Dallas Bragg describes being 40, raising two kids while addicted to methamphetamine, and building a hyper-masculine disguise—crew cut, facial hair, backward cap—to hide what he saw as underlying effeminacy. He used the drug to numb the gap between his appearance and who he felt he was.
At age 40, when I was in the height of my meth addiction and being an actual daddy to 2 children, I had to look and act the part. My pictures did the trick pretty easily because I had a crew cut, facial hair, furry chest. The real test was meeting me in person though. So on went the backward cap, the jockstrap, the knee socks, the whole works, right? I wouldn't talk very much once he arrived. I'd just shove the pipe or the needle at him as fast as possible, get high so you don't notice how effeminate I am.
