The Alchemy of Grief: Turning Sorrow into Strength and Understanding

Welcome to the Science of Abundance Daily Alchemy podcast. I'm your host, Sean Clayton, and my story's pretty interesting. Went through a ton of trauma, former incarceration, suicide attempts, sexual abuse in my life. And one of the things that's happened in my life is I've actually used hermetic principles, alchemy, all these really cool tools that we hear and we talk about the Illuminati, whatever you want to call it, and develop practices in order to change and affect my lives differently. So within this podcast, I will be giving tidbits and bites for individuals to be able to bite into on a daily basis. That will allow you to take baby steps to change your life. But at some point, you'll find the door that starts to change the effect of how you show up on a daily basis. Enjoy this, give feedback, come to my Instagram comment, whatever it might be, always open because we wouldn't be here without each other. Please enjoy and thank you, and I love you. Welcome back to Daily Alchemy, and I'm your host, Sean Clayton. This is going to be a little bit of a heavier episode only because we're going to be talking about death, and a lot of people shudder away from it. It's interesting. I had a post go out and it was talking about loving the pain of separation. And I was talking about it from a different context with somebody brought up. They're like, look, if I end up loving the thing that I got separated from, it opens up a lot of wounds, especially if it was some really deep loved one that you lost. And I was gonna type back, and then I'm like, well, this is very apropos topic, only for the simple fact that we all have this death thing that is, we say, inevitable. And so then it having me go a little bit deeper into what death is. And once again, all this stuff is half truth, right? Because we don't know the full absolute of anything. But as we go through the process of centering ourselves and we get information, of course that information means something. And as we resist and as we agitate those things that are not resonant out, the truth starts to shine through. That's how we get light, right? You have to go through enough darkness to find the light. My whole life, as an example of that, I definitely went through some dark stuff to find light, and I'll go through more dark stuff to find light. But if we subscribe to this whole construct of death and we recognize that all of those that have come before us in this candid Awkward illusion of a linear timeline that is so damn real because our senses tell us that it is. And when somebody goes, the feelings and emotions that we feel and the loss that we have when they're not around is. Is. It's a real deal. I couldn't imagine losing my parents. I couldn't imagine losing my loved one. I couldn't imagine losing my child. I couldn't imagine losing my friends. What I can recognize is in the loss of any of those things or any of those people. If I can have the opportunity to see it as love, you know, and I can really go down this path of understanding where that love comes from and why it would exist and what death really is then, at which point it allows me to see it through a different set of lenses. So bear with me on this one. We might agree, disagree either way, hear it out, and I feel like there'll be some interesting conversation that comes out of this one. So what I recognize death as is. And I've seen quite a few people pass in my life that I was very close to. All of them had a lot of trauma they were holding onto. There were times in my life that I wanted to die. And that feeling of death, the opportunity of entering that door, look so peaceful. It was part of my soul getting tired of the life that I was living and being like body, you don't want to do this anymore. And one of the interesting things about old age and young age is that our body can hold a certain level of resonance, right? It can hold a certain vibration. And no matter what, energetically we attempt to give it the beautifulness of the way that this physical body is constructed, is constructed out of love. I mean, think about the way that we come into life, whether it is through. Sometimes it happens in not the most loving ways. But the action itself is the combining of two beings in what's supposed to be a very euphoric, loving space that brings a beautiful life into this world, that is to be nurtured and cared for. That at which point has the ability to create its own identity, own perception and own reality in the world. What's challenging in that construct is that each of us then gets mapped with a very specific program that is tied to what our parents know, what society knows, and what allows us to be accepted in community. We all need community. We all need companionship. We are not meant to be in this world alone. And so when we start to go through the process of rationalizing poor behaviors, negative self love patterns in order to gather an aspect of community or Just to be fed or just to be cared for. We then start to coat ourselves with some pretty painful things. And when we coat ourselves with some pretty painful things, what then takes place from there is that we live a very painful life because we feel like, well, that's the way that I actually gain community, which is love, a version of love. And then we go on this really dark path toward death. Now as we get older, our body can't hold that rhythm anymore. So we die. And it's our body getting tired of our soul's intention to be back with oneness. If our body's saying, hey, I see this world as separate. And our soul is saying that's not true, what's happening? The conflict within yourself to what your soul knows to be true and your body knows to be true is in a constant battle. And what then happens is you get disease, you're out of harmony. You're out of harmony with your actual soul. So if you're out of harmony with your soul, then what then takes place is your genetic structure starts to get impacted, your physical health gets impacted. You'll hold trauma somewhere in your body, we call this genetics. Somewhere in your physical being you'll hold that trauma and you'll cycle it over again. Because you get it from your parents. And then at which point, whether it's you actually physically get it from your parents or whether you get it from an energetic pass through, it doesn't really matter because it's all energy anyway, right? We're all vibration. So then you're carrying it in your solar plexus. Obviously. My mom has gut issues, so I have gut issues. My dad has heart issues, so I have heart issues. Those things are very big signals around, like where you're out of alignment in your chakras and what you have to do with those energy centers in order to make changes with yourself. And once you can start to heal that, then you can start to make changes. So when we start to think about the aspect of death and death being this like really painful thing that takes place, it. It's really the opportunity for our soul to get back to oneness. So anybody that we love that we see, who passed away, whether it's traumatic, whether it's peacefully, whatever you want to call it, their soul has found a door for them to get back to oneness. Even if it's a baby, even if it's, you know, some school shooting that took place, even if it's somebody that took their life, cancer, whatever it might be, their soul is now going back to source, and it's going back to oneness. So as the soul goes back to oneness, it's the most loving thing that it could possibly do because it has back home. Now, the crazy thing is, is it's always been back in oneness. But our illusion of our body is creating the conflict with our soul. And what's taking place in this physical plane that we're in, that's an illusion. That our job in what we call spirituality or our awareness, is to understand that it's just an illusion. It is all a creation of ourselves, and it is all one. So when we see it all as one in this post that I put up is that when we love the pain of separation, that pain will go away. Death is real, and it's gonna hurt, and the pain is real. And feeling the feelings of that pain is real. What isn't real is creating a avoidance of the pain. Because even if you avoid it and you're not actually identifying the realness of the feeling, and then what happens? It constantly haunts you. Now, if it constantly haunts you, what happens is that you're now holding it somewhere in your body because it doesn't go anywhere. Energy's neither created nor destroyed. You can't avoid it. It's in your body. It is painful, and you haven't adjusted the energy of it for it to actually serve you, for you to actually receive the gift that it is. So when we have the opportunity to receive the gift that it is, what then takes place is that we open up our vessel to increase the capacity that allows us to then change the vibration of all that we thought was painful into all that we know is loving. The thought is pain. The knowing is loving. We think the pain, we know the loving. There's never been a time in your life to where you have really just been like, man, that pain is great. I'm just gonna. I'm just gonna sit in that one for a while. I'm gonna take that in, and that's just gonna be my life. That's why in depression, we're fine looking to find a way out of it. Even in depression, we enter into neutrality so that we can find a way back out of it. We have gone through the process of finding medication to get ourselves out. We've done all the things, stood up all the industries in order to get out of depression. We are not happy with that. We don't have a, you know, a way to get out of love, way to get out of feeling good, a way to get out of High vibration states, we are looking for more of those, which is why when things vibrate at a high vibration, we do more of that. We want more of that, we look for more of that. When they're in a low vibration, we run for the hills and do something totally different. And we're looking to course correct that. So in the space of death, of understanding that is a painful experience of watching somebody in your life leave and that physical form no longer being around, when we have the opportunity to recognize that one, we are all one, we are always and have always been connected, and that this time is an illusion, and that when they pass, we are still with them and they are still with us. And through that understanding, when we have the opportunity to increase the vibration of it. So love is just a fast vibration of anger, fast vibration of guilt, a fast vibration of shame. And we speed that bad boy up. I'm telling you that we then have the opportunity to move into a different state. And the pain is no longer pain doesn't mean you shouldn't feel it. You have to feel it to know how to overcome it. But it's not staying in it. And it's understanding that those wounds are there to heal and they're there to serve you. And that everybody that you loved in your life was always a lesson for you to understand how to love others, not to hurt others. And when we have the ability to go back into those moments of that separation that took place, we will start to merge back with aspects of oneness. And our thing is, is that everybody that has since left us, that has hurt us, when we get back into that loving state with them, it will all merge back into oneness. In the next episode, I'm going to talk about how all of this actually starts to work within the framework of merging into how we love God again and how we merge back into the pain of separation of what God created in that aspect of pain, in that aspect of the pain of itself. And once we can actually understand and empathize with that, what will happen in our lives is that there'll be a full eradication of any pain, any hurt, any trauma, because we'll understand why we created it to love ourselves. Thank you guys for tuning in. Appreciate you listening. I know this probably wasn't that easy for a lot of you, but if it only helps one, then it helps us all. Because as you do one thing, you do all things. Thank you so much and I love you.