Dallas Bragg traces how ignoring your own boundaries traps you in abusive relationships and self-destructive cycles. When you override your instincts, covert patterns build shame and a feeling of being broken. He describes using crystal meth to escape these emotions, which only deepens the spiral of self-betrayal and self-harm.
And when you betray yourself by not having boundaries, you override your instincts and put yourself in situations where you get hurt, staying in abusive relationships or returning to relationships that weren't— didn't work out without doing the transformational work necessary. And here's the most painful part. These covert patterns make you feel crazy. You feel broken and you feel outta control. You hate yourself for the weight you can't lose, the relationships you sabotage, the plans you cancel. The way your body feels. You use crystal to escape all of that. You use crystal to escape all the self-hatred, which creates more self-betrayal, which creates more shame. See the cycle?
