A first-person YouTube testimonial by Louis Massaro describing a descent from feeling unmotivated and partying into deep depression. He recounts visiting a psychiatrist who prescribed medication that had a paradoxical effect, increasing suicidal thoughts; he describes a specific moment standing on his 70-foot dock contemplating drowning.
June 27, 2025
70-foot dock
I was just feeling in a rut. I wasn't motivated anymore. I didn't really want to work anymore. I was going out, I was partying. I was searching for something. I fell into a deep depression. Went to a psychiatrist. Yeah, here, take this pill. You'll be okay. Okay, thanks. Took the pill. Had a reverse effect on me. Made me suicidal. I remember being there in the back. My house had this 70 foot dock out back. And I'm standing there and I'm contemplating going in. I'm thinking about what I could put on my ankles or what I could wear that's going to sink me to the bottom.
