Dallas BraggFormer crystal methamphetamine user, I help men who have sex with men break free from the addictive patterns associated with Chemsex. Currently expanding my expertise by seeking to become a Certified

What’s been your experience with chemsex recovery and triggers? Tell us about your experience in the

20 Sept 2026 · 1 min

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In this personal narrative, the speaker recounts their first visit to a gay bathhouse (Club St. Louis) alongside their husband and friends. They describe a strong attraction to public sex spaces and the excitement and fear surrounding the experience. The night also marked their first use of "Tina" (methamphetamine), linking the setting to chemsex. The speaker frames the outing as a form of exposure therapy, having communicated their desires to their husband beforehand and arranging for his supportive presence. The account highlights the interplay of sexual desire, substance use, and partner communication as early steps in a broader chemsex recovery journey.

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First time I went to a bathhouse, that took a lot of planning too, because I love public sex spaces. There's nothing I love more than like having sex where other people can see me. Yeah, yeah, insane. I like to share the love. I like to lay in the sling and just wait for the line to run through me, right? Right. But now I'm thinking of plans for the weekend. Yeah, but I was so scared to go to the bathhouse for the first time. And the bathhouse we went to, my husband and I and some friends, is actually Club St. Louis, which By the way, Club St. Louis is the first time I did Tina. That first night I was at that bathhouse. So that was also my first bathhouse experience was the same location. Wow. Wow. Yeah. And talk about like exposure therapy. That was some fucking exposure therapy. But I told my husband ahead of time, I was like, I really want to do this. Yeah. At least when we get there, if you're comfortable with it, just stay near me and it's just going to be you and I.