Dallas Bragg, a chemsex recovery coach, explains why early recovery feels boring: chemsex fills huge chunks of time with anticipation and comedown, and meth lowers dopamine so normal life feels dull. He calls it buffering, not boredom, and says it won't improve without defining a real reason to stay sober.
Very common complaint I hear in early recovery from my guys is that, I'm bored. Hi, my name is Dallas. I'm a chemsex recovery coach for men who have sex with men. If you stop to calculate the amount of time you've been investing in using chems, think about this: the anticipation, and then the dialing of the dealer, and then the waiting on the dealer or going to his place, and then there's the using, of course, and then there's the week long, sometimes longer, comedown. You have missed hours, days, weeks of your time doing this. So when you get in recovery, if you have taken all of that out, you're left with big gaps of space. That's going to make you feel bored. Also, your, your dopamine baseline is at a way different level than the rest of us. So what feels bored to you is just like normal life to us normies. So glad I can call myself a normie now. Here is why your why is so important. Your vision of who you are, who you're becoming, specifically what do you want out of your life. That vision will carry you through this feeling of just being bored. Yes, logistically you can schedule events, you can get out to 12 steps, you You could go to sober events, recovery dharma, all of the things. You can, you can actually schedule your time so that you're not quote unquote bored, but you're going to remain in that state if you don't have a strong enough vision to carry you forward. You're not bored, you're buffering. In order to stop buffering, you need to know, what is my life after meth?
