Dallas BraggFormer crystal methamphetamine user, I help men who have sex with men break free from the addictive patterns associated with Chemsex. Currently expanding my expertise by seeking to become a Certified

A lot of us didn't touch meth until our late 40s or early 50s. If that's you, keep listening.

1 Sept 2026 · 2 min

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In this spoken testimony, Dallas Bragg shares his personal journey of first using meth at age 39 after coming out later in life. He describes being thrust into the chemsex subculture, feeling pressure to "make up for lost time" through relentless partying, sex, and drug use. Bragg reveals the underlying emotional pain of seeking validation—using drugs to attract attention on apps like Grindr and fearing his "shelf life" has expired in the mainstream gay community. He confronts these beliefs, asserting that drugs are not required for sex, attention, or self‑worth, and emphasizes that his worth remains intact regardless of age. While acknowledging the role chemsex played in his self‑discovery, he ultimately frames his current life as one of fulfillment, attraction, and authentic connection, encouraging other late‑blooming gay men to recognize their ongoing relevance without reliance on substances.

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Many of us didn't start using meth until we're in our late 40s, sometimes early 50s. If that's you, keep listening. If you're a late bloomer like me, my first use was at 39. I had been in the closet for most of my life. I had been married, and then of course I came out and was just inundated and thrown into this world that I wasn't ready for. And enter the subculture of chemsex, where I felt safe, accepted, And pretty. As a late bloomer, you feel like you have to make up for lost time. Look at all this that I've missed all these years. I'm gonna fuck everybody I can fuck. I'm gonna party, I'm gonna party. I have the means to do it, I have the space to do it, I have the time to do it. But all along, deep inside, there's this ache, this hurt. Knowing that you have to use drugs to get the attention, you have to use drugs to get the guy to answer you on Grindr that has been ignoring you until you put a capital T in your profile, and now he's all about you. You know that none of it's real. You know that your, your shelf life has expired in the mainstream gay community. This is just your temporary way of feeling valid. I want to tell you, I want to really tell you from my heart that none of that is true. You don't have to have drugs to enjoy sex. You don't have to have drugs to get attention from hot men. You don't have to believe that your shelf life has expired. You are still valid. You are still relevant. You are still attractive. It might be hard to accept And you can find every reason to dispel it, but I am telling you from personal example. I might have been a late bloomer, but damn, am I blooming now. I have come to fruition. I am a ripe fruit at this moment in time, and I had to experience chemsex to get there. So glad I did. And now my life is more full of beautiful men and beautiful sex and, and a valid way of living than I ever imagined possible.