How pain can become the place faith grows

I learned the term periventricular leukomalasia, which is a real word. It's not made up. And what it is just he had a hemorrhaging in the top right quadrant of his brain that affected his extremities and, you know, his walking abilities and his muscle strength and his spasticity. To say that life was turned upside down is an understatement. Financially shot, extreme challenges with, with myself and how I'm impacting my marriage and the negative toll I took on my marriage for having this bad attitude and lack of drive. And now my son has a diagnosis which is going to affect him for the rest of his life. So to say I was upset with God is a very fair, nice, polite term. I never got mad at God to the extent where like I rejected and refused it. But I just, I said to myself, man, if you're not going to do your part, I'm not going to do mine kind of situation.