Dallas BraggFormer crystal methamphetamine user, I help men who have sex with men break free from the addictive patterns associated with Chemsex. Currently expanding my expertise by seeking to become a Certified

Self love in recovery

28 Jul 2024 · 1 min

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In this personal testimony, the speaker recounts a therapy session where the therapist asks if anyone loves them. The speaker admits feeling unloved, explaining that any perceived slight leads them to doubt love. This deep sense of not being loved drives them to seek external validation, resulting in cheating, drug use, and emotional numbness. The speaker describes how being high made them feel strong and untouchable, which eventually led them into drug trafficking and selling. The narrative links early emotional invalidation to a cascade of risky and criminal behaviors, highlighting the role of self‑worth and love in the recovery journey.

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In therapy one day, the therapist said, "Do you think he loves you?" And I went, "I don't know." She said, "Be honest." And I went, "I don't think anybody loves me." And I really didn't. And it's because if you made one invalidating gesture to me, then I didn't think you loved me. So I was still out seeking that attention, and that's that's how I ended up cheating. Like, and it was just compounded from my whole life. It led me to doing drugs and being numb because when I was high, I felt strong and tough, and nobody could hurt me. It actually got me into trafficking and selling drugs.