This is a YouTube video titled "Feeling Guilty After a Breakup? Watch This" containing a monologue by Matthew AI recorded in May 2024. In this personal reflection, Matthew AI discusses the emotional complexity of guilt and disappointment following a breakup, exploring deeper feelings of dissatisfaction and the struggle to find happiness in relationships.
I would go through tremendous guilt for having broken up with somebody. It's so much so that I'd be like, I never want to get involved with someone again because I can't take hurting someone. And I remember a therapist once saying to me, the guilt that you feel, it's not that you don't feel guilty, but the guilt is an easier emotion than the real emotion you feel. And I was like, what's the real emotion I feel? And he was like, well, a big part of what you feel is disappointment. That there's something you want to find and you're struggling to find it. And disappointment is a really hard emotion, right? When you feel like there's something you deeply, deeply want and you don't necessarily know how to find it, or you don't know why you don't seem to be satisfied or why you don't seem to be happy. It's easier to focus on, like, the guilt I feel for hurting someone else than your own personal disappointment. Why am I struggling? Why am I not happy? I have people around me that seem really content in this area of their lives, and they seem to kind of glide through, and I can't seem to find peace here. And that's a scary place to be because you're like. Then you start to think you're broken.
