A guided meditation that helps you locate your deepest emotional wound and practice self-compassion toward it. You'll identify what the wound feels like, acknowledge that even partners can't always reach it, and learn to sit with that gap as part of healing.
Summon up the courage right now to go to the place where your deepest wound resides, very likely a place that you haven't succeeded in bringing your partner in to love you there. Most importantly, you can't or haven't been able to love yourself there, which is why you need the support as much as possible from either your lover or a counselor or a friend, Recognizing that this wound goes so deep that very likely you're profoundly afraid of exposing it, because even with all of your best attempts throughout your life, you haven't been able to bring oxygen and love and tenderness and understanding and compassion to it enough for it to melt away. So appreciate first that you're just even going to that depth and isolate the quality. Is it loneliness? Is it abuse? Is it depression or emptiness? Whatever your particular deepest wound is, allow yourself to right now send a message. I know you don't feel safe here, but I, your essential self, am telling you I honor your courage to just be with yourself here. Not only that, I love you here, and I know you can't feel me. I know you're not reachable, but I'm surrounding you with enormous love. I'm surrounding you with tenderness that, oh, a little bit will filter in. But I know you may not be able to be reached fully for this whole life, but I am forever sending you love and tenderness and awareness. So if you feel lonely, I want you to know I'm sending you the connection. If you feel misunderstood, I'm sending you understanding. If you felt abused, I'm sending you tenderness and compassion to hold the abuse and now let yourself turn to your part partner, even if it's just your imagination right now and ask, is now a good time where we could lie down together or sit together? Where I can convey to you how profoundly I was wounded in my childhood and I normally keep this to myself. But I'm asking you, are you safe to hold this for me? Because it's a place where I haven't been able to find enough love and compassion, and I'm hoping that you can bring that to me. And if you get a yes that you trust, imagine yourself sharing this is exactly what the wound is. Uniquely expressing what yours is, knowing that it will be scary. At the same time, trust and grace and tenderness is descending upon you because you know this is what you need to do. And ask them for whatever quality you need of compassion or acceptance or tenderness or understanding or affection, and don't be afraid. The fact. Or more accurately, even though you are afraid, don't let it stop you. Recognize that even if they're perfectly loving you, accepting you, understanding you, you're not going to be able to immediately be reached. And it's okay to be appreciative of the effort on their part. And it's okay for you not to be reachable. Very few of us are reachable in our deepest wounds, no matter how much love we get. Being able to tolerate that experience of sending love to yourself, receiving love or understanding from your partner, that's the perfect place. The unbearable nature of exposing your deepest wound and need, asking or praying for support and love, and then feeling the gap of how it's still there. It appears that you're not being reached. But by having courage to accept that almost intolerable feeling of not being reached, paradoxically, is the key to ultimately being reached as much as possible. So just love and send love to yourself for the reality that you are looking at this, seeking it in the inside and seeking it as is appropriate. As you feel a trust with your partner, recognize it as a key or one of the keys to your life purpose being fulfilled. Sa.
