Dallas BraggFormer crystal methamphetamine user, I help men who have sex with men break free from the addictive patterns associated with Chemsex. Currently expanding my expertise by seeking to become a Certified

There's a strange, beautiful thing that happens right after a relapse, and almost nobody teaches you

8 Aug 2026 · 2 min

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In this monologue, Dallas Bragg explains a crucial yet often overlooked phase that follows a relapse: the euphoric, grateful "pink cloud" that emerges after the chemical high and subsequent comedown. He describes how this state brings a surge of willpower, self‑control, gratitude, and a readiness to commit fully to recovery. Bragg emphasizes the importance of capturing this feeling in vivid detail—through writing and mental recall—so it can be revisited later. He recommends setting aside daily time for meditation or reflective practice for up to six months, deliberately re‑entering the post‑relapse euphoria to replace the artificial high of meth with a natural, sustainable source of motivation, gratitude, and resolve.

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One important part of post-relapse is you want to write down and acknowledge that beautiful euphoric feeling that comes after a relapse. So you've chased the chemical euphoria, and then you've, you've had the come down. And what happens after that is you come back up, and your come up is I'm willing to do whatever it takes. I— your willpower is so strong. Your self-control is so strong. Your outlook is fresh. You're ready to do this. You make resolutions. You are just fucking ready to do whatever it takes. And you're grateful for every little thing. Everybody that's still with you, hanging, still supporting you. You're grateful for the sunshine. You're grateful for your job. You're grateful for the things you didn't lose. That state of being is magical. And you don't want to lose that state of being. You don't want to lose that. You want to hang on to that. And you want to write that down and remember it in vivid detail and take yourself back there mentally as often as possible. You, for 90 days, for 6 months, you set time aside every day to get into a meditative state and take yourself back. Back to that post-relapse euphoria, because that is going to give you what you're chasing with meth, but in a natural way. And it re— it renews and refreshes that gratitude, that openness, that surrender, that pink cloud that's so lovely. You want to get yourself right back there every single day so that you don't forget. You don't forget that state of being, and you don't forget what it feels like to be truly grateful and resolved and ready to get it done.