I Asked You to Be HONEST About Your Dating Behaviors. Here’s What I Learned…

Is kind of like that's the caveat. Yeah, you can get a great person as long as you have no needs and you do everything for them. But you can't have a great person and have expectations. You can't have a great person and have needs. That's too much. And that pattern, that idea is what makes people feel incredibly unsafe when they have needs. Welcome, everybody, to the Love Life podcast with me, Matthew Hussey. Audrey Hussie and Stephen Hussie.

They said I'd never be back.

You say that every time and no one says that.

And here I am. Good to be here, folks.

No one ever says you'll never be back. What is this fantasy you have of people telling you you can't come back and you get to come back and say, I told you so.

I feel I thrive when my back's against the wall. So we're coming back fighting, baby.

I don't think you have a very good grasp of this podcast. This is a very compassionate, loving space.

I see. Okay.

So, we can roll with that. We are talking today about patterns and the kinds of patterns that trip us up in life and love and how they hurt us when they go on unchecked in our lives. And we actually put a question to our audience for them to tell us, for you, to tell us. Where did we put it? Instagram, right?

Instagram, yeah, and Facebook.

Yeah, so you can go and check this out at my Instagram, @themathewhussy if you haven't followed that Instagram account. So we put the question over there. We got some responses and we're gonna talk about them today in an episode that is about patterns. And there is nothing more important in some ways because our patterns shape our entire life and our patterns were shaped at a time in our life where we weren't deciding what patterns to sign up for and which ones not to sign up for. Our patterns were just a response to what we needed to do to survive at a certain time in our life. And those same patterns that we created back then that essentially happened to us are the things shaping our lives today. So what more important thing could we be talking about? Before we get into the episode, if you haven't already, especially if you are new to the Love Life podcast, there is a free training that we have created where over the course of an hour, I give you a practical roadmap for taking control in your love life. And this is geared towards people who really want to find love, maybe people who are struggling to let go of a previous relationship, struggling to move on from heartbreak, want to get out there again and create fresh energy in their love lives, want to get out of their own way, and maybe on some level have that fear that what if it doesn't happen for me? What if my time runs out? What if I never meet someone? Of course, the ultimate fear so many people have is of ending up alone. And this training is about empowering you to both find the love of your life, but also love your life along the way. And it's a really powerful training. It's completely free and it's called Dating with Results. And you can watch it right now by going to Dating with Results. that link again is datingwithresults.com and by the way my new book is out. Well it's out for pre-order it comes out officially on the 23rd of April but if you pre-order it you are in line for a whole bunch of bonuses that the people who buy when it's officially out won't get. these are our gifts to you for supporting us in a time where frankly, we need pre-orders. If you're a fan of us and you like the work, pre-orders help immensely. They're what helped the book make a splash. They'll help you hit the New York Times list, which also helps it reach more people. Pre-orders matter, and so your pre-order matters to us.

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The question was, if you were to guess at it, what pattern in your love life has caused you the most pain up until now? We had so many responses on Instagram alone. We had over two and a half thousand responses in 24 hours.

And Audrey's gonna read every single one. Strap in, folks.

This is a nine hour episode.

Yeah, nine hours later. So, no, we have actually, the team and I have gone through and selected some of some very good themes, I think, just things that are coming up for people. The first one is from Katie. Katie said that the pattern that has caused the most destruction in her life is jealousy. She says, being jealous when I have no reason to be, in brackets, self-criticism.

Yeah.

Jealousy is such a good one. I mean, it's a horrible one. But it's a good one. It's a great one to start with because it's so human. It's so, so human. And I suppose what's always helped me with jealousy, because I've had that as a pattern as well at times in my life. And it still rears its head sometimes unconsciously, where you think, oh, I should want, you know, you can come away from a party and someone talks about something they're up to in their life right now, and you come away going, oh, I should be doing that. you know, why am I not doing. It's like immediately stokes some sort of competitiveness that isn't helpful because it actually takes you out of your own life. That's how I think of jealousy, is that it takes you out of your own life because it's comparing yourself with someone who you, you, you're probably making some kind of parallel between drawing a parallel between you and that person, because we don't tend to get jealous of people who are just in a completely different lane or are completely different to us, people we don't see as our competition. But if we think someone is in any way like us and they're getting something that we're not, that often Stokes a lot of jealousy. And I. I look at it like you. You're not them. You don't have their DNA, you don't have their makeup, you don't have their. problems, they don't have your problems. They don't, you know, you could be looking at someone whose love life is going really well right now, but they didn't spend the last three years dealing with some of the things you spent the last three years dealing with. Maybe you went through a really hard time. Maybe you've been suffering in certain ways. Or maybe there's something you went through in childhood that has made it disproportionately more difficult for you to trust. in love. And when it's disproportionately more difficult for you to trust in love, you're gonna have a harder time finding love and connecting with people. Whatever it may be, there's a thousand examples of that. But when we're comparing ourselves to people, it's usually the case that we're not comparing all of the different things that we've been up against or had to navigate or whatever that have made us uniquely us with our challenges and the things that we have to overcome. we're just looking at a result someone else has got who is a completely different human being to us and thinking that we're somehow deficient for not having what they have.

What if you're jealous, not, you're not jealous of a specific person, but you're just with your partner and you're just jealous in general? You know, I think that happens to everyone.

Have I read that completely wrong? Is she talking about jealousy within a relationship of like, Jealousy of, well, she.

Just, you know, the question was, if you were to guess at it, what patterns in your love life has caused you the most pain? And she's saying jealousy. So I think she's talking about jealousy in relation to other women.

I'm feeling threatened.

Yeah, exactly.

In a way, what you're speaking to might be more like envy. Or if envy and jealousy have a difference, Envy might be wanting what someone else has. I guess jealousy in a relationship is feeling threatened that your partner might, someone else gets their attention and might steal them away.

Yeah, and you're scared.

Feeling unsafe, I think, is how it's felt and how it's experienced.

I so, okay, so I completely misheard that.

But if anyone was wondering about the other thing, then that's also helpful.

Well, but they're not entirely unrelated because the kind of jealousy we experience in a relationship still has us comparing ourselves to someone, you know, it has you comparing yourself to someone else very often. Unless it's just a generalized feeling of like jealousy that your partner is doing something without you. You know, some people feel that they just feel jealous that their partner, you know, went to a movie without me. But there's a, I think the answer for that is do you, is your goal your own comfort all the time or is your goal your partner's happiness? I think that's a good cure for jealousy. in a relationship, because if you really care about your partner being you, and you have to check yourself on that, because a lot of people, I think, if they're honest with themselves, their number one goal is not their partner's happiness. Their number one goal is their own comfort.

Yeah.

But if your partner is taking a holiday with her girlfriends or he's taking a holiday with his guy friends and there's a part of you that's like, I don't want him to go, you have to check yourself and say, is my goal for them to be happy. If this trip will make them happy, then they should go. I'm assuming, obviously, that nothing untoward is happening on this trip. And it's not like a. You haven't got a history of this person cheating on you. And this weekend they're going to Vegas with all the boys. But, you know, like, if they.

If.

If they're going on an innocent trip with their friends and you're jealous of that and that bothers you, then that's. you're not putting your partner's happiness first. So that's a kind of generalized jealousy. Then there's the jealousy of other people, which is, you know, I don't like, I don't, you know, I get jealous when they're around people like this, people like that. And that there is a, on one hand, there's a putting other people on a pedestal that we're doing when we get jealous. we're taking our own insecurity and using it to inflate the importance of something that someone has that you don't think you have. You know, so you might be around someone who seems particularly good looking or has what you think is a better body than yours, and you see your partner around that person and it makes you jealous. But you're overvaluing a trait or a quality that they have in that situation, and you're almost certainly undervaluing the traits and the qualities that you bring to the table. Now, the the follow up to that is someone saying, but what if my partner wants those things and I really am coming up short for my partner? Well, if you follow that to its extreme, you're not the right person for your partner. if that's the case. Like, if you take it all the way to its extreme, my partner doesn't value what I have to offer, then that's not your person. Now, there's space in the middle of that where it's my partner wants me and loves me, but they also value this thing in this other person that I don't have. But then you come down to, like, what I think of as just a kind of radical acceptance that you can't be every person on earth. You can't be everything. You can't be everyone. You just can't. And nothing can be everything. A great, if you think of your favorite movie, it's, and then I said, is it your favorite, like, is that movie that's your favorite movie, your favorite comedy? Well, if that movie is not a comedy, then even your favorite movie isn't your favorite comedy. If I say, what's your favorite comedy? And then I say, well, is it your favorite drama? No, your favorite comedy isn't, by definition, your favorite drama. So you can't, you can be amazing and you're still not going to be everything. And at a certain point, you have to understand that and accept that and say, there will always be people who are amazing in ways that I am not. I'm not trying, I can't be all forms of amazing to my partner. There's an impossible mission and I will always fail that mission.

And you'll never be the form of, we all have some illusion like perfect on paper. Everyone has some idealized vision in my head of these are all the traits I would love someone to have. And then you go, oh no, they love tall guys and I'm not a tall guy. But that isn't how actual psychology works empirically in practice. People don't go, oh, I've got a boyfriend. He's so amazing. I love him so much. I'm so attracted to him. But he's not six foot three like I put on paper when I said I thought of my ideal man. Like you say, you're gonna fall short of one of those things on paper your partner likes the best. But it's not being someone's dream person isn't about Being their favorite of everything.

And let's just be real for a second, right? Let's be really radical acceptance. Let's say that that person gets a guy who's shorter than that. She might one day see a tall guy and think, oh, there's a handsome tall man.

Right, yeah.

It's okay.

Yeah. No, there's a maturity.

It's okay.

That's alright.

Yeah, like, unless they're going off and sleeping with that person, It's okay. You don't have to be everything. And that guy isn't everything. He's not everything either. He's just something you think you're not, and that's why it's getting to you.

The thing that you said earlier, which I think is a really helpful piece of advice for someone who is actually chronically jealous with partners. And there's lots of reasons why we experience jealousy. It can be that we have been betrayed in the past and so we have a lot of points of reference where we were made to feel like our trust was broken. And so we can imagine that happening again. We can imagine being left or being cheated on or being betrayed in some way. And then there's just a chronic feeling of unworthiness that a lot of people carry around with them, which stems back usually to childhood or very early formative experiences, which makes people feel like who they are as a whole is somehow not enough to be lovable. And, you know, it's almost like me as just simply myself is never going to be enough for someone. And what you said earlier, I think, is really, really helpful. to reframe the latter, which is.

Being.

With someone who it's all about what your partner values. And if you know that you're with someone who values building a life with you, who values the history that you share, who values how comfortable they feel around you, who values whatever it might be, those very, very real and very true characteristics that form a healthy relationship, then somebody walking in with, like you say, a better body shouldn't be so much of a threat because how can that compete with all of these other very rich, very real things that are anchored at the core of your relationship with your partner? And so I think your jealousy, it's very, very important for people who experience jealousy to not shame themselves and say, I'm just a crazy jealous person because oftentimes jealousy is kind of, it doesn't come from nowhere. But I do think that choosing the kind of partner who makes you realize that those things that you might be feeling jealous and insecure about are not the things that you should feel jealous and insecure about. Because actually you're very safe because as long as you keep building what you're building with that person, that person is always going to value that. more than the cheap thrill of dating somebody else. And like you say, the other thing I think is helpful is recognizing that your partner finding other people attractive is a very, very normal thing.

And.

It'S a really hard thing to get your head around, right? Because you go, what if they find them attractive? Then that makes me feel unsafe. It makes me feel like there's something wrong with me or. I don't know, there's just something about it that's just very, very hard to... Like if I said to you Matt, I find that guy over there really attractive, you would feel something. You would be like, I don't like this because you're not supposed to find other people attractive, you're mine. Like that's a very normal thing, but it's also an unreasonable ask to ask your partner to never ever find other people attractive. And so I think that recognizing that that's also a very normal thing and it's something that we just have to learn to live with. and just the trust piece is really at the core of this. It's like they can find somebody attractive, but if you know that they value your relationship and if you know that you can trust them, let them find them attractive and just don't focus on it. Focus on your relationship.

Yeah, I agree. They don't need to value you the most in every area. That's impossible.

How dare you? I hope you value me the most in every area.

Well, let me say this. They don't need to- They don't need.

To- Take that back.

You just, you have to get out of this idea of rating each other as a hundred in every area. They need to Value the you the most in the areas they value the most. And when that's the case, you can feel safe. And my experience has been when I feel safe, I actually care a lot less about the kinds of things you're talking about.

For sure, of course.

Very true. Of course. All right, what's our next pattern?

Well, our next pattern is not being able to forget about people who choose not to be with me or staying in situationship like relations for too long. This reminds me of that limerence subject which we're going to talk about on the podcast in the future because it's so interesting. this idea of not being able to forget about people who choose not to be with me. To me, that's really, really interesting. I've got a lot I want to say about that, but what do you guys think?

It becomes a kind of obsessive thinking, a kind of constant rumination. This idea that this person who didn't choose me is very important. There's so many different ways you can look at this, but It gives them so much importance in your life.

That.

You just, in life, you can either wait or you can create. It's as simple as that. And when I think of like constantly thinking about someone who didn't choose us, to me, there's a sense of like it's a form of anxiety, right? It's proving that I'm not worthy. It's proving that I'm not good enough. It's proving that there's something wrong with me. And if I could just convince that person who, you know, didn't think I was enough, then I would be enough.

And.

I always find that the times in my life where I have to put myself out there a lot.

They.

Have, they're always a good time for me to kind of immunize myself against that kind of thinking. Like right now, part of having a book coming out is reaching out to podcasts that we want to go on. And there's, of course, we have many friends who have sizeable podcasts. And so those are simple. But then there's the whole world of podcasts that are people we don't know. And I have to then go back to being the person who is reaching out and asking people on a date and seeing if they say yes. And of course, not all of them do. A lot of people just don't even message back. Some people say it's a pass. Other people string you along and it never goes anywhere. Some people say yes. And I have found it to be such a waste of time to sit there focusing on the ones that don't open the message or don't reply to the message. Because it's not even what's going on in my head isn't even necessarily true. Some of them just, they have a thousand things going on and they're just not even thinking about it. They're like, see the message, like, I'll get back to it later, and they never get back to it. Some people have a completely wrong impression of me.

They.

They may think I'm something at first sight. They never really get under the surface of who I am and the way I talk and what I teach. And so they have made up a false impression of me, and so they reject me based on that false impression. You know, there's all sorts of reasons that people say no or don't reply. I really have stopped, you know, some of them, I've had people in my life that the more they got to know me or they got, suddenly they spoke to a friend who said, oh, that Matt Hassy guy is amazing. And then they go, oh, okay, well, maybe I should do something with them. I've seen that enough to know It's so silly to take anything too seriously when it comes to rejection. There's just so many things that play a part. So you have to then suspect yourself and go, why am I, what's going on with me that I am getting so attached to every person that says no, notice the pattern in yourself and notice it as a pattern. Because it's highly likely that the reasons people are rejecting you or saying no or whatever are they vary from person to person, but your story probably never changes.

Wow, yeah, that's so true. That's so true.

Your psychology also really works against you when looking back at the past. We all know it. There is a natural tendency that the past always seems more romantic. yeah, like things in your childhood seemed like, oh, that was just so easy and fun. Even if that wasn't true when you were living it, you think that relationship was better than it was. And that happens with people sometimes as well. You romanticize people and idealize them the further you get from them, especially then if it's like, oh, they decided they didn't want me anymore. You kind of end up in an idealizing state, and that becomes its own Loop and rumination, and it can actually be very out of touch with the reality of all that person's flaws. And the very fact that you talk about all the time is someone didn't choose you. That is really fundamental. And I know I had a major shift when I truly internalized that whole point that you talked about for a long time, which is like, if someone doesn't want you, in some ways, that that should sort of turn you off. Like, that should make you go, oh, this. this person doesn't want to give me what I need. And I want someone who's down to give me what I need. I want someone who thinks I'm amazing. I want someone who really wants to be with me. That's sexy and attractive to me. That internal shift, if you make that, it's like everything becomes so much easier, but it's hard to make.

Yeah.

Yeah.

So common. Also, you know, I want to move on to the next one, but. I think we obsess over somebody not choosing us because again, it's that feeling of unworthiness, right? If I can make this person who doesn't want me want me, then I'll feel worthy. And oftentimes we're just repeating patterns and it's actually, you know, this idea of not being able to let go of the very same people who have rejected us is a disordered attachment.

Yes.

And so it's very important to recognize it as such, which is you are having a actually kind of a trauma response in that moment. It's not about them, it's not about the situation, it's all about you. And, you know, really kind of diving deep and understanding that can bring a little bit of peace and a little bit of a respite from it, because it can be a very intense feeling for people.

It also allows you to depersonalize it. because when you realize this is a disordered attachment that has come from childhood or from an early formative relationship, that's just repeating itself through all of these relationships. All of a sudden, the person that you're obsessing over doesn't seem that important anymore. They seem like a yet another one in a long line of people that you're projecting all of that unworthiness onto and that desire to be saved. or to be protected or to feel like you're enough onto the, by the way, for anyone who hears that and you're like, my God, that's me. The retreat is where we help people with that over six days. So just a side note, mhretreat.com is where to go if you want to come and work on us with that. We have a six day retreat happening in Florida in September this year. So check that out.

Yeah, I think we've got time for one more. And this is another theme that came up. And I thought it was a really, really kind of a common one. This woman said, Not expressing myself. So her pattern, I should say, is not expressing myself for fear that he will leave. Can you guys speak to that a little bit?

Each one of these I could spend a whole day on coming at it from all different angles. I'm literally just picking an angle out of 10 different ways to see these as we go. So please don't, when you're listening to these, think of these as comprehensive answers. But that idea of not expressing your needs, it comes from having our needs invalidated for so long that we don't think it's okay for us to have needs. And we feel like in order to be loved, in order to be around someone, in order to be worthy of someone's company or their love, or then we have to have no needs. We have to supplicate to them. We have to please them. We have to worry about them all the time. If we feel unworthy, then we are going to go out of our way to please someone else because that's kind of, that's the, it's kind of like, that's the caveat. Yeah. You can get a great person as long as you have no needs and you do everything for them. But you can't have a great person and have expectations. You can't have a great person and have needs. That's too much. And that's the, you know, that's what, that's what that pattern, that idea is what makes people feel incredibly unsafe when they have needs because they feel incredibly resentful the whole time that someone isn't meeting their needs. But, but that resentment they feel is their safe Zone. That's their Comfort Zone. They know how to feel resentful. They know how to bottle all of that up. They know how to go and tell their friends that they're sad or that they're not being treated very well, or they know how to do that. That's safe. What's not safe is being someone's equal. What's not safe is saying, this is what I need in this relationship. And. And so for those people, so much of the time, expressing your needs brings you out in cold sweats. It makes you feel like you're unsafe. It makes you feel like someone's going to leave you immediately, that you've asked too much, you may. find yourself expressing a need and saying, I, from now on, I need you to do this. And then instantly regretting that you said anything because you're like, oh, my God, now they're gonna leave me, or I've been too high maintenance, or I've been difficult. I've rocked the boat. So don't ever be surprised if you start listening to things and they, you know, you hear this thing of having needs and you go and have them, and then immediately you find yourself freaking out. that you said anything is because it is alien to you to be in a relationship where you express your needs. And that's, you know, we can have a whole other episode on that, but that's a, it's a essentially a new way of being where you have to start to learn that there are relationships that will exist. that are reciprocal, where you can have needs and in fact, the ones where you express your needs and people stay actually become far more honest and deep relationships because in those relationships, you're actually being who you are. In the relationship where you don't show your needs, you're actually being someone else. You're not being who you are. And so that person doesn't even really ever get to know you. They don't even know who they're in love with. they don't know who they're dating because you don't express any of your needs. So, you know, there's, I want to get, I just finished with this. A way to have needs when so far your whole life has taught you that you're not safe if you have needs is to tell yourself that not having needs is ultimate pain. Because pain will make you take action, even if you don't believe something more is possible, even if you don't believe someone is going to meet your needs. If you know that the hell of not having your needs met has become so great that you just cannot exist there anymore, then you'll start having you'll start expressing your needs just because you realize you can't stay here. But eventually what we want to do is, is you always want to, you know, a negative driver can get you to move, but a positive driver can pull you in a direction. And the positive driver is when you actually start thinking about the kind of beautiful relationship you want to be in, which is one way you can fully Express yourself and someone knows who you are and they see you. And the relationship you has have as a result is a very beautiful and honest one of two people that know each other, truly know each other. And that can be a very positive thing to aim for. But that's a lot to do for someone who doesn't believe they're worthy right now. So the the one of the greatest movers is just necessity, knowing that you can't stay here anymore. Thank you so much for watching, everybody. If you enjoyed this, I think you will also enjoy this video. So go check that out. And if you haven't pre-ordered a copy of my new book, love life yet, you can do that at love life book.com.