Morgan GillisFounder & Owner of Client Success Solutions LLC

My backstory, the struggles

18 Feb 2026 · 1 min

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In this candid monologue, the speaker recounts the period from leaving an engineering career in 2014 to the fall of 2018, describing a series of personal and professional setbacks. Despite diligent effort—working as a waiter and actively applying for opportunities—the speaker feels stagnant and questions why they haven’t progressed further. A pivotal moment is described when the speaker returns to an empty, dark apartment after their uncle moves out and sells the house, using the stark physical setting as a metaphor for their internal sense of emptiness and uncertainty about the future.

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Leaving engineering 2014 and then basically getting to 2018, I think it was the fall of 2018, realizing that I still didn't have anything figured out. And I'm like, okay, I mean, it's not like I haven't been applying myself. It's not like I've just been coasting. I've actually been trying and I should sure as hell be smart enough to figure this out. Like if I was smart enough to do engineering and figure that out, like shouldn't I be farther along than this? And I remember getting home one day after waiting tables and walking through the door the place that I was staying at. I was living with my uncle at the time. He got a different job and basically had to leave, and he was selling the house, so the house was empty, right? And I had to find a new place like a month after that. But I remember walking through the door, it's like pitch dark, it's like 1 in the morning, the whole house is empty. And in my mind I'm just like, this situation actually feels like it is my life. Like, this empty dark apartment is like kind of how I feel, you know what I mean? Right.