborhood and close sales. Some of you have already conquered that, some of you haven't. This is the person that's staying up at 4 in the morning, right? Watching whatever videos, reading self help books, closing deals, closing sales, getting after it, changing your life financially. All right, so Josh, which one is which one or multiple would you classify yourself as?

I was definitely the reassurance guy for a long time. That was my whole identity. It's kind of weird that you said that. The dark Vikings. What makes you successful because like when I met Cali, like, it's gonna sound weird, but I literally had this super shitty couch pillow that was like a really hard pillow. And like, I was never really comfortable. I made sure I slept kind of fucked up and just kind of didn't talk to anyone and just isolated, like to really grow fast in business. But along the way I had to have people tell me, like, man, you're amazing. Look how fast you are, so. And on the same token, man, when I felt like I wasn't doing good or something was going on in the business, I would go in and just fire like five guys. So I would burn the whole place down and cause more problems just to have more power. Yeah.

Thank you. You know what's amazing, Josh, is I love that about you too, dude, because that's something that I admire in you. This, this is the one that I'm working on. I'm working on this dark masculine, because I don't really have it like that confrontational, like, I don't give a about your feelings. I admire that in you. And I think that, that that's why I love being around you too, is because I, I want more of that darkness in my life because I think it's needed. I think it's powerful, right?

It is.

All of these gentlemen are very, very powerful.

They're need learned to like incorporate more compassion into the burn the city down. Like, hey, what? Like it's like now it's like, you know, journey ends here. Well, it's like you, you got to be think at the end of the day, everybody's a man. So I, you know, rather than telling people to get their and get the hell out of my store and belittle them. It's like, hey, this isn't working. This is why it's not working. I wish you best, but I need you to get your. And get out of here because you're not going to jeopardize everyone. So kind of being a little more compassionate in the fact that you're not going to demasculate them but still do business. So it has to be done. Get out of my store.

You know, I love that. Thank you for sharing. All right, Jeremy Ritz.

I don't know what category this would fit in, but my dark energy is probably from childhood. So there's some boy mixed in here. But I was a little fat when I was younger and got picked on, and. And I still have the. Those people on the mental Rolodex to where, you know, just being like, all right, here we go. This is energy.

Watch.

Watch this. So it's probably a little bit of reassurance from the outside or just like you. You're a piece of now, and look at what the I'm doing. So congratulations, you know, picking on my fat, sloppy ass. He probably deserved it back in the day. But I want to prove all you wrong while you're 40 pounds overweight, poor, and miserable in your life that, you know, I'm good. I'm great, not good.

I love that, man. Yeah, and that's. That's a powerful realization, too, right? Like, it's really, really good to know that, because when we pull that out, we feel so strong, we feel so powerful, we feel so convicted. But I think you can all agree that this is. It's not a great place to be in often, because you will. You will have judgments. You will have incapabilities of rising into divinity because you can't. You cannot be in divinity if you're in darkness simultaneously. But again, darkness is. Is so powerful, and it's needed. You have to be here. You have to know that rage monster inside of you guys, guys, to think is. I appreciate that, man. Michael, what's it for you, brother?

I got a mixture of these. When I think of the rage monster, I think about this one time back in Kentucky, this GS hit my wife while she was backing out of the driveway, and I just, like, flipped out on him. And, like, he was clearly speeding, and I told him to get back in his car, kick his ass. So when I think about the rage monster, I think about, like, that. That guy that's not putting up with anybody's, and that kind of has, like a Little bit of boy in it. Because when I was younger, I was, I'm like, you know, youngest out of my sibling. And my brother wasn't even that much older than I was, but he always picked on me. And I was a skinny guy that, you know, weak compared to him. So I always like, wanted to be like this alpha mentality that I thought I was, which was, you know, big, strong and like, didn't put on people. And then also too, like when I was a kid, I didn't really get.

Many.

Much attention from like, girls and like my brother, he was more of like a womanizer. And I kind of like idolized them in that way too. So like that sexual viking, like as I grew up, I was like, man, I want to be able to, you know, have the girls and be able to get that like, same kind of like validation reassurance that like, you know, I'm not this, this little boy. I'm like a man.

Yeah.

And then that destructive wild man that tears things down. That's like when everything I feel is like up against me and I'm just like, yeah, I'm just gonna tear down everything that I feel and just like sabotage everything. That's like super unhealthy because like, it doesn't, it doesn't keep me level headed at all. And yeah, it's just a bunch of mixtures of it.

Totally, totally. But yeah, thank you so much for letting me know. That's, it's, it's again, it's, it's very, very powerful and remarkable to just not even be aware of it, but to know that it's happened, to know when it happens, so how you can pull it out again and to know that it needs to happen. So team, that energy that Michael was referring to, he's like, gosh, dude, I would, I would destroy everything. It wouldn't be good. But that needs to come out weekly for 10, 15, 20 seconds. And again, it doesn't have to be physical. It doesn't have like, you don't have to be like me and Ritz, where you go, run 100 miles, but you can go into a dark room and breathe and see him right visually and pull him out and just, and, and have a conversation with him visually. Imagine you're petting this wolf that's in a cage, this like skinny, angry wolf, and you're petting him. And then you, you open the cage and you talk to him. You go, hey, thank you for being in my life. Thank you for giving me power, for conviction. Thank you for giving Me, masculinity. Thank you for making me powerful. And you're the one that everyone's afraid of. You're the toxic masculine that everyone's afraid of. This is toxic masculine everyone's afraid of right here. And they should be. You should be afraid of this because this is who wins wars. This is why America's back to back World War Champions, okay? Greatest country in the world. It's the dark masculine. When you're going to war and you're battling, this is who burns the boats and who takes the, who takes the victories. It's not a giant tribe of wild women, us. And it's been that way for thousands and thousands and thousands of years. Tens of thousands of years. And it's okay. That is in our DNA, right, gentlemen? It's in our DNA. Your great, great, great, great, great, whoever, right? All the way back. So embrace it. All right, Trent, who is it for you?

Yeah, I kind of got mixture too. And I'm one of those that kind of internalizes a lot of that and takes it with me where I'm just by myself and I'll beat the out of myself, metaphorically speaking.

And.

Then really realizing that I take on a lot of false ownership and responsibility for stuff that's not mine. And I get really, really angry about it. I have for a long time, actually. When you said I never get angry. You have no idea, dude. I get, I'm insanely competitive, you know, I'm, I want to win a lot of times. I can be a complete little bitch at times when I don't win. Yeah, I definitely got some inner, inner anger and turmoil and chaos and that wolf, that wolf's definitely there. But, you know, I just try to. When I'm out in public and when I'm around other people, I do my best to like not let that ever show, which is, to your point, really detrimental a lot of times. And when I'm by myself, dude, it's, it's, it's not good. Like, it's, it's a really, really dark place a lot of times. And yeah, the, the happy go, happy go. Lucky STP guy definitely, definitely has his moments, especially when I'm by myself. And yeah, it's, it's, it's something I've been working on through that inner healing thing I did recently. That was one of the most common themes was, you know, a lot of this stuff that you're angry about.

Is.

Definitely warranted, but it's like stuff that's kind of self inflicted. And, you know, he, this Guy even used the word self annihilation more than once. It's like not even self worth issues. It's like you're literally annihilating yourself like when you're, when you're in your most, you know, intimate and like personal thoughts and stuff. So definitely, definitely have that inner, inner wolf and definitely have moments where I can just lash out and say the worst things of all time.

Time.

I've done it a lot of times and you know, it's. I got a mouth on me, man. Like I gotta, I got away with words in a good way and I got away with words in a really, really bad way at times I can cut to the core like nobody's business. And there's not been even like a lot of physical altercations in my life, but those definitely happen and you know, I honestly enjoy them. But yeah, definitely got that dog, dude. You don't see it often, but it's, it's there. And I definitely keep it, keep it in that cage, keep it suppressed until I'm by myself and then I just let that, that sucker eat on me.

And I love it.

It's not healthy, but trying to, trying to get better with that type of stuff. But definitely, definitely got that dog, dude. It's, it's, it's not a good thing.

Beautiful.

Well, the. I think, I think this exercises this week will help you a lot, especially the one while you're by yourself, you know, because you, you want it, you like, so you want to pull that energy up. You want it to be around you, you want other people to be around you when you're in that energy so that you're used to it, so that you're comfortable with it, so that you can, you can control it, right? Because that's the thing, guys. Your, your divine, your king is going to control your Viking, this energy. But it needs to be like, like Trent said a few times, it needs to be let out just around other people, in discussion and conversation and in energetics and just being okay with this version of yourself, because this version of yourself is ultimate power, ultimate conviction. And it's just being aware and it's not. And it's not lashing out and it's not lashing out yourself either. Because when you're able to heal him and pull him out and know who he is and know why he is and know where he is, you have the capability of just being in such a calm state, right? Your soul is at rest. There's no reason to go to war with not only yourself, but anyone else, because you don't have to. Because he's comfortable. He's already eaten, he's fed, he's taken care of. Real.

That's really good.

So, gentlemen, this can. This can be a. This can just be breathing exercises, right? We're like, let me. Let me get him out for a second and just say, hey, I love you. Give him a hug, put him back in. Say, I'll be back tomorrow, right? He just wants to know that you're there. He wants to know that you love him. Does this make sense, guys? And I know. I know I'm sounding like it's a physical person, like, it's a real, tangible thing, because it is right in your mind's eye, in your meditations. I want you to visualize this. That's the thing. Visualize it. All right, Calvin, which one are you?

I'm gonna make the argument that number two and number five. So the rage monster and the destructive wild man that will burn down the city. I feel like those are kind of similar, and that's definitely me. I. I've. I'm so guilty of that. Just, like, I make a bunch of progress, and then it can take 10 minutes, and I can just be like, I don't give a. I don't care. I'm just, like, gonna destroy all this. Like, I'm. I do that. I've done that throughout my life, if I'm being completely honest with you. I did it. I did it a couple days ago. Like, there was a couple days during this. During this group, during this challenge where I had made a bunch of progress. I. I hadn't, you know.

What?

Done the porn, the coffee, the. The booze. I was, like, on fire. I was, like, running, like, six miles a day. I was like, oh, my gosh. Like, I'm a little beast right now. Like, I was trading good. And then there was just, like, two days where, like, I had, like, a sip of coffee, like, maybe watched porn once, and I. Or, like, a few times, and I was just like. But in that moment, I was like. I just didn't care. I was like, I don't care. Like, life, everything. I could burn it down. And I. I feel like I've already been, like, in this dark mask in the last week. Like, it's just been, like, coming out, like, crazy, like, since I started this, and I. I didn't really know why. So this is, like, a perfect timing for this to kind of, like, press the reset button. And, like, I think this is interesting to, like, sit with it, like, in the closet and like let it out that way so that it doesn't come out in other ways.

So yeah, no, I appreciate you sharing that, man. And I, I know, I'm extremely confident that many men here feel very similar and they feel very, you know, they, they feel, they feel that, they know that, they're aware of that, they understand that. And it's that it's in the moment of that weakness where you get to go, let me tap into darkness to push me past the hurdle, right? Because most of the time when we su, when we succumb to something else that we don't want to succumb to a bad trade, a bad idea, breaking a. Breaking a rule, breaking a promise, cheating on your wife, whatever, when we do it right after never feels good. And that's what causes the explosion. And so we can either tap into darkness or we can tap into light. Whichever one, right? Whichever one we're more comfortable with. But most men know darkness, they don't know light yet. We're going to get to light more as we progress, but we, but we can only ascend as high into heaven as we are willing to go down into our personal hell. And keep this in mind, gentlemen. The enemy is in me. It's not an outside force, it's an inside force that's going to wreck your world. People love to blame Satan for everything, dude. Satan's your heart, Satan's in you, dude. It's like you can blame everyone else for everything else, but once you turn the light on yourself and you go, this, it's my fault. What am I going to do? How do I become a man of integrity and of honor? It allows us to shift in such a big way. And if you say, man, I feel like just going on a rampage and like, like you said, being a destructive wild man, Calvin. So instead of doing that and like, then our trading suffers, our money suffers, our relationship suffers, our health suffers, our integrity suffers, our sobriety suffers. Instead of all that happening, we get to go, looks like six miles isn't going to be enough tonight, my love. I gotta go out. It's 10 o'. Clock. I'll be back at breakf.

Yeah.

And you're going and channeling your energy at, at 3 in the morning and you're doing 35 miles. And when you get home, you're so tired you go to sleep. What I love Eric Thomas the, the Eric the hip hop preacher Thomas. He goes, if Satan's gonna come look for me, he's got to go find me in bed because I'm asleep at 9:30. He goes, I'm too tired to make a wrong decision. And I always like that because it's like, yeah, we know when the feeling is coming. We make a decision and we. We figure out which energy we need to tap into. And this dark masculine will help us push past something to really be comfortable and to. And to. To let it out. And then when we don't. Because when we don't let it out and we go into low, which is what you did, which is okay. When you go into low, your little boy, the Viking, is in a. After you're in low, the Vikings like, what the fuck are you doing? And then. Powder keg.

Yeah. No, I just.

I'm.

I really want to get more control over my life because I feel like I've just thrown so many things away in my life. Like, I could sit here for the next 10 minutes and just go down the list. The last 10, 10 years of my life, 20 years of my life, things that just thrown away. And it was usually like years of building it, and then maybe one month it just spiral and like, it's crazy. So, yeah, this is good, good stuff.

Awesome. All right. Matt.

Speaks to me that the insane warrior I've always been, the one who enjoys the blood, enjoys the broken bones. Braveheart, where the guys are hitting, you know, the other guy with their head. Like, I enjoy doing that. I'm just like, crazy. Like, I just get this so insane. And like, there's something that switches in my brain and I can walk through water, you know, with. With, you know, basically nothing on. You know, cold water with nothing on. And like last last week, you know, I. I climbed that rope out at Santa Monica up here. It's like I. I was just in regular shirt and pants and took my shoes off and climb the top and rip, you know, half my skin off of my hand and some off my foot. It's just like that. I mean, that's me. Like, I've always been that way. I remember when I was a kid where, you know, I'd be climbing up a tree, fall, you know, 10, 15ft off out of a tree. I just dress myself off, often, get back up and do it again. So, I mean, I. I mean, friends know. Know that when. When they need somebody to do something crazy, they're coming to me. So that's, that's. That's my, My dark side. And it's just weird how it. It just turns me, controls me into it, and I. And I enjoy it. It's just.

Yeah.

So much energy.

So you're the guy that people call.

They need a body hidden, huh? They call Matt.

Yeah, yeah, run into the fire. But you know, the, the other thing is, as you guys know, it's like. I mean, I've always searched for, for love for my mom. And so that unhealed meeting with a boy wants constant reassurance from the outside. So, you know, even though, you know, I had enough insanity to be able to, I, I also have that part of me that feels like, you know, I'm not searching for something. And you know, the, the I, I see the when, when, when I was married that I was more of like a rage, monster, destructive wild man where I would just break things down, just, just take things to the ground. And it wasn't, it wasn't helpful at all. And then the other, the other one I was thinking of is like how I, how I treated my ex wife. Well, more like the old girl versus my wife, I guess from Apollo. I could get a service for that.

Sure. Thanks for sharing, man. That's again, guys, it's good to know what this is and what it looks like so that we can, so we can become better and kind of like Calvin says, so we can control ourselves, we can get, we get a higher level of control because it's awareness, right? Awareness is the key. Awareness is the key. Paul, tell me, can you come on video? Paul, people need to see your beautiful face, bro.

Can you?

No, not really.

I don't know if you guys can see me or not. Let me try it again.

You in a car, like you're in a parking garage.

Yeah.

Yeah. Can you hear me?

Can you see me?

Yeah, we can hear you.

All right, cool.

Well, yeah, I don't know, this one was tough for me. I haven't spent a whole lot of time in my dark masculine in my entire life. Honestly, like I am more of a sheep in wolf clothing to flip that on its side. Like I have always, I've been hard working sheep. Like I've always gone along with the herd, done what other people wanted me to do. Never really gone after what I wanted.

Oh, shoot. His phone call dropped. Dang it. That was about to be a revelation. You can keep your, you can keep your camera off, Paul. I think it's taking your bandwidth out on your phone.

Is it? Okay, so anyways, yeah, I mean, I think insane warrior a little bit, but even that was only really out of necessity. I think I got there in college when I was playing football and it was like, you gotta want to hurt Someone, otherwise, you're gonna get hurt. So I don't know. I kind of liken that to, like, hey, if I'm, like, if I'm a sheep, I'm willing to protect the herd from the wolf. But it was never really something I wanted for myself. And I think that has led me to the last one, which is the unhealthy father treats his woman like a little girl. Because I've always wanted to placate the woman in fear that if I don't, she'll leave me and I'll be alone. I think that probably spills over into a lot of other aspects in my life of people pleasing and, you know, trying to do everything I can for employers and whatnot and friends. But I'm excited for my 30 minutes a day this week to pull the savage out.

Yeah, Paul, I love that, man. That's such a beautiful realization, because no one's ever picked. No one hasn't.

You know, we haven't picked that one.

Yet as a group, and someone always does. And I really, really love how you said that. It probably bleeds over into other people's life or in other things in life, because it does. And the fact that you don't. I guess I'm not the exact word right now, but you. You don't connect with your dark enough is. It's not healthy. Right. It gives you more power. It gives you more conviction. It gives you more completeness and balance. Because I know you very well, Paul, also, and you're a man that spends time in light, and you almost never spend time in low or. Or dark. You spend. You spend a lot of time in light, which is great. That's also why you're a. So if you want to. If you want to start ripping off throats and really conquering things, right? Achieving things, being the man where you're like, dude, do not freaking mess with Paul. Like, that guy will eat your. He will eat your legs off. You want to tap into the darkness a little bit, because it will give you more fulfillment, too, when you're reaching your goals and when you're saying, why am I settling? Because you're not. You won't settle anymore. So this is gonna be a fun journey for you, my brother, to just happen.

I'm excited.

Yeah. And let me. Let us know how you feel as you go through the. As you go through the breathing exercises, because again, Jim, the breathing is just like. Breathe like you're. Breathe like you're very, very, very mad. Like you're about to go to war. Like you're about to go to battle. Big, deep breaths. You can't do wrong. And 30 minutes is going to feel like an eternity. By the way, one special tip. If the very first time you do this, you don't love it, blindfold yourself. The next time, get yourself into absolute darkness where you can't see. Because all of this needs to be a visualization of who you are. So thank you, brother. I appreciate that. The reason why we're bringing this up, gentlemen, is because a lot of people go, no, no, no, no, no. Shy away from the darkness. It's like, no, dude, batteries have a positive and a negative. Positive only batteries do not work. Let that sink in for a second. So you gotta have both polarities, okay? You gotta have a positive, you gotta have a negative. So negative emotions can be used for destruction or what's that next word? Evolution. And that's why we're here. It's our time as men to evolve into actually powerful men. All of us, myself included, we all can become better, richer, wealthier, more fulfilled in a happy relationship with ultimate control, with ultimate purpose, with absolute conviction. So here's one. One additional homework that I haven't mentioned yet. So we are. We're going to do number one. We already know how to do that, so we're gonna do number one with number four. And I want you to share anything that you take away as many times as you want. You can do it every single day. I will post the video. There's one homework that I forgot to write in. I apologize. I'll write it now, number five, read that poem to your woman. And if you can, gentlemen, make it slightly romantic, please. Like, don't have the kids around. And like, it's like, hey, hey, girl, come in the. Come in the pantry really quick. I got like a two minute thing now. Like, make it a little bit of a space and time, please, where it's like you and her and there's nothing, you know? Yeah. Okay, you guys get what I'm saying? So read that poem to your woman and just let her talk to you about it. I'm really. And if you don't have a woman in your life right now, that's okay. Keep that up. Keep that poem to yourself, right? So it's not like you have to go out and just get a girl just to not have sex, not. Not come with her and then read her a poem. So if you're single, it's okay. Don't stress about it. And then here's number two. This is one. I Haven't mentioned. Just think of people in your life if you know for sure. Like, I hurt this person when I was in my darkness. Maybe it was your woman, Maybe it was your child. Maybe it was your brother, your sister. If you can try to make a phone call or write a letter, you don't have to send the letter if you really, really don't want to reconnect with that person. But if you really hurt someone and they. They didn't really deserve it, say sorry. Forgive that person a little bit. Forgive yourself. Okay? And then this is how we're gonna let the. Let the darkness come up into our hearts. Right? And anyway, any questions, gentlemen? Just as a remembrance, right? If you feel that this is too powerful, after you do the breathing exercises and you're not ready to come out, it doesn't have to be 30 minutes. If you need to stay in there for whatever, however long you want, just as a reminder. But the music should be very powerful. I've done this in a sauna before. I blindfolded myself in the sauna. It was a dark sauna, hottest. And put that music on and just breathe and sweated. And it was. It was pretty awesome. So feel free to get creative with it. But I do want you all to share what. What experience has come up for you. And if you could do some of that, some of the starts today, so find the time to start. All this starts today. All this homework starts today. And this week, full disclosure, get your schedules out a little bit, start clearing them up, because there's going to be some special prizes that are going to happen this week.

Okay?

Because if we're gonna be in our darkness, let's use the energy. Sound good? All right, gentlemen, I love you so much. Thank you for being a part of my life, and I wish you the best this week. Keep me posted for anything else. See you all Monday. Love you. Tons.

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