After Brain Surgery… Doctors Said I Shouldn’t Be Alone | Then This Happened

I don't want to recollect also, it was so painful. So suffering so much, I was mentally depressed. I had, you know, reflux action, acid reflux. I was going, and that is why I was suffering from acidity, and it was going severe day by day. And along with that, I was having sciatica pain also. So, and plus my life struggles were going on. So, so life became very painful for me. So it put me into depression. I said, no more, I'm not going to work anymore. In 2022, I went through a brain surgery. One month I suffered, and then one final I fell down in my bathroom. Those experiences were so painful, like I was trying to struggle, and finally one year before, like, I had given up, given up on life. When Conscious Breathing Hub came to my life, I did those 10-12 days, and I started getting sensation in my head. I can comb, I can scratch, and I can feel, yes, that satisfaction. I don't know if I can explain in words. Frankly, without any medicine, and from 62, now I have come to 54.5. Am I confident at this Sense. Now I am driving alone. Oh, I go to like in summers, definitely I go to swimming. So I'm doing all by myself. I'm independent woman. I'm leading my life, which I was 30 years back, I would have led like this. Today what I am is because of conscious breathing. You have given me a new life too.

What happens when an achiever loses belief in life itself? What happens when after brain surgery Doctors say you should never be left alone. And what happens when the strongest person in the room feels emotionally empty inside? One year before CBH, Meenakshi Ji's eyes carried stories of pain, acid reflux, migraines, sciatica, disconnection, and a quiet question about purpose. But in just days of breathing practice, something extraordinary begin to return. Sensations in her scalp, strength in her body, faith in herself. This is not just a recovery story; it is a rebuilding of identity, a shift from surviving on belief to living consciously with alignment. Today, she joins us not as someone broken by life but as someone reborn through awareness. Let's welcome Meenakshi Ji. Namaste, Meenakshi Ji.

Namaste, Guru Ji.

Welcome to Conscious Breathing Podcast.

Oh, it's my honor to be here, sir. Guruji, sorry, you're my Guruji. I have accepted you as my Guruji only all my life.

Thank you, thank you, thank you so much. It's my pleasure. And Meenakshi Ji, I've been seeing you very consistently in the classes. Every time you are on camera and you interact with the members, you really support our community as well. If I ask you a question, if I have met you one year before How was your life?

Oh, my life one year before, I don't know. It's like I don't want to recollect also. It was so painful. So like, you know, I was suffering so much. I was mentally depressed. I had, you know, reflux action, acid reflux I was going through, which I have been trying to get rid of since the age of 34, 35. My food, like, I tried to find out. I tried to take a treatment from— what is this called— as homeopathy, Ayurvedic, and all that, but nothing worked. It was a temporary relief I got, and that is why I was suffering from acidity, and it was going severe day by day. I tried to not eat this, not eat that, and then YouTube also happened. I tried to follow many things. I tried to do yoga also consistently, but this problem did not sort out. And along with that, I was having sciatica pain also. So, and plus my life struggles were going on, so I was in a very depressed condition because I had certain experiences in life during my, uh, when I was in a doing my job, right? So those experiences were so painful, like I was trying to struggle, and finally one year before, like I had given up, given up on life. I thought this life is not worth it because the people I interacted with was, uh, I mean, I thought I was not understanding them or they were not understanding me. I felt as if, you know, I was looking for advices everywhere. I used to call everyone and I was never independent. I wanted to ask, like, uh, any decision I had to take in my life, I wanted to ask them. I used to call everybody, all my relatives. I used to call differently. And ask, but nobody gave me an advice properly because I was myself not confident in, and plus I was suffering with health issues. Like, this acidity was so severe that I could not even drink water. If I would drink water, I was hungry, I was sitting in front of the food, but I could not eat. Like, I used to feel afraid that now that burning sensation in my thing. I mean, my heart would be there. My mother would say, I used to cry, Mom, I want to eat this food, but what to do? I am hungry, but I can't, and nobody is helping. I went to so many doctors, they're just taking money. And you tell me something, Guruji, nobody asks in the hospitals when we go, you know what people do? They are not even sharing what is happening to each other because everybody is quiet and tense, and doctor is also not talking much. Only how much we ask, they answer that much only. So there is no satisfaction. They just give a prescription and we have to follow that. So life became very painful for me. And plus, I was— I retired in— I mean, retired in the sense it was self-retirement. From 2017, I did not feel like working anymore because in my experiences in the career-wise was also like that, that it was male-dominated, or you can say, or it was It was not for truthfulness, for righteousness, you know. People were following something what is, I don't know, it was not ethically right. So it put me into depression. I said no more, I am not going to work anymore because I wanted to work with full dedication and give my 100%. But my 100% was not accepted, it was not liked by people. They were criticizing me, and it was evaluated in the wrong way. So I, I gave up. And one year before, like, I was totally lost interest in life. That was my life, Guruji.

Okay, so you are going through that much, uh, like mentally, physically, emotionally, you are completely down actually. Yeah. When did you discover CBH and what inspired you to join?

Like when I had just given up, you know, and then last year in Durga Puja time, somehow, you know, because it was our festival, I felt that I should keep myself— it was like this, you know, I was trying to keep myself happy because it is festival time, not from within. But there I went and did a Devi Puja, and then I came back and I was on my laptop, and luckily on YouTube your Yeah, your ad came and you said something about breath. And since I have been— I told you, not like I was trying to do many things, yoga, this, that, but somewhere I knew that connection with breath is there with my body. The healing has to be somewhere in the breath. And you were talking about that only, and I thought Devi Ma has given me this chance and It's ₹99, why should I not go for it? So I just clicked the button and I went for it. And then I did the 2 days, your workshop, and then a silver membership was offered, and I, without any hesitation, I went for it. And I said, that was again a lifetime, so I thought, no, I should go for it.

So that's why I haven't seen any changes. Like what changes have you observed after joining Silver?

After joining Silver, it was during— Silver was first or 30— yeah, 5th, 6th day, and then 10th, 12th of October. I realized all of a sudden when I was combing my hair, I could feel sensation. Now I would like to tell you—

yeah, you also mentioned about brain surgery, right? Some brain surgery, can you talk?

That was one more reason for me where— why I went into depression more was in 2022. I went through a brain surgery because of blood clotting. I had got hurt or hit, and that's how I had developed blood clots in my brain. Now, that I was not aware of. So for a whole month I was suffering, and no doctors— so many doctors I went, they are giving me all symptomatic medicines, and I used to think that those medicines, because of that I am falling unconscious or I'm sleepy. I'm not feeling like eating or anything. One month I suffered and then one final day I fell down in my bathroom unconscious and then I was taken to the hospital. I was unconscious for 4 days and when I came in my senses, I was in the ICU. And then I was told that I had gone for a surgery on my brain, on my head, and my hair was not there. I was— all the hair was removed. They were— I could not see myself. They were afraid to show me my face. So when I went to— luckily I was in Pune and there I was operated. So there my daughter— thankfully in my house, like, my husband and there is no lady, so Luckily my daughter is placed in Pune, so I was there only. It's like, you know, he is making all the arrangements, you know. So I was in her house, she took me to her house, she took care of me, and that's how I could recover. But this brain surgery was something very shocking to me. And then because of that, what happened was that I could not hear— this side was the cuts. So I could not feel any sensation. Sensation in the sense, I could comb my hair and all, but that kind of the way you scratch your head over here, that I was not feeling here. And then when the last, uh, what you say, stitches were to be removed, no, those staplers were put into my head. So that time, no male family member from the family came. My daughter, it was the last, I was recovering well, so She came with me and the doctor told her, you are not going to— and not in front of me, I was there removing my stitches and my daughter was told that you cannot leave her alone anymore. She has to be taken care of. Don't let her go anywhere. Do not let her drive or do not let her swim or, you know, her— presently her brain is shrinking and So, and she has to go on this meditation all her life. And now my daughter didn't tell me that time, but once we came back, and then I am an independent person, I like to do all my things myself, and then it really hurt me that what, my life is over. And that is how like I started thinking that, ab bacha kya hai life mein. It was, mujhe bahut, I mean, I was so depressed Because my sons, daughter is married, sons have gone doing their own jobs and they are into their career and my husband is busy working. I was left alone in the house. So I used to keep on watching movies and all. But how much you will watch? How much? Then I started exploring. But then yes, Conscious Breathing Hub. When Conscious Breathing Hub came to my life, I did those 10-12 days. In, I started getting sensation in my head. And that sensation was so shocking, and it made me so relieved that, yes, today my head is my own. I felt like that, like, you know, I can comb, I can scratch, and I can feel. Yes, that satisfaction, I don't know if I can explain in words, Guruji. So that is the story of my—

within 12 days of 10 to 12 days of LFC.

And that was what made me decide, yes, Because diamond is something, you know, which I wanted to go for. So I just jumped into that because I said, why am I wasting my time in silver? I'm not going to try and test anymore. This is the best test I have got in Conscious Breathing Hub. So I went for diamond, and I'm pretty— today what I am is because of Conscious Breathing Hub and because of you, Guruji. I'm so grateful. I'm full of gratitude to you, Guruji. It's It's like, you know, I feel you have given me a new life to me. I was so depressed. I don't know if you remember seeing me in the screen. I do not want to talk to anyone. I did not want to— I've left faith in all these people over here because I thought nobody is right. They— today, today's world is what, you know, right has become wrong and wrong has become right. So I could not accept that myself. And in your part, I mean, in your community, in CBH, I realized, no, you're talking about what is truth. What is, I mean, sachai ke liye, you're fighting, you're talking to people and you're advising them. People are coming with their stories, healing stories. That was something which fascinated me or it touched my heart. And I said, this is where I want to be. So I wanted a young Guruji who would be technically, who would be giving his, sharing his knowledge with me through the pod— I mean, sorry, I'm uttering these wrong words.

Through community, through the classes.

Yes. So the sessions which I was going through, the yoga sessions, it really brought in— I mean, I got to know about myself and that I realized I got static sensations on my body, my fingers. And my head, so definitely it had become come to normal.

Now you also mentioned about acid reflux and few other health issues.

So you were actually taking, uh, we started that detox session, a month was there, and that was so amazing. Like when you gave me those detox water recipes, you, you told us to share, and I started making that, and I was from morning, 6 o'clock onwards, I was having that. And like my weight never, you know, from 61 it was always going above 61, 62, 63. And I tried to maintain there only. And I knew that why normally my weight should be 57 or 58, but I could never achieve that. It was a big struggle. I had to starve myself. But through your guidance, you were guiding about good food. You had all these people, you know, Wonderful people you got in the session, like Akhil, who was talking about autoimmune diseases, from which I got to know about the— what do you say— about the foods, the healthy foods. And you started telling us about eating millets and whole grains and all that, and I switched over. I was like fully trusting your advices, and so like I started, I switched over immediately, and today telling you very frankly, without any medicine, without any, what do you say, all these supplements and all that, nothing I am taking. I am just taking the food, natural foods which you have told. And from 62, now I have come to 54.5, and now I want to stick to that only, 55. And it is being maintained.

Yeah.

And I have not struggled to lose my weight. I was shocked when I thought, just casually, let me measure my weight. And it is. And that is why, being with the right weight, I think I am able to get all the feelings about my body, uh, you know, changes which are happening, the vibrations. And that is what is awakening, or I don't know, uh, spiritually I'm getting connected with the Shrishti. And it's a very nice feeling. I feel so blessed. I feel so blessed. And it's all because of you.

Very inspiring. Very inspiring. I mean, actually, yeah. And doctor said you should not go alone anywhere. Now, are you confident to go?

Am I confident? In the sense, Guruji, now I am driving alone. Oh, I go to my— like, in summers, definitely I go to swimming also with my family. And what else? I'm doing all by myself. I'm independent woman. In fact, much better than before. I'm leading my life, which I was 30 years back. I would I have led like this, and I wish you were born that time. But anyway, we have it. The right time comes for the right person at the right time only, I think. So I'm very, very happy to be in Conscious Breathing Hub, and I see the community, they are so, you know, supportive. They are so— everybody is blessing you, and they are talking very— I mean, they are so supportive. I I feel those, that, those positiveness from the community members is very important, which the medical— when you go to the hospital, this is not available. Nobody is talking to anyone. But in our community, everybody is for, uh, you know, it's a celebration if anybody is recovering or healing from there.

Yeah, I saw that you people in Delhi also started meeting each other.

Oh yes, yeah, yeah, yeah, we started meeting and we are feeling so connected. And it's not connected in just one part of Delhi. It's— I'm connected with all over India. And that gives me— like, there was a time when I did not feel like talking to anyone, but today I feel like talking to people because I feel everybody's journey is, you know, they have their own struggles. And this, this also knowledge came because of your teachings, because you have taught us, you have read Gita for us. Which I felt Gita is read only in the temples and kept in the bookshelves. But you read it so nicely for us, and that's how like we started following. Because, you know, we feel that it's a holy book and we should not— we should just pray about it. We should not touch it or we should not open it. But you gave us the confidence to start reading it, and I'm trying to memorize the shlokas, It's a wonderful experience that, what you say, Yoga Sutras also. I'm so— I feel so fascinated to go through it. All the Indian traditional scriptures, I go through it and I feel really good. And that you have introduced, even the chanting club you started joining. Yes, I started learning. So it is something very powerful. The feeling is amazing. I'm not able to express actually, frankly speaking.

I completely understand. And what are the things you have implemented that brought a good change in you, like, from CBH?

The changes, as I told you, that I'm following my routine very consistently. Morning, I get up at 4 o'clock, I do all my routine, and I try to attend all the sessions because I program myself that way. Because see, as you said, 24 hours are available to everyone. We have to program it.

Yes.

So that I follow, and that's how I program myself. So I make sure that when you have, you know, you have given us some lifetime membership, and then you are giving your best days, best time. Best time is the morning, 6 to 7, that you are giving to us. And the evening time also, 9 to 9:45 10 you are giving. That is the best time of your life. And when you are sharing, I should respect it and I should honor it. And that's why I want— I attend every session. And, and of course, the session is so valuable. Every session is something very different. It is unique in its own way because it comes naturally to you. I understand it. I feel it.

Yeah.

And I also feel it that way. I feel connected. I feel connected. The vibrations are so strong. I feel people all over the world when we chant It's wonderful.

And you have also mentioned that you are disconnected with your relationships. How did the CBH play a role in maintaining your relationships? Seeing in a different perspective. Yes, you're the same person, but now you're seeing in a different person.

Yeah, yeah, that is what— see, I was— see, and that is what I realized in CBH, that whatever the changes have to happen is within us. And our expectations are like, why this person is— my thought process was that why this person is behaving with me like this. Why they are. But they— CBHU advised me, advised us rather, all the members, that everybody has got their own struggles to live with, and I have to find out my own ways, you know, to deal with it. So that has come naturally, you know. It is, uh, I mean, when I understand that they are also in pain, actually they are not, you know, they are not jealous of me or That kind of feeling which I was getting, or they are feeling bad about me, it is not like that. Actually, this happened because I lost my mother to COVID. And after that, I thought that everybody has taken to their own lives. And I being a daughter, I thought that maybe, you know, people are neglecting me. People in the sense, my relatives, that she's a daughter now, she will be coming to our place, and we don't want that to happen. So I didn't want— I was, you know, wrongly judging them.

Yeah.

But you brought my perspective in the right direction. And that is what I feel nice about CBH, so that you are guiding us through right. And I— that is what I was looking for. I was looking for something which is taking me in the right way. You're showing me my purpose, my right path, you know, which nobody is doing. It is only about money. Let me tell you, I am being very frank. It's not about money. What you are charging is— one has to charge that much. You know why? Because as you are, you know, we are watching that Strangest Secrets.

Yeah, listening.

Yes, of the world, you know. In that it is said that whatever is available free, we don't value that. And breath is available so free, and you started your conscious breathing. How I am so happy. I mean that, and that is how I realized that had I not paid that money for my Diamond membership, I would not have been doing it so judiciously and following your guidance. So that is important.

Absolutely. It's also value exchange. Now, do you feel like your investment is worth it?

It is much, much more. It is for life. I am not going— and I'll tell you very frankly, I am not the person who's going to hop on, keeping hopping from one guidance to another person and all that. No, I am, I am focused because I want to follow one thing only, whichever I follow. And for me, it is CBH, it is my Guruji, it is my Conscious Breathing Hub. I will go ahead.

Whatever we are doing, it's investment on us, like it's not expense. We should not consider as an expense. And you also mentioned that you started buying less now. Like, can you talk about those?

Yes, yes.

Now you started saving, like, with that money. People only think that, okay, money is going, but Here you literally saving the money.

Yes, I was— I am like that, you know. Nowadays it is a— it is a sickness, I call it. People go shopping, nothing else they do. They go to restaurant, they are looking at each other's mobiles, not each other's, their own mobiles. They are not communicating. So it's all about spending money. But now I'm not doing that. I am at— I am doing my own positive things, like, you know, chanting. Then I'm reading such Yoga Sutras and all the traditional scriptures I'm reading. I'm learning good values of life, and I'm following the— you know, I don't have time for— I mean, whatever I'm doing, I'm busy in that only. So I'm not looking at my neighbors, what is happening. I am just following my own path, and I am happy. And yes, you taught us to heal others. You know, that is what I realized. My purpose in life is like You have to— if you have healed, or if you are in— you have, you know what is healing. I have felt it, you know what is healing. And that is what I want to share with people. If I can also, you know, through your guidance— I don't want to do anything independent because I'm not capable. But yes, through CBH, yes, I want to add on that if people come and I can guide, I will definitely. And people should heal.

Yeah. Can you tell us that, like, you saved money? You mentioned in one—

oh, sorry.

Yeah, like, um, especially reduced Yeah, sorry, extremely sorry.

I used to go to restaurants because I, I was a foodie. I wanted to try out new foods and all that, coffee shops. And then I used to— but now that aroma and all that is gone. Those sugary foods— I was one time loving to eat sugar food, sweet things, you know. So sugar tooth, they say, I think. But now it is like when you had our session with Dr. Murthy, he told us that how sugar and salt is bad for our health. And truly what he said was right, you know, that eating all this is so harmful that our taste buds are, you know, going— we can't taste the original taste of the, uh, which Shrishti is providing to us, you know, the fruits, the vegetables and all. When you actually eat it, you know, without adding all those flavors and all that, the real taste of the food is there. And that is why I call it I am eating nutritious food, whatever is available presently. Of course, not all is very good, but still, at least whatever you are advised, your guidance, I am following it. And I— every morsel I enjoy because I eat consciously, I breathe consciously, I feel happy. Because I smile to myself because my breathing is clear. How many people in— I feel, I feel their pain, you know, because they cannot breathe. But it's okay. So this is one thing. I have saved money on my food. I have saved money on my, uh, what I said, clothes, shopping, shopping, medicines. And then one more thing, I used to go— I was a moviegoer. I used to love watching movies, big scream and all that. But no, not now. Those especially, I have cut out myself from that violence because you have to be— huh, one more thing that Strangest Secret taught me was that you be what you think of. That hit me like anything. So if I am thinking bad of other also, I am going to become like that. So I realized no. I'm not going to do that. Why should I think bad for anyone? So I am now— I want to be the giver. That also you said. So I want to be the giver. I don't want to say anything wrong about— I feel that if a person is talking harshly with me, he's troubled. I feel he or she is troubled. There is something is hurting that person. So I can feel that. So now, and when this negative thing goes away from you It's— you're smiling always, and that is all credit to Conscious Breathing Hub.

Wow, awesome. Thank you, thank you so much for sharing that. And then, before CBH, were you taking some medicines?

Yes, I was taking. See, I used to take— if there is body pain, I used to take medicine. If there is a digestion problem, I had to take medicine, which I— it was hurting me. That is why, no, those— I said I cannot eat food. One medicine, trial and error was going on. If migraine is there, then this, some medicine, very powerful migraine medicines are there. I don't remember at the moment because I stopped taking that. And then for sciatica also, pain reliever. So now all that thing is there.

So now migraine also gone now?

Migraine, I don't know what is migraine at the moment. This is how it is.

For someone who feels life is meaningless right now. So what advice would you like to share to them?

Well, I would like to tell them that life is actually— what is life? Life is breath and conscious breathing. How has God got that breath? What is in that breath? So nobody should, you know, feel that breath is— don't take it lightly. It is all about, you know, living is all about breath. Because from the whole 24 hours you are breathing, but you try to value that. We are just dumping food in our body again and again and again, whatever, you know, we are attracted to all these smells and all that, and odors rather, and we go on dumping it in our stomach. But please be conscious of your breath, and once you are conscious of your breath, I'm sure life will become So beautiful, which you are seeing me right now. It will become like worth living, and you try to— you live, you come to understand about yourself, what are you, and then you will try to know what is your purpose in life, why you are here on this earth.

One of the best part of our podcast now, we are going to learn a breathing practice today. Meenakshi ji, I hope you know Chandrabhedi Pranayama, right?

Yes.

So let's practice that.

Oh yes.

Yeah, so Chandra Bedi is one of the very, very powerful practice which can help you to cool down your nervous system and activate your parasympathetic nervous system and reduce your stress and anxiety. If you are having cold, I don't recommend you to practice Chandra Bedi because you are already— it's a cooling pranayama. That's the reason I don't recommend. Shall we start?

Oh yes, please.

Yes, let's do it. Sit comfortably. Okay, roll your shoulders back, palms facing upwards. Keep your eyes closed. Observe your breath. Inhale and exhale slowly, normal breathing. Now we have to adopt Naasika Mudra, Naasakra Mudra. For this, you can open your eyes and see me how I am doing this. You can keep your left hand in Dhyan Mudra. And right hand in nasaka mudra, nasagra mudra, where you are folding your middle finger as well as index finger. So with this, close your right nostril by using your thumb finger. Close your right nostril, exhale through your left, and inhale through your left. Keep repeating this. Exhale through your left, inhale through your left. Now close your eyes. Let's make it rhythmic. Breathe in 1, 2, 3. Breathe out 1, 2, 3. Inhale for 3 seconds. Exhale for 3 seconds. Keep repeating this for few more rounds. Focus on your breath. Do it slowly. Do not press the nostrils tightly. Gently close your nose. Last time, breathe in slowly. Breathe out slowly. And slowly release your hand. Keep your eyes closed. Normal breathing. Observe the changes. And slowly and gently open your eyes. You'll see some wetness in your nostril, left nostril. One of the powerful practice, especially when you're tense, when you're anxious. When you are stressful, implement this for 2 to 3 minutes. That's all. And whenever in the summers, especially whenever there is a lot of heat, do this Chandrabhedi Parana Yama. It will cool down your body.

I would like to tell people, especially girls and boys, you know, nowadays they are so conscious about eating food, you know. They are also like, you know, they are— they want to be slim and trim. But what is happening is they are in that process trying to maintain being slim and trim. They are not eating properly.

True.

They are skipping their meals, which is leading to some other health issues. But in Conscious Breathing Hub, I have learned today what I am, what appearing. My friend today, I met one of my friend, she said, Meenakshi, what you were 5 months before is not the same in Akshi. And this has happened being in Conscious Breathing Hub naturally. So all these girls, young girls, boys and women, ladies who are aspirants to be on a proper shape and body, they want to maintain. For that, if you want to maintain it, you should join CBH. You should join Conscious Breathing Hub because here you are doing it naturally. Without going through the pains of taking some medicines or exercising elaborately on the gym and all that. No, you don't need to do that. Conscious Breathing Hub, you join and you see, then you will come to know how it is. Because today what I am, I am not overweight or anything. It's all naturally happened to me because I am eating good food, healthy food, and I am following his guidance, my Guruji. Thank you so much.

Thank you, thank you so much. Thank you so much, Meenakshi Ji. It's super, super inspiring, and thank you for inspiring all of us. And more power to you.

Thank you so much, Guruji. I am deeply full of gratitude for your guidance, and I wish that you continue doing this. And I am sure someday, one day, very soon, we will be— because I, I want you to complete your mission when I am here.

Thank you.

Thank you so much.

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