Abba Amma - The Divine Mother and Father

Welcome to the Science of Abundance Daily Alchemy podcast. I'm your host, Sean Clayton, and my story's pretty interesting. Went through a ton of trauma, former incarceration, suicide attempts, sexual abuse in my life. And one of the things that's happened in my life is I've actually used hermetic principles, alchemy, all these really cool tools that we hear and we talk about the Illuminati, whatever you want to call it, and develop practices in order to change and affect my lives differently. So within this podcast, I will be giving tidbits and bites for individuals to be able to bite into on a daily basis. That will allow you to take baby steps to change your life. But at some point, you'll find the door that starts to change the effect of how you show up on a daily basis. Enjoy this, give feedback, come to my Instagram comment, whatever it might be, always open because we wouldn't be here without each other. Please enjoy and thank you, and I love you. Welcome back to Daily Alchemy. And this is going to be an exciting episode that I'm going to call abba. And abba amma is an Aramaic term, and it is the intimate addressed to God as father or mother. And as we know, in that time, Jesus spoke Aramaic. And it was one of those words that Jesus used that gets left out of most traditional religious texts when you go back and you dig deep into what we would call the text behind the text that we read. And that text behind the text is very much so focused on different aspects that has been carved out of standard religion and mainstream religion as of today, even though we get hints of it here and there and say if the whole story's been rewritten, it was rewritten with a limitation to keep people in a space of separateness. And in the last episode, we talked a little bit about the we are going from the I am to the we are. And when I went a little bit further back in some other religious text and even the Moses time where it was talking about I am, that I am, there's something interesting in that text as well that kind of bridges it into the centralized statement of we are when we look at it that way. So this is gonna be an interesting one. Cause I'm gonna go deep into this little rabbit hole and explain there's this text that's grounded in religion called the Gospel of the Holy 12. And I'll talk a little bit about where this book came from, number one, but why it's important to read it from the direct translation. From Aramaic. How we can understand that as a aspect of correspondence that leads us back to understanding a little bit more about ourselves and what our role is in the process of compassion and forgiveness, in what we would have considered the original sin or the original doubt that ever existed. And how we can look at that through an opportunity of us collectively starting to make decisions around how we can make adjustments in our lives to eliminate, eradicate all the trauma issues, mental health problems, all the little whack a mole games that we play with the problems of our lives in order to have enough compassion and forgiveness toward that which created us. Because that which created us, in asking the question of what it was, had doubts. So how could it ever know everything? The only way that it would ever know everything is through the experience of the infinite ripple effect by asking the question. So to make it really simple, we'll put ourselves in the shoes of the Creator and then we're going to get into this Abba amma thing here in a minute. Okay? But the aba amma statement that was used, father or mother, really helps us kind of look at it from the perspective of it was everything. So there's father and mother all inclusive as one. There is a they that exists there. Right. And a simplified example of this is if you were to say, I want to try something I've never eaten before. So let's use an example. I'm going to try a infusion based Indian hamburger. Okay. Which just sounds crazy. So it's basically a tiki masala hamburger. We're just going to call it that. And I'm going to have. I'm going to set my intention of having a tiki masala hamburger. A couple things need to have it happen when that happens. Right. Is how do I experience that? Well, from thought alone. There's the concept that comes to mind, but you can't just think it into existence. Even though thoughts do become things, they can become things through the process of integration. So the process of integration requires some facilitation, some efforting to take place. And that's the masculine side of life that we have to go through. And there is a we statement in that. So how do we enjoy a tiki masala hamburger? So we are going to enjoy tiki masala hamburger. What we have to do is we have to put our collective minds around. Can't just be done in a silo. I can't go out and say, well, I know all the ingredients of a tikki masala hamburger. I'm going to have to go in and Ask individuals what's in tiki masala. How do I make a hamburger? So in that question of me saying I would like or I'm curious what it tastes like or whatever it might be, it just created an entire ripple effect of me having to get a recipe for hamburger, a recipe for tikka masala. How am I going to cook the thing? How am I going to put it together? Now, if I try it one time and it comes out pretty good, great. Now, would I want to experiment on it and try it again with other flavors, other textures? Maybe I cook it medium this time. Maybe I use a toasted bun. Maybe I cook it on a grill. Maybe I cook it on a flat top. Maybe I cook it in a pan. So there's all these infinite experience, and this is just a tiki masala hamburger we're talking about right now. This is not the questioning of self. This is not the questioning of existence. This is not saying, I wonder what all of humanity would look like. I wonder what it would be like if these things started to happen with birds or hurricanes. I wonder what whether it would be like just at that spot versus that spot. I wonder if I dropped a tornado on that house versus that house, what would happen? What would the ripple effect be through time? And could humanity hold that state? Could I hold that and actually, you know, really understand why it was created all out of love? So now we take the example of the tiki masala hamburger. An infinite possibilities. I mean, I came up with about 20 different ways of cooking the thing right. Right now, I think it was actually really like seven or eight. But you could see all the variables that could go into this. Don't want a tomato, no tomato. A little bit extra spice, more spice, less spice. What's enough spice? You could put all the actual powder on it, all the curry powder on at one time. You could put a little bit on it at one time. Don't want it with french fries today. Right. So now you're saying, all right, well, that's one example. Great, Sean, I appreciate you sharing it with me. But in the questioning of anything in life, there are now infinite experiences that can be created off the question. So there's nothing wrong with asking the question, but it's also, how quickly do we go into the knowing? And once you get that recipe just right, because there is no truth of what a good tiki masala hamburger is. And now you're back into the law of polarity, is that there are infinite possibilities of what that tiki masala hamburger would be like, and then at what point you say, okay, I'm gonna refine it so that most people like it. Not everybody's gonna like it, but most people like it. Can't make it too spicy. I can't make it too savory. I gotta make it like this. Do I put this sauce on here? And then you try to drive for consistency. This is that process of integration. This is that process of integrity of how we show up with it. So then we say, all right, well, let's back that up a little bit. Let's back that up into yourself. And then we're gonna go back into the seat of God. So we back that up into ourselves. Right? Well, actually, before I go even further, before I back it up into self, in order to get the actual recipe right, as right as you think you can get it, and what is even right, you have to have enough compassion and forgiveness toward creating a bunch of burgers that you don't enjoy in order to find the one you do. So if you have enough compassion and forgiveness to keep going and find the burger you love and have enough compassion and forgiveness for all of the experiences that we would perceive as wasted. And if I was so passionate about getting the burger right, every single time, I'm gonna call me getting that burger wrong. I guess you could say trauma. But I had to go the process of creating some okay burgers in order to have a really good one. So now let's take it back to yourself. Within yourself, you go through life. You have all these experiences. When your soul was incarnated in your physical form, what happened jumped into this body as a baby. It came into life. It vibrated into life. You vi. You're just vibrate. You vibrate in a life as this beautiful human being. And you have this process of growing, this illusion of growing, because we put ourselves in this very specific code of being able to do it this way. And you have a lot of experiences. A lot of us have amazing. And even that's a duality statement parents that guide us on a path that allows us to fit in society very well. And because we fit in society very well, we seem like we're being quote, unquote, successful. But even in that, you wake up one day and you're like, well, how my life sucks, and I'm depressed and everything is wrong because the experiments that you went through in life in order to have that really good tiki masala hamburger, you realize it just isn't what you wanted. It wasn't what you were creating for yourself. So Then you go off on another tangent. And in that exploration of self, we oftentimes land at this midlife crisis where everything starts to break and we have to go through a aspect of self identification. And it happens like clockwork. Happened to me. I got right in my late 30s. I'm like, well, this whole world that I was in didn't seem right. All those experiments seemed a little weird. I'm going to get this hamburger right on my own accord. I'm not going to cook it like everybody else's. I'm not going to get on everybody else's roller coaster. I'm going to build my own roller coaster. And when I started building my own roller coaster of self, I started to crash all over the place and create a bunch of shitty experiences. And that created, at a moment, even more guilt. And I created a lot of chaos from that guilt. Like, ended up moving to a whole nother state. I ended up being all over the place relationally, where I was still married in one thing, but moved on in another relationship. I was a shit show. And I was holding it together the best that I could, but I was doing it out of the guilt and shame of what people thought about me. So of all those experiences I had to have those experiences to find a way out of, was causing a bunch of suffering in my life. So once I started to create this spiritual vampirism, which I talk about in some other episodes, it pulled me down this really interesting lane of me having some version of sovereignty, but that sovereignty was still cloaked in a bunch of guilt and shame. And so I had to go through all of that. And one day I woke up, I started to take responsibility for the trauma. I went to Hoffman. That helped me understand the patterns that I had. I had compassionate forgiveness for the patterns of my parents, which allowed me to have compassion and forgiveness for myself. So then I'm like, oh, well, all of this stuff. I can have compassion and forgiveness. Of the reasons why I act the way that I do now. I'm like, okay, if that's the case, then I can have compassion and forgiveness for myself. But then what started happening is I kept hitting these walls, and it was problems and frustrations that were happening because I was not solving any problem. I just kept playing this really funky game of whack a mole with my trauma, and I'd get it to knock down and it would creep back up again. And I started to rationalize my sexual trauma. I started rationalizing my prison trauma. I started rationalizing things with my son. I started rationalizing you know, well, I've been married three times. I've started rationalizing my mother was never there for me. I started rationalizing my mother was there for me, you know, but not the way that I wanted it to be. So I started rationalizing all these things as to why I continued to suck. And then I'm like, well, I got to heal that. Then I would heal it for a moment and it would come roaring back. And this was an example of me going through the process of figuring out how to have compassion and forgiveness for those independent moments. But I kept looking at things from the seat of effect, not the seat of cause. Now you go back into karma. Now, this is one of those other laws we talking about. We've already gone through three of these here. So now I go through this thing where I'm looking at things through the seat of effect, not the seat of cause. I'm looking at all the effects of my life, and it was stretching me out infinitely. So the cause that I was creating was now out of solving the effect, attempting to solve the effect. But I never got to the seat of cause. So then what I did is I stepped back a little bit and I said, okay, if this is the problem, then all these effects that are happening, how do I move myself into the center? How do I move myself into the seat of cause? So karma isn't the process of saying, you're gonna reap what you sow, you're gonna have all these issues. You know, bad karma is gonna happen to you. And whatever it might be, you did some fucked up shit, so you can expect some bad things to happen in your life, which absolutely can be true if you don't go through the process of walking in integrity and integration, and if you actually subscribe to a linear timeline, that everything that happens is going to have a very relational effect in a window of time that the world has told you is supposed to be a very specific way. But the reality of it is, once you actually understand you're at the seat of cause, you can change all the effects in your life, and that's how you become the creator. So then the thing that I had to go through the process of doing was once I put myself in the seat of cause, and I started to understand everything in my life, good or bad, whatever that might have been, even though I don't subscribe to this good or bad thing, but the way society sees it was created for me to love myself more. And that's why I say that statement all the time, is why did I create all this to love myself more. And once I could answer that question, it started to lay a very specific lens of compassion on everything that I saw. But it still didn't get back to that real core seat of cause. I was doing this justice reform work, and I went to this justice reform fundraiser and another fundraiser before that for democracy, and I noticed that there were all of these point solutions that were looking to solve all of this massive trauma that people were donating millions and millions and millions of dollars to. I'm like, man, this is nuts, because they're not really solving the problem. They're just like kind of like solving guilt. Like, they're like. They're like kind of solving it, but not really. I talked to a good buddy of mine, and he's huge in the space, and he's like, look, we're trying to fight a $300 billion battle with $30 billion, and we don't have the same infrastructure. And there are 80 different companies, hundreds of different companies trying to solve this problem. Again, fighting against one thing. What do you think's going to win? The one that's vibrating, even if it's vibrating a very low vibration, it's vibrating at a very consistent energy. And all the other ones are all over the place. And even in the justice reform space, most of those individuals that are leading the charge there have a bunch of trauma associated with it, but they're fighting the good fight because they know that they can do something to heal a little bit of brokenness in themselves based on what they went through, based on them being formally incarcerated or having some law that didn't benefit them in a way, and they're fighting the hell out of that, and it's a beautiful fight. But if we all came together and we went back to the seat of cause of whatever created the reason that justice reform is even there, and you solve for that, then you solve the whole thing. If you solve what's taking place at the core of climate crisis, then you solve the whole thing. If you go through the process of saying, okay, here's what is actually creating all of the trauma in humanity, and you solve for that. You love that thing and you show compassion and forgiveness towards that, then you solve the whole thing. So now I'm gonna go to this Abba Amma statement and I'm gonna read off the Scripture. I'm a pastor, so if I don't do it the way that is done in church, forgive me. And this is out of the Gospel of the Holy 12, and it says, and it was the third hour when they crucified him, and they gave him vinegar to drink mingled with gall. And when he tasted thereof, he would not drink. And Jesus said, abba amma, forgive them, for they know not what they do. So here's my question. In this statement, who is them and who is they? If Abba amma is a they statement, because it is Mother and Father in Aramaic, this is how Jesus spoke of they. They spoke of it as all and all is they. Then could we not lean in and perceive that Jesus was saying, forgive you, for you don't not know what you do in the exploration of yourself? Because even in the exploration of the Abba Amma self, it had to create all of these horrific experiences in order to understand what kind of burger it really wanted. So if we're to understand that aspect of things and we can lean in and say that's a possibility. And even if we go further back into other text and there are things around I am that I am, even that statement in itself, if I am that and I pointed to something I am, then I am that I am. That I am is me. So everything that I look at and I say that to which is everything in my life, I am that also. Which then brings us back into the statement of we are. A much simpler way to say this would be we are. A much simpler way to lean into this would be to understand that we are all of creation, our responsibility is all. And we had to have all of these experiences in order to understand how we are to love. And here's the kicker. There are infinite experiences we can have. I mean, I just went through a handful about a hamburger that was made at the Tiki Masala. Hamburger, right. You know, how many different ways could you drink water? How many different ways could you sit in a chair? You think, just a couple. But you could slouch, you could lean over, you could do this, you could do. There are infinite ways to have the experience. This is why we go through what we go through. The beautiful thing about stillness that I'm going to help us remind us of right now is that the stillness allows us to know our truth. The stillness allows us to receive that divine information that's there for us. What we've done historically is move so fast that we don't even pay attention to the stillness around us. And all the stillness are just miracles of knowing to remind us how to slow down. And slowing down doesn't mean stop slowing down doesn't mean do nothing. This is one of the beautiful thing about what monks do is they slow down, they become still, they receive. But also is it not possible to sit there and receive while also impacting others? Could you not be still walking through life? Could you not be still understanding there's compassion, forgiveness around? We are that you're walking around as this perfect version of the tiki masala burger that you could be. Whether you like tiki masala or not doesn't matter. But you get my point is that you are always and always have been perfect. And even in the experiences that you've had, in order to expand infinitely yourself, the opportunity is. And this is where we go back to that original sin, if we wanted to call it that, was the immediate time that we show compassion and forgiveness. For when God asked the question of who it was and in that moment created infinite ripple effects because the power of that source is infinite. So the infinite power of the question that you have as you yourself listening to this creates infinite ripple effects, infinite possibilities. And so the stillness of being able to show compassion and forgiveness to being able to ask that question, and it's okay to ask questions, but being able to pull that back into center and understand your why you created it, to love yourself more keeps you in the cycle of constantly evolving, constantly forgiving. And that's how we become whole again. That's how we find the truth. That's how we fall back into love with all of the fear that's ever been created. And I'm not going to stop talking about this, but what I am going to start talking about, not stop, but I'm going to continue talking about is in the next episode, we're going to dig into all this technology that we've created. We think it's here to hurt us. We think it's here to take us away from anything. We're going to dig in onto how we are able to communicate with individuals that are not vibrating at the same frequency as we are and why those individuals you can never see, like you never meet them, you never see them. It's almost like you have to force your way into it. And when you do, it's almost like all hell breaks loose. Because there are dimensions and dimensions that we live in that once we understand how those dimensions are being created, we can start to actually move through them in a more fluent way. And we can start applying loving energies on them to bring everybody into the same moment in time. And we have created the technology to allow that to happen. So a few takeaways from this episode are one, go research some Aramaic texts When it comes down to these religious teachings, it's really kind of crazy, this Gospel of the Holy 12. I'll leave a link in the description here if you want to read it. It talks about what happened with Christ like between the times that they don't talk about him in the bible between like 13 and 33. Right. It's kind of interesting what he went through and so you can learn about that, like what he was, what he was doing. Am I here preaching that Christ is the Lord and Savior and the only way to heaven? Not at all. Because I believe we're all not even. I believe I know what we are. And we are all here as an aspect and a reflection of salvation. But what I will say is that a takeaway that we can all have here is to keep reminding yourself. Keep repeating the we are statements. Keep looking at the wholeness of everything around you. Give God a hug. Go listen to that episode if you haven't listened to it. But even here, show God all source the forgiveness of the question that it asked that created you in your beautiful state. And once you do that, you just combine right back with it. And then love begets more love instead of fear. Be getting more fear. I do. Thank you guys for listening in today. I love you so much and I'm excited about what we are.