In this conversational monologue, the creator shares her personal experience of receiving depression and anxiety diagnoses and argues that such diagnoses often signal suppressed trauma that manifests in the body. She uses metaphors like a chain stitch in embroidery and dirt under a carpet to illustrate the process of revisiting and reframing painful memories, emphasizing that revisiting does not re‑inflict pain but can bring relief. The speaker recounts her brief use of prescription medications, expressing a strong conviction to avoid long‑term reliance on pharmaceuticals and highlighting her grandparents' natural‑healing approach as an example. She interprets depression as a sign that the individual was unable to express themselves freely and needs to cultivate self‑love, while anxiety is framed as a knot indicating overwhelm and a lack of safety, suggesting the need to create secure environments. Practical self‑help strategies are offered, including voice journaling, staying curious about one’s current life alignment, and assessing whether daily routines support the nervous system. She warns against staying in a comfort zone that hinders growth and encourages listeners to explore life‑giving memories to uncover hidden trauma. The video concludes with a promotion of her paid offerings: a 6‑week “Amplify Your Voice” program and a 12‑week one‑on‑one coaching program built around a five‑pillar framework designed to expand personal voice across dimensions.
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Where the F did that come from? I know you probably are thinking this doesn't make sense. Uh, I've never been a depressed individual. I've never been anxious, even though I do feel anxious, but I just don't know where this came from. Um, so if you are like me, I received some diagnoses back in, I want to say, 2017, and I was Just very confused. I was confused why I was getting these diagnoses, and it just wasn't making sense. So I want to help you with this, because if you're— raise your hand like me— and you got some kind of diagnosis for a mental health disorder from your primary caregiver, doctor, um, practitioner, that might be a sign that you have suppressed trauma. And the thing about suppressed trauma is it's going to keep showing up in your body. So it's— I think it's good that you have this diagnosis, and you can use this diagnosis as a resource to uncover what it is you need to uncover. If you watch my last video on how the external mirrors the internal, I talk about how you have to go back through the same chain stitch through your fabric, and this, this has to do with embroidering. You have to go back through the same point of pain, but going back through it doesn't mean that you're going to experience pain again. Going back through it actually means you're going to experience relief, because when you go back and revisit it, you get a chance to reframe it and then release it from your life. You can also look at this like dirt under the carpet that needs to be vacuumed, swept up. It's going to stay there as long as you leave it there. Okay, so what to do with these diagnoses though? Um, if you are diagnosed major depressive disorder, there are some critical easy things you can do, which— do what you want to do about prescription drugs. I personally used prescription drugs very, very short. for a very, very short time period. I was very adamant on I don't want to get stuck on these things because I just have this very strong gut feeling that I will be on it for a long time. It's going to do me more damage in the long run than it will, um, just by, you know, trying to get through my, my weeks, my day-to-day. I just— that was a very strong conviction in me, and so I very much adapt The natural route for things. My grandparents, they both, bless their souls, they were— and I sound so like pragmatic saying that. I loved my grandparents. My grandparents both experienced cancer. My grandfather, he had prostate cancer, and my grandmother actually helped him heal it just through diet. He had gone into his doctors, he did chemo, he did all those things, but the The pill that they actually gave him at one point had mustard gas in it. And when my grandmother found this out, when she did her research, she was like, oh my gosh, like, this is— we're not doing that. Like, he's gonna die. Like, that just is killing him. Like, it, you know, it's killing the— it's killing the cancer, but it's also killing him. And so she just kept doing her research to find the natural ways To his healing. And when he died, he didn't die of cancer. He, he died years later, um, just of old age. And so that's what these diagnoses— like, take them with a grain of salt. There's nothing wrong with you. There's nothing wrong with you. It's These diagnoses are telling you something to pay attention to. That's all they're doing, okay? That's all they're doing. And getting back real quick to the prescription drugs thing, so I used— I think I had like 10 days of one mood-adjusting one, or no, no, it was for sleep. It was for sleep and for mood, I think. I used that for 10 days, and then I had another one that was a by-needed for anxiety that I only used, I think, for about 3 months. And then I weaned myself off of it. I was really, really adamant of I don't want to have to rely on these as a crutch. So if that re— you know, if this resonates with you, then keep watching. If not, you're still welcome to keep watching because everyone's body is different and I'm not knocking it. Okay? Everyone's body chemistry is different. You know what's best for you. I knew that what was best for me was not getting stuck on a substance, and I have more reasons for why, um, just, you know, substance abuse running in my family. And that was, that was really particular to me. So your major depressive diagnosis, what is this telling you? It's telling you that you didn't get to express freely That's all it's telling you. In some place, somewhere in your life, you maybe wanted to express freely and you were shut down for it, or it was never welcomed, or you were always overlooked when you shouldn't have been. Maybe you were neglected. That's what this diagnosis is telling you. It's telling you that you actually need to transition and pivot your energy in and lean into love. Self-love. You need to lean into yourself right now. That's what this is telling you. You need to lean into yourself and love on the parts of you that feel oppressed, that are suppressed. What about anxiety? Um, your anxiety diagnosis is telling you You're overwhelmed. It's telling you you don't have a sense of peace in your life, and you probably don't have peace because you don't feel secure. So there's something in all of this. Anxiety is really a knot. Anxiety is a real knot to unravel because with anxiety can come dissociation, and that's just That comes after you've been anxious for far too long, usually. First the panic attacks, and then you'll start to dissociate after the anxiety has stayed in your system for too long. So the anxiety is telling you what? You don't feel safe. So this is an invitation to you to do the things, surround yourself by the people in the places where you feel safe. Safe, where you provide yourself peace, where you get peace. Okay, um, I don't know what that's going to be for you is the thing. So you have to ask yourself this, you have to ask yourself, do I really feel on the day-to-day, on the week-to-week, that changing my workspace Being an on-the-go, you know, doing task jobs kind of thing. Is this actually really good for my nervous system? Is it keeping me in a state of anxiety, or is it actually helping me? Um, you have to ask yourself why as well, and you might not be able to find that why for a while, but keep staying curious on it. That's the thing. If you Don't give it any of your energy, um, you're not going to find the answer. And that's the whole thing about this series on suppressed memories, is you have to keep asking why, where, how. Going back to voice journaling and practicing this: where am I right now? Where am I right now? Where are you right now? In your life, what does your life look like? Are you happy with it? Where were you 2 years ago, 5 years ago? Does that— is that 2 years ago, 5 years ago, does it align with where you are now? And did you get off track 2 years ago, 5 years ago? Did you take a wrong turn? Did you get off your path? Where are you headed? Where are you headed? This all needs to be in alignment, and speaking from experience, when you step off your path, it is so hard to loop back into it. Going back to my last video where I talk in briefly in this video talking about the chain stitch. If you start the chain stitch incorrectly, you have to then take all the thread out, because this is what I did. I started the, the chain stitch incorrectly and I was doing it wrong. Um, you have to take all the thread out and then you have to restart over. You can still have the starting stitch, but you have to go back to where you were in order to get back on track. So I want to encourage you to keep staying curious about the things that are spurring life, because you're going to be curious about— probably you're going to want to do the things that keep you comfortable and safe. There's 2 things to this. Yes, you need to feel safe, you need to have peace, but if you're just in a place of comfortability, Not ever moving forward because it's easier and you're lazy. You know, that's where I was for years. I was just lazy because I was like, it's just easier to not. It's just easier to not, right? And I don't want that, so I just— I'll just stay right here in my comfort zone, in this space of neutrality where I don't really have a risk. Of if I get closer to the things I do want, that means the risk of experiencing the negative is greater. That is true, but why do you just want to hang out and— why do you just want to hang out and just do not what you were meant to do in this life? Um, that's no fun. It's just no fun. So You have to listen to yourself. You have to listen to yourself. There's no other way around it. And the suppressed memories, they are going to keep cropping up and bubbling up for you. It might start off with the diagnosis, and then you might start to see experience wear down on your body, your physical body. You know what, you know what it's like to have weak hands? It's the worst thing in the world because you can't do anything. You can't do anything if you have weak hands. That is one form, you know, that's my experience. But when I, when I carry too much, when I'm holding on to too much, it sucks. Or to have like a weak hip that causes your knees to buckle, then you can't go anywhere, right? So I just want to encourage you to keep curious about the things that are life-giving to you, because when you stay curious about those life-giving things of, oh yeah, I did love that band when I was 10. Oh yeah, I listen to that album all the time. I wonder why. You know, those things, the things that brought you life, that's what's going to help you uncover the suppressed memories that are actually keeping you in this, you know, frustrating space of reactivity, of depression, of anxiety, of dissociation, of all of the stuff, the mood swings, all of the stuff that just the inconsistency that you don't want in your life. I know you don't want it. I know you want the stability. I know you want the security. I know you want the abundance. I know you want all those things. You have to look under the surface and listen and then take action on it. So if you need help with this, I have my 6-week program, Amplify Your Voice. Amplify Your Voice helps you uncover these things Gets you past the mental roadblocks. I've had past clients work. I've had past clients just completely position transition careers, and then they're in a much more happier place after doing this program. I've had clients start three different projects at once. They're like, oh, I'm gonna do that and that and that. Like just like knocking them out of the park. You know, like it launches you forward into. Getting going with your life. That's Amplify Your Voice. So link below for that. You can also work with me one-on-one in coaching sessions. I have a 12-week program where we go through my 5-pillar framework, which is designed to get you to expand your voice in 3 dimensions. More on that, because there's a lot that goes on in our world with our voices that's in the realms that we actually can't see. So I'll see you in the next video. I hope, I hope, hope, hope so much that this helped you. And stay curious, don't give up.
