A Portrait of Change

They probably gave me more names before I was The Scary Guy, but I didn't know it. I mean, The Scary Guy, he's supposed to be, um, a killer, a murderer, a drug dealer. He's insane. He's crazy. He's a lunatic. He's a maniac. He must have been, he must have had child sexual assault. He's a rapist. Those are common names that people give me. Those are just run-of-the-mill thoughts that I see all the time. So based on that as the reality, I have learned How not to let their behavior and their negative enter my body, me become negative, and put it right back out. As long as you're awake, you're receiving it, and it's going in your body, in your mind. So that is the first piece, that's the foundation to understanding how it works. If you don't understand how it works, then you're a victim. You automatically turn into a victim. I see, I see victims walking down streets all over the world. I see people reacting to people full-time, and what do they do? Well, they blame the guy that made the energy. That's what they do, you know. Well, it's his fault. Well, no, it's not. It's your fault. It's your fault for becoming what you just heard, and they don't get that, see. So what you have to do is you have to break it down into a reality, is that it's all moving and it's It's all flowing and you are part of it. You now have to decide who created it, where does it belong, and how did it get to you. And these are pieces that it takes time to learn how to do that. And if they don't get it and they don't even see it, you can see what happens. You can see the results instantly. So I think this is very, very key and important that people fully understand that they have that power. I think they walk around powerless. They walk around powerless and they live as a victim blaming other people full-time. That's what I see. Alright, I want a chocolate. Chocolate in a cone, yeah? Yeah, is that the biggest cone you got? Yeah. Are you gonna be glad when you're done waiting on me? No, I'll miss you.

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I was working in British schools in the northwest of England, in Bury, in Lancashire, and I managed projects into the 3 schools for language development, and I also worked with the headteachers in the schools to improve race equality and race relations between students in the schools. And at this time, I saw information on a program about The Scary Guy. In fact, I was emailed the information, and when I first saw the information, I thought, wow, who's this guy and what's, what's What's his message all about? So I actually did my research and I telephoned every school that had brought Scary into their establishment in Britain. And resoundingly, the message, the information I got back, every person said, "Just book him, bring him into your school, he's absolutely amazing." My key message, I think, is to show people.

Now, you know, I say show. Is to show people how to take full responsibility for who they are as a human being. You know, it's easy to talk about respect, it's easy to talk about love thy neighbor, it's easy to say, hey, be kind, you know, and these are just words. I mean, they're just words coming out of my mouth. And a lot of places I travel to, they just have these words all over the walls, you know, it's like like, you know, respect and kindness and love and, you know, the peace sign and all that stuff is great. You know, I think it's really good to have all that, but how do you do that? How do you do that when somebody's being rotten and horrific and in your face with negative energy and behavior? That's, that's the key. How do I maintain my self-importance, my self-integrity? How do I maintain myself loving other people when I'm confronted with negative? That's really the bottom line to who I am. And I've learned how to do that. I've taught myself how to do that because of the way I look.

I'd done my research about The Scary Guy before I brought him into the schools, but there was nothing that changes the moment when you first meet him. He's truly a very different character, obviously, from the way that he looks. But also, I think, I wasn't quite prepared for his presence. And today I can see that the energy and the aura around him actually comes because, I believe, because he lives what he teaches.

For the first 43 years of my life, I lived as a victim. I did. And I didn't like it. I didn't show it, you know. I didn't show that side of me because I was a tough guy, you know what I mean? I didn't show that it hurt me. I didn't act like it hurt me. I laughed it off. I pushed it away. I came up with all kinds of ways to be tough, to confront them, you know, all that stuff. But down deep, you know what, because of my conditioning Yeah, it bothered me a lot. It felt really rotten, and I didn't like it. And I think that's part of why I made changes, because when I got tattooed and all this, all that stuff escalated. You know, it's like you take the stereo volume and you just turn it way up. To max, and you turn the volume up to max, and it's loud all the time. So all the names became very clear and loud, and I just knew that at a certain point I had to figure out what to do so I could live my life.

There.

But did it before all this? Yeah, it did hurt.

He's extremely loving. I think he's very generous, very, very truthful and very honest. Sometimes that's hard for people. I think there's a— it's more comfortable, it's easier for people to live almost in an ambiguous state where things are not quite clear and you can pass things off and you can smooth things over. Lots of people don't want to actually look at the truth of situations around them. It's actually, it's a challenge to actually look at really what your own words mean, when you communicate, what you're trying to achieve in your communication. He's very, very accurate, and I think that can be quite difficult for people because it can be quite uncomfortable.

I answer all my own email. The hardest part for me about my own email is I get over 10,000 letters and messages a month. And the most difficult part of that is, is that I'm not— I don't read and write. I've never read a book my whole life. People say, "Well, how do you do that?" Well, I can see some of the words because I have a reading disorder. I see the words, I figure out what the content is based on certain words, So it's not as simple as everybody thinks. It's not like, oh, he just reads it and just does this. No, it's, it's, it's, it's a lot of work. But I do it. I do all of that. And the irony, I guess, if there's such a thing as irony, because I've never read a book, or I don't read and write, I live in this little village which is a book town, which I think to me is a joke. I mean, it's just completely I guess I could look at it as punishment, maybe, I don't know, for all my past deeds or whatever. You're gonna live in a town where all they do is sell books and you can't read and write there. So that's what I do, and I'm okay with it.

There's a part of Scary's training the final phase of the training that he delivered, and it's called the key. And actually I have the key here around my neck, but this is just— this represents that phase of training. You'll see that there's a puzzle piece on top of the key, and that's because when I met Scary and I saw the programs for the first time as an educator, I said to him, For me, what he presents is the missing piece. So, and absolutely, that's how I felt about it. I've tried to work out in schools how to solve problems, and I think what he presents is actually a solution.

There isn't one moment of my life where I thought that this is what I would do. There's not one second prior to this that I ever thought, "Oh, well, I'm gonna be this guy that's gonna travel the world." and I'm going to talk about love and acceptance of all people, and I'm going to show people how to be like that. There, there's just no way that I had premeditated that, or I mean, where do you go to learn that job? I really don't know. So I didn't, I didn't think about it like that. I just thought I'd be a tattoo artist, and then something happened that changed my life, and I, I then I don't know that it changed my life. I think that it just woke me up. It woke me up to who I really was.