What’s been your experience with chemsex recovery and triggers? Tell us about your experience in the
In this monologue, the speaker recounts a pivotal period in 2015 when a psychiatrist, meeting bi‑monthly, attempted to curb the speaker's cyclical pattern of chemsex use and abstinence. Various pharmacological strategies—antidepressants, mood stabilizers, antipsychotics—were trialed without success. The psychiatrist then raised the possibility of undiagnosed ADHD, prompting a conversation with the speaker’s mother. After consulting the mother, the psychiatrist concluded the speaker likely had ADHD throughout life, masked by strict rule‑following, high academic achievement, and a fear of moral/religious repercussions for disobedience. This revelation reframes the speaker’s understanding of their substance‑use triggers and self‑control mechanisms.
