Trauma comes from judging an experience as bad, not the experience itself. Your body holds shame even when your mind intellectually rejects it, creating avoidance patterns that persist. The speaker describes feeling shame about sexual activity on meth: the mind can dismiss it, but the body's unprocessed judgment keeps triggering distress.
Like if you could go to the root, root, root of any problem, it's always gonna be that we've judged something as bad. And this is like, if you see what they call PTSD and what they call trauma responses are responses of avoidance. And it's because our mind and body have decided that thing that happened was super bad and I don't ever want that to happen again. And so I'm gonna do whatever it takes for that to never happen again. And then it creates all these avoidance behaviors and patterns that become maladaptive in our lives. And it's bottom line about judgment. Now, when you have this, this part of your mind, you're like, I don't judge that, but your body definitely still judges it, right? So you have to do that subconscious, you know, you can tell yourself, I don't feel ashamed of all the sex I had whenever I was on meth, right? You can tell yourself that mentally. But if in the moment you felt shame and it's stored in your body because you didn't process that out, your body's still going to be responding in the same way.
