Welcome Beautiful Souls! My Story of Healing and Empowerment for Women of Faith!

Hey, beautiful souls. Welcome to Reclaim Your Inner Rockstar, the space for high-capacity leaders who lead boldly yet often feel overstimulated beneath the surface. I'm Amy Robinson, aromapsychologist and cognitive coach with more than 25 years of helping others find emotional clarity through scent and science. My work began when I realized scent could instantly shift my thoughts and regulate my entire inner world. And I knew women like me needed access to that same power. Each week you will receive grounded tools and conversations that help you steady your nervous system and think more clearly. Are you ready to feel like yourself again?

Then you're in the right place.

Hey beautiful souls, welcome to Reclaim Your Inner Rockstar, the podcast where your healing transformation meets deep empowerment. I am here to show you how to break free from trauma, rediscover your strength, and step boldly into a life you deserve. This is where old stories lose their grip and the real you begins to rise. I am Amy Robinson, a certified transformational coach and aroma psychologist with over 20 years of experience helping hundreds of women reclaim their lives. My expertise is not just on paper. It's lived, it's embodied, and it's soul-tested. I combined powerful certifications with a deeply spiritual, non-traditional approach that gets results most women didn't even know they needed. This is healing that sticks. This is freedom that expands. Each week, we'll dive into the real, The honest truths of healing. The raw, the unfiltered emotions and tender messiness of breaking free. And the radiant, the light that returns when you finally remember who you are. So grab your favorite drink, take a deep breath, and settle in. Your comeback starts now. Are you ready? Let's rock.

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I can't tell you how incredibly happy I am to be able to introduce myself to you beautiful souls. I'm coming to you from a space of a journey that has empowered me and in turn has been able to empower others. This podcast is not about surface-level healing. Or talking about things that everyone in general may want to talk about. But this podcast is introducing itself as a curtain opening up into a space that presents things raw, authentically, and real. And we're gonna talk about things that hit deeply, things that we are subconsciously afraid to bring to the fore. And I can't tell you how excited I am to have that, to be able to have this opportunity, because this podcast is about real transformation. In a way that is raw. And being in this industry as a coach for 5+ years, I'm not just a coach, I'm a woman who has walked through the fire figuratively and has come out wiser, stronger, and ready to help you do the same. So if you've— if you're tired of feeling stuck in anger, anxiety, or past wounds, then this space is going to be for you. Let me share with you a little bit about my story. My story started when I was just old enough to get the sense of my environment around me. And when I observed the world around me, there was so much going on in my inner child, my inner person. It was developing, and so much came my way. That I didn't fully understand at the time. But when I became an adult, it became this obvious reflection of what it looked like to have conditioning, environmental conditioning, cultural conditioning, and values presented to me. And I didn't always know what that was, but it wasn't until I started to embark on my adulthood that I realized, wait a minute, how much those things molded me in my life. And what a lot of people don't know is that I lived two worlds. The one on the outside was based on appearance. It was beautiful and pristine, and I had a mother who adores me, and that was both in my public world and also in my private world. And to this day, she adores me, and she always gave me the best. And for a long time, she was a single mother until she wasn't. When she invited the love of her life into our space, things changed. And in that public world, what people saw was a mother who was a hair stylist salon owner, a dad who was an engineer paving the way for Latino men at that time. To get into an industry that was just opening up to anyone other than the Caucasian background. And with that came a lot of stress, a lot of frustration. I'll talk about that in a bit. But in the public eye, we had it all. We were a Latina family, or Latino family, who had the figurative white picket fence and the beautiful home and the six-figure job in the 1990s, the new car and the keeping up with the Joneses. But what people didn't see was there was turmoil and frustration and anger and lack of identity culturally. And environmentally, and I felt that. I lived that, and it became a ripple effect in our home. And so amidst the beautiful public display of what you see, there was abuse, and there was neglect, and there was emotional damage that was done, and it wasn't anything that was done intentionally. It was done out of just not understanding that it was wrong to impose that on a child. I was that child. I was the daughter of a mother who was single at one point, and I became a stepdaughter and I was loved. My father loved me. He still loves me. And I want to create a disclaimer: he is a good man. He has a good soul. But it was going to be years before I figured that out, because when I was growing up, I didn't see that side. I didn't understand. That the pressure that was going on around him was going to come into the home. He always provided for us. We had everything we needed. When my mother married him, it was— she was at his side, and she was an incredibly— to this day, she's an entrepreneur. She was an incredibly powerful woman. She was working and I was with my grandmother and I was being raised with my grandmother and my father was also ambitious and so there was that pull. And so getting back to that, as I was growing up around the age of, I would say, 11 or 12, we— is when I really started to become aware of the abuse and what that abuse looked like. And it created such friction in our home because my mother wasn't fully aware and It was a secret between my dad and I, and he— it was a secret that I refused to keep. So I would speak about it. I spoke about it to my aunts and my grandmother and my family and my friends. And at that time, instead of support, I got, 'Shh, let's brush this under the rug. Every family has their problem. Every family has their thing. So be a good family member and carry that with you and don't ruffle feathers. Well, okay, I took that. And eventually what happened was that my feathers started falling off, and all of that hurt and pain and damage that was being done started coming to the fore even more, and it came out in my actions and my behavior. So what did that mean? Well, the abuse that I was starting— that I was receiving became abuse that— Hey, beautiful soul!

Before we keep going, I want to invite you to something special. On Friday, June 12th at 6 PM Eastern Standard Time, I'm hosting a live event called Emotions We Were Never Taught to Hold. And this is for the woman who has learned how to stay composed, stay useful, stay spiritual, stay responsible, Amy Robinson, but underneath it all, she carries emotions she was never actually taught how to process. Anger, disappointment, resentment, fear, grief, emotional pressure. And it's not because she's weak, but because no one showed her what to do with all of those big emotions. Inside this live event, we're gonna talk about what happens when you keep suppressing what your body has been trying to tell you, why emotional regulation is not the same thing as emotional silence and how to begin holding your inner world with more steadiness, truth, and compassion. This is gonna be a deeply clarifying conversation and spots are limited. So if it's something that you already know, I need this, don't overthink it. Go claim your spot through the link in the show notes. Again, it's coming up quick, Friday, June 12th. At 6:00 PM Eastern Standard Time. And remember, replays are available. So even if you can't make it in person, you will have a replay sent to your email so you can go ahead and be a part of this incredible program. I look so forward to holding space for you in that room, whether it's live or in a replay environment.

Love you, beautiful. Now back to the episode. I inflicted on myself as I started growing older. So that started with smoking at 14, losing my virginity at 13, promiscuity, and wanting to feel loved true love. I searched for true love, and it wasn't— it was always out, right, just outside of my grasp. And as I got older, I tried my best to be that good girl, but it wasn't working for me because I was carrying this heavy, heavy weight that I would later recognize as trauma. And by the age of 18, I snapped. I lost myself and became angry with the world. And up until then, I could refer it to a volcano that was showing its signs of eruption. There were incidences that happened between the age of 12 and between the, between the age of 12 and 18 that looking back were massive telltale signs that something wasn't right. Yet there was no communication on this, so I was being asked to stay quiet when everything inside me wanted to burst forth. And so that's what happened. I went to college and lost myself, and the abuse that I was receiving privately at home became the abuse that I inflicted on myself outside of the home. And by that point, my father and I fought regularly. My mother felt so broken because she thought, here is this woman wanting to keep our family together and keep our family appearance looking a certain way, and I was not allowing that. It was something that disturbed her peace, that her daughter was so disruptive. And my little brother, which I failed to tell you, but I had a little brother, 7 years younger, was such a good little boy, and he was my father's golden child because he is my father's flesh and blood, I wasn't. So my story is a bit of a Cinderella story in a way. And in that, you know, you might hear this and say, oh, here she is, woe is her, woe is Amy Robinson Robinson. Yet in reality, if you lived my life, that identity crisis was severe, and it was damaging. And any survivor of trauma, complex chronic trauma, would understand that the raw, unfiltered version of her existence or his existence was that time when it all started to come to a head. And that happened to me in college. It came to a head. But before that, there was a particular summer where I was starting to feel out of control, but I was trying to keep it together because at its peak, my family was respected in the community. My mother was running her business. My father was at the top of his game at a very powerful telecommunications company. And I was getting ready to go to college, and I was a cheerleader, dating the football player, homecoming queen. My brother was a math nerd, so to speak. But in our home life, things were getting worse and worse and worse. And there was one particular summer, right before my last year of high school, where a family member came and stayed for— with us for the summer, and she had a particular way of challenging me and frustrating me, because later, I was told by her that she was jealous of our life, of what she saw. But what she didn't understand was that the trauma that I was experiencing, the micromanaging, the father who was physically, emotionally, sexually, and mentally abusive was a way of controlling me to stay quiet. And so she didn't understand that side. So when she came to visit, she did something, said something that made me snap, and I sent her to the hospital. And that night I realized how far my anger had come, but I didn't really know how to handle it. So that was a, a wake-up call, and the chain of events was still part of the process of it coming to light. Now fast forward 3 more years and I am wild in college. I'm promiscuous, I am a heavy drinker, I am into drugs, and my family was at wit's end with me. And a situation happens where my family the facade starts to crumble. And it was around about that time where I started to examine the Bible for what it was, and it was life-changing for me. Now, of course, I can't tell you my whole story in one episode, but what I can tell you is that one thing I've always known is a constant is how powerful of a force our God is. And for those of you who are listening who are spiritual people, you understand what I'm saying when I say this, that as chaotic as my life got and as crazy as my life got, there was still this constant grounding force for me, and that was our wonderful God. And to not get emotional, I'm so grateful to this day for him and for the love he has given me and for the support he gave me even when I didn't even know of his existence at the time. So Eventually, I started to examine the Bible for what it was, and my life started to change, and my mother's life started to crumble. And it was then that I realized that there are things out there that are so much bigger than me and my experience, and it started the process of awareness. And how powerful trauma can be, and how even before what I went through, my mother had gone through, and she just did the best she could with what she had. And my father too, eventually I came to that conclusion. But I want to tell you, I know what it feels like to be trapped in emotions you don't even know how to name. Because so many emotions came up for me at that point. But that started my process of healing, and that's when my transformation started to happen. It started to shift for me then because I realized— someone told me the summer before I started to examine the scriptures, somebody said to me after a night of partying in Miami Beach, We were spending time, South Miami Beach, 7 AM, after a night of partying, heavy, heavy partying. He said, Amy, the party will end sometime. And that's when I knew something's got to change. And that's when I started my healing journey. And it was incredible. There is nothing like the feeling of understanding that when you give your emotions space, when you start to understand where you come from, what that does to affect your life, and how that molds you and how you can transform those into breakthroughs. And that brings you to the moment where you can transform. That is powerful. It's incredibly powerful. So you, beautiful soul, I want you to understand You have a story, and your story is yours, and it's unique, and it's painful, and when you stop and reflect on it, it could just about break your heart. Yet that is not who you are. The people that hurt you have been being hurt before you, so they don't know how to be any different. Through my transformation journey, I used it as an opportunity to— instead of get angry, I use that moment to transform transform my anger into empathy. And I leaned in more in understanding my mother and in understanding my father. And there was a moment when I was holding my son— now this is fast forward from the time I just told you, when I, around 21, when I started to examine the Bible to the age of 27, when I— 28, when I had just had my first and only son, my father came to visit. And there was a moment where my father was in the room and his father was in the room, and my father was holding my son, and my grandfather, his Father, the way that he spoke to him, the way that he treated him, gave me the answer that I needed, that I had been praying for, because I wanted to understand what is it that makes somebody do these things. Right then and there, I understood he was hurt, he was mistreated. He was traumatized and he didn't know any different. But now I know different, so I can treat him differently. And that was part of my healing. And when my son came into our lives, my father— I saw a side of him that I would never have seen ever before, even with his own son, I didn't see this level of tenderness. I didn't think my father was capable of tenderness in the way that he treated me. But you know what? He's capable of tenderness, and he's capable of change, and I'm capable of forgiveness. And that's what I chose to to do, and that's what I continue to choose to do. And it takes a series of steps that I'll talk to you about down the road a little bit. But for today, I want you to understand, you are a midlife woman, a woman in her 40s and 50s, maybe even 30s, maybe even 60s. Whatever age you are, you have carried your pain for so long and you're ready to let it go. You're ready to release it. And maybe you don't understand how to do that, and I can coach you through that. I can help you with that. And maybe you've done the work on your own. Maybe you've gotten like to the point where I am, where you're at the point of forgiveness. Forgiving yourself and forgiving others, but what else? Maybe something is lingering. That's okay. We're going to move through those things together. We're going to have conversations about these things. I want you to understand that when you come and you listen, you come into this space, I want it to be a sanctuary for you. A warm, cozy space of understanding that you are not alone, that your story, although it has pain, it can have power. My story has given me power. My story has empowered me. To be this transformational coach for you. A good coach helps their clients improve their life. A great coach facilitates transformation, challenges their clients to look deep within and find their potential. I did it, so can you. I've come to a path where aromapsychology and cognitive behavioral therapy have contributed deeply into my personal healing. Healing my relationship with myself has helped me to heal my relationship relationship with my mother, my father, my family, my friends, and more importantly, my wonderful God. This is a space of transformation because healing isn't about becoming somebody new. It's not about becoming somebody new. Healing isn't about becoming someone new. It's about reclaiming who you've always been. It's about tapping deeply into yourself instead of disconnecting from your person. So does this episode touch your heart? I want to hear from you. Does it speak to you? I am so looking forward to being the support system that you've been looking for, praying for, and searching for. I'm here for you, beautiful soul, every step of the way.