The Great Flood of Self

Welcome to the Science of Abundance Daily Alchemy podcast. I'm your host, Sean Clayton, and my story's pretty interesting. Went through a ton of trauma, former incarceration, suicide attempts, sexual abuse in my life. And one of the things that's happened in my life is I've actually used hermetic principles, alchemy, all these really cool tools that we hear and we talk about the Illuminati, whatever you want to call it, and develop practices in order to change and affect my lives differently. So within this podcast I will be giving tidbits and bites for individuals to be able to bite into on a daily basis that will allow you to take baby steps to change your life. But at some point you'll find the door that starts to change the effect of how you show up on a daily basis. Welcome back to another episode of Daily Alchemy. This is Sean Clayton and I love this topic we're going to talk about today. It hit me pretty, I don't know, hard is the word, but very impactfully I was reading through some different scriptures looking for the original story of Noah and the Great Flood. I'd gone through some stuff in my life recently associated with a little bit of tearing down of things. And it was a beautiful tearing down of things, but some things had to tear down for me to actually clear the slate. And then it went back to as above, so below through the law of correspondence, I'm like, oh, there was this great flood that God permitted or all permitted to wash away. We can call the sins of the earth or reset the plane so a whole new world could be built. And what I recognized was that it was less about wiping the earth clean and it was more about there's a deeper narrative in inside of all that. I went through a ton of different scriptures in the Bible. I went through and I looked at some Sumerian text and Inky and Anil and all this other stuff that was around there and I said, this is really interesting to see that all of these beautiful stories of these, you could say quote unquote gods or prophets or saints or deities or whatever we want to call different human is versions of source walking this earth never had it easy. I mean, when I look at it, I don't think there's one like layback and chill story that takes place in the Bible or one that takes place in any of these Sumerian texts. And yet we sit here and we say life should just be super flow and easy. It was funny when I moved out to LA last year and I See, people are like, it just doesn't feel good. It's not for me. It needs to be really ease and all the flow and love and light. I get that. And I sometimes get it that it's going to be pretty tumultuous at times. It's going to be a little bit of a walking, you know, shit show, if we want to call it that. And because of that, it really grounded me out in recognizing that one. The spiritual walk and the spiritual path. And I've always known this, but it was more so I was seeking for the bliss all the time. It's like, we seek the bliss. We seek the thing that feels good. We push away from anything that doesn't. There were some teachings that I got into earlier that were like, stay away from your lower chakras. Really get between your heart and your mind and do some beautiful things in that so that you don't end up suffering in the aspects of the past. Totally get that. Don't suffer in the memories of the past. That's not something that any of us are looking to do. But the past does serve us in an interesting way when we don't get trapped in it. We have these examples of our lives of prison, of trauma, of all of this stuff that we've done. And those are examples that we can get trapped in the past that we can focus so much, using our linear thought pattern to say, that is reality, that is truth. And then we recycle that pattern over and over and over again. That's why there's pattern work out there, right? When we have the ability to recognize that every traumatic circumstance in our life was us loving ourselves to our full extent so that we could remember that the trauma is just a reflection of love. But it requires. Requires a lens of work for us to work through, for us to really embrace, for us to receive. And there's this thing between. There's this other law, the law of gender, and these masculine and feminine aspects of self is that when we receive, which is the feminine quality, the work that we do, which is the masculine quality, we actually are imbalanced. What ends up happening in the spiritual work that I've been involved in is that there's a lot of, hey, you need to receive, you need to receive, you need to receive. You've done all the work already. Now it's just time to receive. Which is a version of that. Yes. And then once you actually receive all of the blessings that you built for yourself because you opened yourself up in a lens of vulnerability to not stay in the trauma of the past, then what has to happen is you can't receive if you don't keep working. So what we have to do is we have to constantly stay in the grind and work and build momentum. But what will happen is the timeline that we live on will start to compress itself, and it will become faster and faster and faster. So what I mean by this is that imagine all your life you have been. I'm going to call. We've been blue pilling. We've been in the matrix, and we've taken on, as you can see in society, these highly patriarchal qualities. We're working, we're efforting, we're working, we're efforting. And at no point have we recognized that we need to receive the blessings that we put out there in our life and the blessings that were put out there for us. I'm going to take myself as a black man who has a lot of epigenetic trauma built in. My great grandfather worked on a plantation. I'm very close to that trauma of slavery. What's interesting about it is that I see it now as a blessing more than anything, because if I stayed in that trauma and I said, okay, my blackness is something that's going to keep me stuck in the past. I'm now going to put a linear timeline on that aspect of that blackness that is going to put a ceiling on my abilities. In addition to that, I say, okay, well, I went through some sexual trauma in my youth. I was super depressed. I've done the marriage thing several times. I'm a broken man. And the incarceration is there as well. I've got now a narrative in my life that really should say I'm going to be somewhat of a failure. And if I draw a linear timeline to that and then put on top of that, hey, there's this black trauma that I've got associated with slavery. I've got also the segregation trauma associated with Jim Crow and living in the South. I was called nigger all through middle school and had to deal with some aspect of racism. I have some broken family syndrome and patterning from my parents. I've also got some stuff that I decided I'm going to go ahead and do to myself in that pattern. And then I start to associate definition for each one of those and say, that's my reality. That's my reality. That's my reality. What's going to happen is that all that work that I've done, which that was work, I actually had to do some efforting and Some work to experience those aspects of self, whether it was through my soul, my genetics, or through my physical experience on this earth. And I never put myself in a position to receive the blessings of that trauma. Repeat. I'm going to repeat that again. I never put myself in a position to receive the blessings of that trauma. What's going to happen is going to glide right over me and it's going to move on to my son, it's going to move on to my nephew, it's going to move on to my niece, it's going to move on to other individuals that I mentor, that look at me and say, why haven't you dealt with that? And it's not about the fact that they know me so intimately because most of us cover up through the lack of vulnerability, any of that that's taking place, but our souls know, our higher selves know. And it's literally drawing and pushing us to release it and let it go in that letting go. And when we become vulnerable, we open all the doorways for us to receive those blessings of the trauma that will allow us to become whole and balanced. This is this physical plane we live in. It's all about balance. This is why we like sacred geometry and why we like beautiful pictures and art and balancing things that are there because we are looking for that balance and perfection in the world around us. Now what we have to do is once we get to the other side of hey, I've done the work, I've received the blessing. Say you did to my husband and you let it go. So you did five meo and you let it go. Say you went to a Dr. Joe retreat and you let it go. Say you did vipassana and you let it go. Say you did a bunch of trauma work, Hoffman process and you let it go. Now that you're in balance, what's going to happen is your neurological system is going to look for more trauma. This is just what happens because you recognize that the trauma is now a gift. Then what will happen is that when it seeks and looks for that trauma, we oftentimes get stuck back in. And it's like, man, that actual thing I did didn't work. So we have to recognize is that that trauma, which is similar to the Great Flood. And if you look at all the stories in the Bible, all the stories in Sumerian text, all the stories in Judaism, all the stories in Buddhism, all of those repeating stories over and over and over and over and over again, were overcoming the trauma to receive your blessings in it so that you could find the balance and do the work in order to love yourself more. It's accepting it, accepting the trauma. This is on David Hawking's scale of conscience, is accepting the trauma so you could reason yourself into love. Very simple. When we do that and we get into. My life pattern for the first 42 years of Sean's life was about how I actually received that trauma. To turn it and transmute it into love. Anything in my life that's not perceivably loving, I have to turn around and love it back into life. So the cool thing is that we have all these beautiful symbols and examples in our past. That's the past. The history, the Bible, the books, the wars, everything that we've left ourselves along the way to recognize that it was all the efforting that we can actually turn back around and receive all of that in love. Now when we wake up every single day, we close those timelines rapidly, over and over again so that we can constantly transmute through some work product, some effort that we have to put into this in order to receive the blessings that we build for ourselves. All the work is us just creating a throttle of the blessing. And when we create the throttle of that blessing, sometimes it's through traumatic circumstance, sometimes it's through blissful circumstance. And we can rise up and actually understand that there is a pattern and a rhythm in our life that we can pay attention to. We'll kind of always jump over the trauma trip up that we get into. We'll receive the trauma as an aspect of love. We'll use it as a great flood in our life to actually wipe the slate clean on a daily basis so that we can actually have a new beginning. And through that, resurrect our moments in a state of love, beauty, and blessing that will show the world that we are consistently whole. Thank you guys so much for tuning in, and I love you.