After years of crystal meth use fueled anonymous hookups, the speaker is rebuilding sexual intimacy with people they trust. They describe moving from fleeting encounters with strangers toward genuine connection and emotional safety with partners they know.
And one of the things that crystal meth did for me was bring out this uninhibited, super sexual, super kinky, just sexually confident person. And for that person to come back out and be to become part of my life again, I needed to be with people that I trusted and I was comfortable with. That was kind of the hangup of the you know app hookup come on over bing bang boom see you later that. Part of my life was kind of ending, and then this new part of my life of real connection and real intimacy was kind of being born, so to speak. So when I first started having sex again, it was with people I knew and people I trusted and people I was friends with and people that I knew, like, the sexual chemistry was really good with. And in inviting those people into my bed, I was able to allow myself to kind of blossom and reopen and, you know, no pun intended, but pun intended, open up.
