How to Trust God’s Timing When You Feel Stuck

I know you went through that process of stillness. You were coaching, but you were very present, listening, tuning in. I admired that so much. I remember witnessing you and being like, I want to be like her when I grow up. And then there was a time that you were like a little annoyed and frustrated, like, okay, I'm done with the bread. Like, can you just reveal it already? Tell me, where are you at now? Where were you guided to?

So in that time, believe it or not, being still was definitely difficult. I didn't mention that my husband had ruptured his Achilles and we were going through that as well at the same time. So I was helping get him to back to normal, you know, healed. And there was a lot of adversity in that particular circumstance. But I was able to be still and make the bread because he was home sitting on the couch. So it was a really both. It was bittersweet, it was really nice.

It was a gift. Because your husband needed you there, not in school.

Right.

So having the space and the time, that stillness allowed you to be there for your family.

Yeah. So I was making bread, I was delivering bread, I was getting in the car with six loaves of bread and going to people's houses and I would put a little Bible scripture on it and share with people that the process of making bread was beautiful. Cuz it's not just, it's not just a, you know, you pop it in the oven and it's done. It takes three days. It's, you know, one step at a time. You have to be patient. It. Your. Sometimes your bread can go flat and that's okay, it's still edible, you can still eat it, you know, and, and everyone that enjoyed the bread, I, I just love sitting back and especially you because you make noises when you eat. I know, I know. So I loved, I loved doing that. But then at some point, like you said, I, you know, I was like, I again, I felt like a call to do more and more and I felt like maybe being home was limiting. You know, I felt a little limited in what I could do and in what I could offer. And I was doing the coaching academy with you as well, but I was feeling very shelled in and like something I needed to just get out and do something more. So it seems like a whirlwind and this has only been a matter of like three years. Everything has happened so fast, but so guided. And in the middle of being still, I got a phone call from one of the administrators at the school where I was working and where my Kids go to school. And she said, hey. And I knew just by hearing her voice that she was going to offer me something. And there were plenty of teachers who were pregnant, so I knew that they needed some coverage. But she asked me to substitute middle school math, which, if we can go back in time, I was not the best math student. I sucked at math. But in my heart, like, there was a resounding yes, do it after many.

Nos, because many people had offered you positions as teacher.

Yes. And so. But it was a resounding yes. And I felt like on fire to say yes, but I didn't say yes right away. And an old version of me would have been like, yes, because I don't want to say no so that she doesn't, you know, I don't que darma or look bad in her eyes. This time it was like, okay, maybe. Let me think about it. So I sat down for a few days with a paper and the pros and cons. And this created an issue in my house because my husband was dead set on that I was just gonna be home and be a housewife and June Cleaver, like, he likes to call it, and. And I sat there and I looked at it and. And everything pointed towards, like, why not. Why not take this. This opportunity to go and impact these kids? Because what's in my heart, and it's what you said, is that I have this childlike tendency. I have this ability to connect with kids that I know is a gift from God. I can be in a room full of adults, but there's kids there. And not in a weird way, but I could play with them. And I see them, and I want them to feel the way that we should feel as adults about God. You know, like that childlike trust, that joy that you feel when you're little and your dad walks in or your mom walks in, or somebody that you love and admire walks in that you're, like, so excited to see them. And when I'm with the kids, I can see that, and I can experience that. Now I'm going into middle school math, and as soon as some kids start finding out, I can hear that same excitement from them. Oh, my God, she's coming back. It's going to be so great. It's going to be awesome. And so I go in and I do this job that is challenging because it's math, and I have to teach it to sixth, seventh, and eighth graders. So it's not easy math. So I have to go and study and make sure that I cross my T's and dot my I's. But I experienced so many, so much, so much like coaching in the process. Like I was a different version of myself. The woman who left two years ago was not the woman sitting in that classroom again. And I could see myself in a different way. I could see myself confident, I could see myself excited. I could see myself making sure that these kids felt that love, that face of Christ, the hands and feet of Christ. And then of course I get another opportunity landing in my lap and this one was definitive. Again, it was a no brainer. It was like I have to do this. So they offered me to teach religion to seventh and eighth graders and again I didn't say yes right away because I wanted to make sure with God and his guidance and with myself that it was going to be the right decision. But everything about that is what I am all about.