Breaking Consistent Money Blocks with Jessica

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Welcome to the Clarity Corner where you'll discover how to unlock and express the most authentic version of you and realize that this is exactly what you were looking for the entire time. I'm your host and your coach, Megan Siemens. Now let's make some magic happen. Hello, my Clarity Corner friends. Welcome back to the show. Today we have one of our unedited coaching sessions with a beautiful, brave client who is here to coach around the topic of money. This is one of my favorite topics to coach around and I feel like is inevitably one that comes up as I'm supporting beautiful humans to come back home to themselves. Because money carries so many societal stories, so many generational stories, and so many childhood memories that we store and we tend to lock in to our body and they tend to just kind of run the show in the background and we really see this shine through in today's session with Jessica. So if you have ever felt like there must be some kind of money block that I'm not seeing, what is blocking me from reaching the next level in money. If you've ever felt like I'm doing all the right things, but it's just not happening. You know, I'm seeing the affirmations, I'm doing the things and it's just not here. Maybe if you've ever felt like, what's wrong with me? Everyone else is having this financial success, why can't I? Then you're really, really going to just be mind blown emoji. I don't know why whenever I say mind blown, I. I can't help but just picture the little mind blown emoji. But really you're gonna be just mind blown by this session with Jessica. She really opens up to this depth of exploration and I feel like you truly get to witness and experience what it actually means to move from headspace, headspace, headspace. I'm thinking it through, thinking it through, thinking it through to let me go into my body and see what deeper wisdom comes out. And I invite you to really notice the shifts in Jessica's presence and energy as we move from talking it out, thinking it through, and then into the space of her body. I just invite you to witness that and get curious with what could that feel like or look like for me so I won't spoil it too much more. Enjoy the episode with Jessica. It's truly an incredible exploration. Jessica, welcome to the Clarity corner.

How can I help My favorite corner. So I feel it's like a funky words, but okay. I feel really good about where I'm going With money. And last week I was really low about it. Like, I've been feeling really, really good. Last week I was really low, and I'm. I'm working my way up again. And something that I've constantly said is, like, there must be some kind of money block. There's some kind of money block. I don't know what the money block is. And then what I think it might be is just, like, my wording and my language around money and my mindset and beliefs around money. So, like, I'll do the affirmations and say, like, I'm financially free, I have an abundance of money, and it feels good. And then also on the flip side, like, so I'll do that, say, in the morning, and then by lunchtime, I'm like, ooh, that's expensive. So, yeah, it's great that I say those affirmations, but, like, deep down.

Yeah, my.

It's. I'm not consistent. I want to be consistent.

Yeah. Yeah. Does it feel like deep down you just don't believe that? The affirmations.

Yes and no. Like, I do. So, like, deep down I believe it. Like, deep down, I feel like I'm going to be a millionaire. Like a multi millionaire, which is even. That's what. That one's a more challenging one to say. But millionaire is easier to say. Yeah. And I, deep down, believe I'll be a millionaire, but I feel like it's like, it's. I will be a millionaire, not I am a millionaire, because according to my bank account, I'm not yet a millionaire. So that's where the disconnect is, is like, future me will be a millionaire. But. And I want to embody that now.

What does that mean? To embody it now?

So one thing I did is I bought the shampoo and conditioner that I really been wanting to buy. And it's. It's expensive, even though it's not expensive, but, like, it's not dollar store and it's native brand. So, like, yeah, it's just. It's just fancy to me. Like, it's like vegan and blah, blah, blah. So I bought that and like, like, million dollars of Jessica will be using native brand shampoo and conditioner. So, like, I did that. So, like, I'm embodying it in, like, little ways. That was my first way.

Yeah.

That I'm. I'm starting to embody it. I find it interesting that both bottles have fell and broke. The pumps don't work anymore. So, like, it's like, yeah, like, my million dollar Self pumps that work.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. It almost feels like, like you had mentioned the consistent story that I have is it must be a money block. So you're like, consistently doing these things, but then there's like this consistent, almost like annoyance underneath the surface of all.

Yeah.

Could you name it, like, what the.

Block is like, Joel? Like the block.

Keep Joe handy, but keep going with what you feel like.

The block is the first thing that came to mind when you said name it. Like my. Just like my words. Like my. The. The way that I word things. And I just. I want to shift things. So, like, instead of saying, like, I can't afford that. Like, what are different words? Like, what are the. What are the words I do use and how can I shift those to. To words that align with where I'm at now and where I want to be? So, like, can bridge and be at the million dollar self at the same time. So instead of like, I am a millionaire. That's not the truth right now. I'm cautious of my words, so I'm like, hesitant to say that. But, like, according to my bank account, truth is, I'm not a millionaire yet.

Yeah.

So. Yeah. So it's just like, it's the words I choose. And then if I can shift my language, like, like, I know I could shift my language. I've done it before.

Yeah. Yeah. So what I hear is that you're doing all the right things, quote unquote. Like, you're saying the affirmations. You're doing the embodiment practice that practices that you want. Like you're stepping into things that millionaire self would have. Like, you're doing all the right things. Why is it so bad if you slip up on a few words?

Because I'm not. I'm not seeing the income coming yet. So then, Then, then I've, like, shifted. Well, maybe I don't need to embody million dollar self yet. Maybe just like a hundred thousand dollar self. Like, that's a good start.

Yeah. Yeah. So I hear you and I'm curious. So we have maybe 20 minutes or so together, and we probably won't in 20 minutes. I mean, we're open to all possibilities, but we probably won't in 20 minutes open your bank account and see 100,000 or a million dollars in there at the end of the session. I mean, we're open to all possibilities. We're open to magic around here. So what is it that you really want or you really want to know when it comes to your money?

Okay, I'm going To say this, but this is probably not the. The answer. Like, we'll probably need to dig deeper. But, like, what is it that I'm like, why am I not receiving money?

Okay, that's a very clear question.

Okay. I wasn't sure if it was clear enough.

Yeah. Why am I not receiving money? How much more clear could you get?

Well, you're the clarity Queens.

It is incredibly clear, though, and I think that it's actually a really potent insight of yourself, of just like, I'm doing the things. Like, I'm making the things happen. And the frustration, the sticky point is, why is it not coming in?

Yeah.

And I think a part of you even has to let yourself ask that question or you'll never find the block.

Yeah.

Does that make sense?

Yeah. And I feel like I know the answer, but then that's not the answer.

What do you feel like the answer is?

I'm not asking for it. But then in the same thought, like, I am asking for it. All of my social media posts are, like, selling or, like, they have, like, call to actions. And, like, I'm showing up on my newsletter. Like, I'm showing up on all the ways I'm reaching out to schools. Like, I'm doing things. So, like. And it's all automated, so I don't feel like I'm doing things. So I've had a hard time with that. But, like, yeah, I feel like I'm not asking, but I am asking.

Yeah.

Yeah.

It's a. It's an interesting answer to your question, but I almost feel like that's the spiral in itself. Like, you're like, there's the sticky point. Like, why am I not receiving money? And then you're like, I'm doing the things. Like, look at me. I'm doing the things. Come on, money. Like, make it happen. And there's something in your capacity to hold it all that's keeping you back. Does that feel true?

Mm.

Like, if we did finish this session and you opened your bank account and there were a hundred thousand dollars sitting there, I know there would be initial excitement and celebrations. And what else would come up for you?

Fear. It's still not enough.

Tell me more.

So, like, something that, like, I've been talking or, like, thinking about is, like, becoming a surrogate, which sounds beautiful, and I want to do it. And I also. I mean, that's a whole nother thing. So I'm going to try to just like, stay focused. So, like, that is like 60,000, $70,000. And. But then once I, like, piece it out on. Like, where is that $70,000 going to go? It's going to be gone like that. Like, it's going to be a place for us to live. It's going to, like, it just. It's, like, already spent before it's even received. So, like, like a million dollars that feels like it'll. I mean, then there is a piece. Like, maybe it's not enough for me to have my beach house. So, like, there's always something. And I want. I want to be a millionaire way more than just my beach house. Like, I want my beach house for me. And I want to do so much more goodness with that money. So it's not enough to do all the goodness I want to do.

Yeah.

And self, like, put myself first at the same time.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Okay. Are you open to exploring this in energy space a little bit?

Yes, please.

We love the excitement. All right, let's do it. So if you want to either close your eyes or gaze down, whichever feels good for you, and just get yourself nice and cozy, just landing with a few breaths and really just taking a moment to honor your brain. Because your brain is working so, so hard around this money topic, the affirmations and the figuring out and all that it's processed so far. Let's let your brain take a little rest. Maybe even imagining your brain going into, like, a little hammock, like nestling in for a little vacation. Or maybe for you, it's a volume knob that you can turn down with great gratitude, honoring the processing and the wisdom and just trusting your full inner knowing. On your next breath, settling in a little deeper to the space, feeling yourself grounded and held by the earth. And on an exhale, letting go of any energy that's not here to serve you right now. Inhale, Coming into your heart space and trusting the exploration that comes through.

When.

You call forward the question, why am I not receiving money? Keeping your eyes closed, what space of your body feels a little sparked right now?

Right here? Can you see? Oh. Like below which chakra is this? Like, above my belly button?

Yeah, yeah, yeah. So kind of your gut space, Sacral space.

Yeah.

Does that feel true?

Mm. Is that the orange one?

It can be orange if you want it to be.

Yep.

Yeah. Honoring that orange color. That's called present. Just taking a breath into that space, into your belly, just noticing what else comes up for you. Keeping that question forward facing. Why am I not receiving money? Maybe there's a bit of orange. Is there anything else that you notice in this space.

Like anger and Sadness.

Yeah. Just breathing into that anger and sadness for a moment, honoring their presence. Is there anything that they want to give voice to right now?

So what comes to mind is, like, all these stories that I hear of, like. Like, I mean, Oprah is a good example. Like, she had a rough life, and then she didn't want to, you know, continue living that way, so she flipped it. Or, like. And there's, like, so many of those stories, and it's like, and now that I have a baby, like, I really want to not have him grow up. I grew up. So then there's the frustration on, like. Or the anger. Like, what am I doing wrong? Like, why can't I. Why am I giving him the same life that I had when that's not what I want? He deserves better. I mean, I deserve it, too. I deserve better, too. And now he deserves it.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Just really honoring that. That question of what am I doing wrong? And how that's even been an undercurrent. Yeah. Does that feel true for you?

Yeah.

Yeah. I'm curious. How long have you been asking yourself that question?

33 years.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah. Are you ready for a new question?

Yeah. Yes, please.

Yeah. Yeah. Just taking a moment, because in some way, that question has served you. Yeah. Do you know what ways those might be? What's coming up for you?

Not off the top of my head. I just. I just know that it has.

Yeah. That's okay.

I'm just trying to think of how.

Maybe you don't need to know right now.

Okay.

Even just the acknowledgment of. Yeah. I do know that it served me in some way.

Yeah, yeah.

Yeah. I'm curious if there's anything else, maybe a color or a shape or a. A visual or a sensation that's coming up right now.

You know, like, inside out, those little characters. The little anger guy.

Yeah.

Like, red angry guy is what I picture.

Yeah. What does anger have to do with money?

Good question. I feel like the only memory I have of my parents ever together was fighting about money. I don't know if that's true or not, but it's true to me, so.

Yeah. Yeah. And was that maybe even a little scary for a little? You.

Probably. Yeah, yeah.

Yeah.

So even and, like. Oh, sorry. It's the opposite now in my current relationship, like, the reason we don't fight over money by any means, but, like, the reason that we butt heads over money is, like, he's always telling me, like, just buy whatever you want. Like, eat whatever you want. Get any food. That you feel like eating. And I'm like, but it's not the cheapest thing on the menu.

Yeah.

So that's. It's like the opposite, but it's still that, like, negative in a sense.

Yeah.

I've worked a lot through it, but it still shows up.

Yeah, yeah. So you have these beautiful points of expansion in your current reality. And even honoring all of the tools you use for your expansion around this now it's anchoring into the internal knowing to have anger there present. Does anger feel like it belongs there.

With money? No. No. Because I want to treat money like my friend.

Can you be friends with like.

Oh, yeah, when you say it like that.

Yeah. It's coming back to that remembering of this was here because it served you. And so I'm curious if you looked anger face to face, maybe even in imagining or noticing, like a mini version of you kind of zooming in, like a little astronaut that can come into this inner world and you meet anger face to face, what would you say to anger?

I mean, I love you is the first thing that comes to mind. Because I like to send love to everyone and everything. It's like my go to sending it love.

So we're sending anger loves. Is there anything else you want to say?

Why are you here and how are you helping me? How can you help me actually make money?

Okay, let's start one at a time.

Okay.

Why are you here giving anger a moment to pause? What do you hear back?

Because it's all you know.

Yeah. And how are you here to help me make money?

It's like to. I had the words. Hold on, Sorry. Like, to use it to like, prove people wrong that, like, don't believe in me. But I don't like that.

Okay.

I feel like that was most of my life was just proving people wrong, that I could do something.

Yeah. So what if you face anger right now and say, I don't like that anymore. What happens to anger when you present that?

It just hugs my little astronaut little inner child self.

Yeah, yeah. Because anger is not going to go anywhere. Anger's here with you for the ride. But what if anger could soften a little bit? Yeah. Embracing in that hug. What do you want to say to anger now?

I just picture, like holding hands, Like I'm still with that, like, inside out little cute character. Like, holding hands with it and like, let's do it together. Like, let's make money together. But like in a gentle way, not an angry, like, defensive way.

Yeah. Tell me about that. What came through.

The Word defensive. Because I've been trying to figure out how I'm defensive because I've noticed it in others, and I know that I'm the mirror. So I've been. I've been trying to figure out how I'm defensive, and I think this is a big piece of it is like, that's my defense. It's like, well, I'm gonna prove you wrong. You don't believe in me. I'm gonna do it. Just because you don't believe in me.

Yeah. Yeah. So beginning to shift that, what might you trade Defensive for?

Gentle and kind? Genuine.

Yeah. Gentle, kind, and genuine. Are you in anger, still holding hands?

Yeah.

Do you want anger to stay here in this space in your belly, or does anger have another place to go?

Anywhere?

It's up to you.

I don't want it to stay in my belly. So, like, the initial thought is, like, to go to my head, but then I'm like, I don't know if I want you to hang out there. But I was thinking, like, my toe would be kind of a fun place. It's, like, random.

How does anger feel about being sent off to your toe? We've just built this beautiful friendship. You're holding hands.

Yes, it's true.

Anger feels like the fire just came out of his head.

Okay, so then when you say it, like, that. Anger can go to my heart.

Yeah. Okay, so how does anger go to your heart? Is there a stairwell? Is there an elevator? Is there a slide?

Oh, that's fun. I kind of pictured, like, a. A bridge, but I guess it would be like a ladder.

Yeah.

Because there's no, like, upward bridges. Like an elevator. Oh, an escalator. Those are fun. Love it.

Okay, so just bringing that escalator forward, taking a breath and sending anger off, maybe with a squeeze of the hand. And I'm just going to pause here as you watch anger go away. And you can just let me know when you feel like you're ready to be in the space again. So what do you know about money?

Like, coming out of, like, a meditation right now. So cool. So something that I've been practicing is like, I. In this very moment, I literally have enough money for what I need, because in this very moment, I'm literally not spending any money. So no matter what's in my bank account or if I, you know, buy something, I'm not. Yeah, I'm not buying a house right now, so it's not like I'm making any giant purchases. So, like, I. Like, I literally do have enough money. In this very moment.

Mm, that is true. And. And these are things you knew before. So how do you know this to be true now?

Can you word it differently for me, please?

Yeah, actually, let's do this. Let's close your eyes again.

Okay.

Just place your hand on your belly. Knowing that when it comes to you and money, you are gentle, you are kind, you are genuine. You are co creating money with yourself, with your spirit, with your emotions. How do you know that the money you have in this moment, in this very moment is enough?

Because I'm not making any big purchases. That's so. From my head. I don't know. Because I'm still stuck on, like, why is money not coming in?

Well, in this very moment, right here, right now? Well, it very would. It very well could be coming in. We don't know, because we're here right now together.

That's true.

And so even that in itself, how can you trust yourself in the ebb and flow of money?

I think celebrating when I receive money, like, everything's automated. So, like, I don't even know when I receive money. It's just like when I check my bank account, it's just always different numbers. I'm just like, oh, cool. But like, if I actually take time and space to like, oh, yeah, I mean, this much today or this much this week.

Yeah, yeah, that right there.

Yeah.

Celebrating when I'm receiving. Noticing the essence of that versus our original inquiry. Why am I not receiving? And what comes from. Yeah, yeah, that. What else is true from celebrating when I am receiving?

Just I. I am receiving money. And I do have enough. I do have more than enough. Because there's always like a plus in my bank account, which makes it more than enough, no matter what it is.

Yeah, yeah. I always have more than enough.

Mm.

Breathe that in. Breathe that all the way into your belly. I always have more than enough. Maybe even taking that color of orange that came through, noticing the hue of it, if it's the same or if it's been toned up or toned down. And just let that expand through your entire belly, Let it wipe away any excess dense energy as you continue to know it's more than enough. I do have more than enough. Breathing that in, knowing it's always present within your system, and again, opening your eyes whenever you're ready. So do you think that is the anchoring point? You could lean into the orange? The more than enough. The celebrating when you're receiving.

Yeah.

And I'm curious too, when those moments come up where you use the language that you don't want to use around money. I'm curious if you can even just imagine, like holding your friend Anger's hand just like, oh, okay, I see you. Let's meet this with gentleness.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. I love that a lot.

Yeah. Because how might you meet those money stories differently if you meet them with gentleness instead of. I'm not supposed to be thinking that.

Yeah. Release that self beat up. Yeah, yeah, I like that a lot. I use the term gentle and kind very often. Yeah. Right now.

Yeah.

So to use it for myself is. Will be easy.

Yeah, yeah, yeah. I'll invite you to listen back to the episode two and hear the difference in your energy when you're speaking of money in the beginning versus when we drop in a little deeper. And notice how that can even serve you in your money journey as well.

Yeah, yeah. That's a good idea. And I feel like my heart feels more open. Like I feel more open to receiving.

Yeah.

Thank you.

Yeah, you're so welcome. Do you feel clear for today with money?

Yeah, I feel really good. Like, really, really good. Like I. I'm like super chill and relaxed. Like meditative state.

Yeah.

Like, that was like so cool and I just feel like. Like, ah. Like. Yeah, that's the best way to describe it. Ah.

Yeah, yeah.

Like I could breathe more. Less tense.

Yeah, yeah. And money wants you to breathe.

Yeah, I like to breathe.

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