In this personal monologue, Dallas Bragg reflects on how deep-seated trauma shaped his sexual turn‑ons within a crystal‑meth scene, describing a pervasive void of love that fueled his cravings. He explains that cravings emerge spontaneously from the subconscious, and once they appear they become his personal responsibility, even though their origin lies outside his conscious control.
Typically, the popular turn-on in a crystal meth scene was the opposite. Like, tell me what a bitch I am, or treat me like a piece of trash. One could really infer by my personal turn-on that it was born from a place of deep trauma. There was a void of love. I was not getting love like I wanted it. There was a void that I was avoiding. So avoiding a craving means that we don't, what I call, finish it. So the subconscious gives us a craving and then it's our responsibility at that point. But when it gives us the craving, it's not ours. It came, if you've had a craving, you know, it can come at the, anytime, spontaneously. It comes from the subconscious. But when it's given to us, then it's our responsibility.
