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Leaving in the Middle of the Night | Her Escape from an Abusive Marriage

30 Jul 2025 · 1 min

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In this first‑person testimony, the speaker recounts her experience of living with an abusive, drug‑addicted, and unfaithful husband. Feeling trapped and at her wit’s end, she turns to prayer, addressing “Papa God” for help and expressing love for her husband while acknowledging she cannot continue in that relationship. She describes a pivotal moment when she left him in the middle of the night, not alone but with people she trusted—strangers to her but known to her support network. The narrative emphasizes the paradox of having to move backward (leaving the marriage) in order to move forward in life, and highlights the role of spirituality and trusted allies in facilitating her escape.

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we see you as a light in a dark tunnel and we want to take you out of here. And that was like my ticket away from this thing. And so, you know, you kind of got to go backwards to go forward. And so I came from an abusive husband that was a drug addict and cheating. And like I like to tell people, I said I left him in the middle of the night with strangers. And that always gets people like curious of what I mean by that. And they were strangers to me but not to the people I trusted. And it was this really, really, um, amazing story where I was really at my wit's end. I really was going to leave him, but I didn't know how. Um, I'm a spiritual person, and so I prayed, and I called my God Papa God. And I was smoking back then, and I was smoking at the park trying to get away from him and just have some space because, you know, he was not a good person to be around. And I was praying and I said, Papa God, I said, I want you to take my husband, but I can't. I can't deal with him the way he is. I love him, but I can't. I can't be a part of this world with him.