Guided Meditation: Acceptance of What You Most Reject

I would like to suggest that you start this meditation either with your eyes closed or open as you see said, and allow yourself to just notice what your reaction is. Just to being asked to do a meditation, are you experiencing that as a demand, an invasion, an invitation, a joy, a peace? And just be aware of your starting point. What is the feeling state that arises as you're even asked or encouraged to go inside yourself and look at your own state of being and just take a few moments to contact your feeling state as to whether it's really more of a coming home or really feels more like an invasion? And then just allow yourself to see if it's possible to just stay open no matter what feeling state you started from. And ask yourself the question, what is the deepest emotional state throughout the course of my life that's likely to be continuing, that I find most difficult to love, that I find most worthy of rejection or hiding? And as you're looking, recognize that it takes great courage to locate and become aware of the state that you so far in this life have banished, and that this state is one that could be something like anxiety, loneliness, emptiness, meaninglessness, no oneness, anger, inadequacy, insecurity, helplessness, disconnection, and whatever words that you just heard. Allow yourself to be guided just to your words. Not to these words necessarily, but just to whichever state of being is hardest for you to really bring your warmth to, your kindness, to, your acceptance to. And if you're someone who's much more likely to come up with five or six states, try to narrow it down to one or two. And if you're someone who is likely not to be able to find any emotional states, then allow yourself to just be appreciative that you're looking to be honest and know that you have been given a resource to look at a number of possible states that will help guide you to where you might be. And recognize that being aware of this state allows for the possibility of you to most open your heart. Because if you are rejecting yourself, if you aren't able to bring love and acceptance to this state, it's going to make you uptight, it's going to make you more defended, it's going to make you more removed from yourself, and it's going to make you more removed from those around you. And just see if you can not only identify what this state is. Say hello to us. Just some version of hello, inadequacy. I see you. I accept that you're here. It's okay that you are a part of my existence. And appreciate that this is something that you can do every day, possibly even every hour, you can be in contact with. You can be in contact with your most challenged emotional state. And the purpose for being in contact is because you want to bring acceptance and kindness and love towards us. So just allow yourself to say whatever words would convey. I accept you, I see you, or I'm starting to accept you, or I want to accept you, I want to have the courage to see you. Because I recognize that if I don't see you, it's going to lead to a chain, to a whole chain of emotions that are very likely to make me and those around me less at peace, less fulfilled in their life. So again, just appreciate that you want to contact and be aware of your most challenged emotional state and reassure yourself that the purpose for this is to bring acceptance and kindness and love towards it. Even if you can't do that, just knowing that you want to is an act of peace. It's an act of integration. It's an act of humility. And as much as you're ready for make the suggestion, I want to stay in contact with this state of being as much as possible. And when you're ready, just let yourself just come back, see what's just here.