17 Aug 2023 · 11 min
Podcast episode in which host Sean Clayton shares his personal journey through trauma (incarceration, suicide attempts, sexual abuse) and explains how he uses hermetic principles, alchemy, and practices to transform himself. Central themes: ego and self-preservation, the interconnectedness of all beings ('the All'), healing through expansion, and practical application of these ideas in relationships and business to create solutions that benefit everyone.
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Welcome to the Science of Abundance Daily Alchemy podcast. I'm your host, Sean Clayton, and my story's pretty interesting. Went through a ton of trauma, former incarceration, suicide attempts, sexual abuse in my life. And one of the things that's happened in my life is I've actually used hermetic principles, alchemy, all these really cool tools that we hear and we talk about the Illuminati, whatever you want to call it, and develop practices in order to change and affect my lives differently. So within this podcast, I will be giving tidbits and bites for individuals to be able to bite into on a daily basis. That will allow you to take baby steps to change your life. But at some point you'll find the door that starts to change the effect of how you show up on a daily basis. Enjoy this, give feedback, come to my Instagram comment, whatever it might be, always open because we wouldn't be here without each other. Please enjoy and thank you and I love you. For the benefit of all. It's an interesting statement because any statement that I read that includes the word all is very all encompassing, no pun intended. But to think about the all is to think about every aspect, not only of people, but, but of yourself. The air in between you and that, the universe. When we look at the world and over the last 43, 44 years I've been alive, and even prior to that, one of the things that I've actually seen in witnessing history is we oftentimes identify the aspects of things that are not in benefit of others. When you study history, you study a lot about wars and struggle and suffering and the hero's journey. And when you look at those things, it's like there's always somebody in there that just doesn't quite win. All the way from the Pilgrims landed here and then the Indians didn't quite benefit. And you think about Southern states and the lack of balance that happened within slave times. And not everybody benefited. Even capitalism in the United States itself doesn't benefit the all. And when one suffers, we all suffer. Because there's an aspect in that law of correspondence that keeps us tethered no matter how far we get away from it. We've even created social structures to have different neighborhoods, different cities, different ways of voting, and different structures that happen in order to remain distance. But that distance doesn't disconnect you from the person that's homeless. Whenever I ride around with Sophia, her and I will see a homeless person and she just feels it all through her body. And I feel it too. We're constantly called to philanthropy. We're constantly called to correcting different aspects of the world around us. And the challenging thing about it is that we then rationalize it and say we don't have enough time. And so then we look at the lens of time as something that does not benefit all of us. And there's an aspect of issues with time management, or I'm running too hard on this, or I don't have enough time to do that. And that's not true at all. We create from the present moment. We absolutely can do things to benefit the All. We just oftentimes don't have the intention of doing it, or we feel like we need to get up on the other person. And that's where our ego steps in. The ego constantly wants to self preserve. And why does it want to self preserve? Well, if you go back to the creation of the universe, the immediate moment of the questioning of who am I? Once I'm going to go back to the this thing that I do where I talk about when God, or all, or Source, whatever you want to call it, created the universe, there was a recognition of self and then a recognition of what is self. And even in the question and the doubt of what is self, it creates an infinite splintering of doubt and fear. And everything in society has been created from that aspect of doubt and fear, but also in the loving of that doubt and fear to then course correct that doubt and fear back to oneness, work constantly on a state back to oneness. That is what the all has created for itself through the recognition of itself and others. So back to the point of self preservation. The ego is here in order to remind ourselves to actually preserve itself. And when we start to have any recognition of safety or stillness or along those lines, the ego quickly swoops in. Because if you think about the law of correspondence, the ego is essentially the trauma response of source that intervenes itself so it never has to feel the space of separation again. However, the ego has not been nurtured or loved enough in order to identify that it is really here to serve us in a way to help us self preserve in the state of wholeness that we're in, while also making sure that it gets out of the way when we have the opportunity to actually learn more about ourselves from the space of expansion. So if I break this down into a couple different categories. One, there is the opportunity to self preserve. And when we get into that really beautiful space of stillness and wholeness, our biggest target is to actually self preserve. Within that. And that fine razor's edge that we live on is that if we don't continue to seek and if we don't continue to expand, then we're compressing the infiniteness of self. And that is the thing that all Source God recognized that it was. Because it's a constant expansion. There are no ends to this. So if there are no ends to this and it's an infinite expansion, then we never end up anywhere except everywhere. So the self preservation aspect of it is having these moments of stillness, but also recognizing that that station that we've gotten to, we can always move past it. So it's locking in that station. So if we start to use the ego to lock in everything that we have built from a point of expansion, and then what we do is we create a lens of love over the top of that, even in the trauma that has lived within that expansion, then that expansion starts to heal, and then we expand more, and then we expand more. And so what All Source God recognized in itself for the benefit of all, is that we have to continually go through the process of healing all of it from the perspective of the stillness that we've gotten into. And it's all snapshots in time. So now I want to take this back into practical application because I know that kind of like went into a very deep hole, what we can remember. And I'm going to use like a really simple business use case that I had today. I was on a wonderful call with a buddy of mine and we were all negotiating this deal. In that deal, as I was observing it, is that it seemed like we were all trying to get a leg up on each other. You know, one was like, that just doesn't feel right. It doesn't benefit us like this way. And I just kept hearing the word benefit over and over and over again. And one didn't benefit one, it didn't benefit the other one. There wasn't this equally yoked, even exchange thing that was happening. And when I looked at the numbers that were there, and I looked at the risk thresholds, and I looked at how individuals were responding and kind of reacting at the same point to protect and self preserve their businesses, it became very evident that the only way to let this go was to find the solution that benefited everybody. And there was only one solution that was going to benefit everybody in that situation. And we found that one solution that benefited the entire ecosystem. And in that solution, it was almost like in minutes the entire conversation shifted from being something like that looked like this deal was not going to close to. All of a sudden, we're pulling together a letter of intent. And this might be one of the strongest partnerships that this industry has seen really, in quite some time. So building that unification to benefit the all, to recognize that people can let go and expand and understand that all the things that they've been concerned with and traumatized by were all opportunities for them to love themselves. But it takes only one person in that situation to find that little sweet spot that sits in the middle. And when you do that, everybody recognizes it. And then what do they do? They run to that sweet spot and then they start to expand from there because they find home in it. They find truth in it. They find love in it. So I'd encourage you to remember that the ego is a process and a tool for self preservation. It was created by our divine creator in order to preserve itself, because it also recognized that it needed to lock in the little dimensions of love that it was creating as it started to expand. And every time that it locked it in, they put it on a ledger. And when it was on a ledger, it couldn't be moved. And once it couldn't be moved, then it could expand from there and continue to grow from that aspect of learning. But see it through the lens of love versus fear. And that's where the mind starts to expand the world. So work that rhythm for yourself. Remember that you are infinite expansion. Remember, there is not one person that is completely enlightened that gets it all. Even Buddha or Jesus or any of those didn't figure it all out. None of us are going to figure all it out. Because every time we think we know it all, we don't. And that creates the magnificence and humility that is that place between humanness and God that we can constantly step into to infinitely love ourselves more. Thank you for tuning in and I love you.
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