Guided Meditation: Breaking Free From Meth

All right, let's get comfortable in your chair, or you can lie down, whatever feels the most relaxing and undisturbing to you. If you're sitting in a chair, put your feet flat on the floor, rest your arms on your legs. If you're lying down, adjust until your entire body is completely relaxed. Do a quick body scan and make any adjustments that need to be made, especially around the neck and the jaw. Make it very relaxed and still. And then breathe in, inhaling through the nose for about 5 seconds, and then you're going to exhale for 5, starting now. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale. I want you to inhale and then hold. And then exhale. Inhale. Hold. Exhale. Let it all out. With your eyes closed, I want you to take your eyeballs and look up to the center of your forehead with your eyelids closed. closed. Take your eyeballs up and look to the center of your forehead. Your eyelashes and your eyelids are going to vibrate a little bit. Keep your eyeballs up there for 1, 2, 3, 4, and 5. Return and relax your eyeballs. You might feel a slight shift in your relaxation. Today we're talking about the prison that you've put yourself in. We're talking about what's holding you back from letting go of crystal meth. What's holding you back from letting go of an older version of you? I want you to imagine— take yourself to a prison. You're walking along a corridor in a prison. You see jail cells. And bars on both sides of you. Look at the walls. They're bare metal, dingy. Look at the floor. It's cold metal, dingy. You're in bare feet. I'm in bare feet. You're dressed in a drab jumper. What does that feel like? It's dark, it's cold, and you notice your hands have been handcuffed and there's a chain Attached to the handcuffs that's going out before you. And in front of you, from behind, you see a man leading you with the chain, pulling you along the corridor. And you're walking past dark jail cells on the right and And the left? The lighting is very dim. It's echoey. What else do you notice? Look around. Notice something you haven't. You're being led to your cell. As you move through the corridor, through doors, through clanky, echoing walls, ceilings, the man keeps pulling you with the chain. Suddenly, he stops in front of your cell, and when he turns around, you notice that it's you. It's you. How old are you? What's your facial expression? What's your energy like? What are you wearing? How can this be? How can this be that you Have imprisoned you. And then you realize this isn't you. This is an older version of you. This is a version of you who lives in what Mommy did to me, what Daddy said to me, what the boys at school threw at me. Who touched me? Who left me out? Who told me I was wrong, vile, sinful, ugly, that I didn't belong? That I would never belong. That version of you that's stuck in the story of what happened to me, what they did to me, how unfair my life has been, the victimization, the degradation, That version of me who can't let go of the past. Because in this prison, it feels safe, predictable. This is where he lives, and this is where he wants you to stay. Because who is he without the story? It's safe to be able to say, okay, I made a mistake today. It must have been what mom said to me. Okay, I I broke up with this guy early because of what Daddy said to me or did to me. Because of my life, this is happening. Because of my past, this is happening. I am a victim of everything that's done to me. My story shapes my future, and that's predictable, and that's safe. We want to stay in this prison because we know nothing else. In some way, shape, or form, we've lived in this prison our entire lives. And the whole time we held the key. We created this prison with blame, shame, the inability To take responsibility and accountability of this is what happened to me, and now it's mine. And if this is mine, I can change it. I can move forward. I don't have to be a product of it. No one else's trauma is my responsibility. But it helps us. It helps us to know, oh, this is why I am the way I am, because they did that and they are the way they are. So you begin to question, how can I let myself out of here? If I hold the key to these handcuffs, where is it? And here's the key. There is no magic key to unlock your handcuffs and let you walk free. There's daily decisions. There's daily practice. What makes the handcuffs tighter are questions. Will I ever get out of this? What is wrong with me? Why am I a meth head? Will I ever change? Will this ever be behind me? How can I ever break free? Every question You ask is an insult to the infinite intelligence of this universe. The same energy that holds this world in perfect orbit around the sun is the same energy that flows through you, and you keep yourself in this dark, dingy jail cell of stories and trauma and excuses. And doubt. Every time you question, will I ever, you keep yourself in this jail. So the way to break free is a decision every day. To shift will I ever into I am. I am breaking free. I am not a product of my past. I am who I say I am. I am what I say I am. I am on my way out of using this Fucking substance. I am on my way to my best and highest version. And every time you say that, every time you shift the disempowering thoughts from the old self into the empowering thoughts of the new self, your handcuffs get looser and looser and looser because If you were— could just be set free from this jail instantly, you would not appreciate it, and you would come right back inside. The key to these handcuffs take work, consistency, patience, and an everyday devotion to freedom. Because in that little window of your jail cell, you can see a glimpse of what life could be like, free from the narrative you've created about who you are and what your limitations are and who you have to be. Cravings. Triggers, life is hard, why me bullshit. So now you have the assignment, you have the key, you know what to do, and you've noticed that older version of you has disappeared. He's not there. You're standing in your jail cell with a choice right now. You can look down at those handcuffs, or you can look out your little portal window. You can feel sorry for yourself and blame your parents, or Or you can begin right now with, I am, I am free, I am free, I am free, and feel The tightness loosened just a little bit. Feel a little flame of certainty in your soul. I am free. You stare out that window as long as you want and begin picturing what life will be like. How will it be different if you're not caught up in the past? If you're not caught up in, this is me, this is my personality? If you're not caught up in, but you don't know what happens to me on a daily basis. Instead, you say, everything's happening for me. Everything's happening for me to practice this new way of living, to practice shifting my thoughts, to practice so that every time something happens for me in my life, my handcuffs get a little bit Looser. Everything is a gift, no exception. And every time you see it and receive it that way, your handcuffs loosen, loosen, loosen, until one day they just fall That day is soon. That day is soon. Look out that window and focus on that day for as long as you want. And when you're ready, come back into the room. Take a moment to yourself. Journal about your experience. And be blessed. All right, friends, I'll see you next time.