Dallas Bragg describes the mental tricks meth addicts use to justify quick drug runs, like telling themselves they'll use for just a few hours. He can't understand how some people manage that control. For him, one hit means a month or two of nonstop use.
I see guys strategically making a plan for the weekend that leaves a little chance. They, it, 'cause this is how your meth brain works, is you'll say, okay, if I just leave this one evening, I'll bet I could get out at 11, use, and be back home by 8, which is bullshit for the most part. You know, there are some guys in this program who can go out and use for a couple of hours and come home. I'm still blown away by that. Still blown away by that. Now they may recover for a few days, but how the hell do you do that? I mean, I don't know. Because I, like I said last night in the group, you put a pipe on my lips, you won't see me for another month, 2 months probably. There's no stopping it once it happens. That's just my use, right? That's just how I'm, I'm wired.
