Retroactive Jealousy: Why Her Past Haunts You (And How to Stop Obsessing)

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Here's the truth. It doesn't necessarily make you insecure. It doesn't make you toxic. It doesn't make you some kind of sexist, misogynistic a-hole. It makes you a human being. Today, I'm going to explain why this happens, what's going on in your brain while it's happening, and how to make peace with her past or with your own values. Let's make one thing clear. If you care about or have an interest in knowing more about your partner's past, that does not make you a controlling monster. That shows that you have some kind of sense of values, and that is a good thing. You may put a premium on things like loyalty and fidelity, and you don't want a partner who values casual sex and promiscuity. And if that's you, cool. Don't let popular culture, you know, dictate that you're some kind of monster for having a sense of values. Those are important to you, and yes, it matters. Your preferences, your values are not toxic necessarily. What is toxic for you is if you force yourself to go against your values and your standards just to appease what you think is a society that will shame you otherwise. So with that outta the way, let's dig into what can be a very unhealthy and insecure manifestation of some anxiety within you. What's going on under the hood, so to speak, with this retroactive jealousy? Well, if we want to theorize and look at things such as evolutionary psychology, it would appear that men for all throughout all of human history find sexual exclusivity on the part of their partner to be pretty important. Why? Because men biologically don't really have a method for knowing that the child that his mate has given birth to is technically his. Sure, we could do DNA testing and all of that now, but throughout all of human history, that was science fiction. And your brain is still wired with that caveman code. So your instinctual knee-jerk response, if you will, your animalistic response, is to question the fidelity of your partner and make sure that they are with you and only with you. That's why you may feel anxious and threatened, or maybe even have a disgust response when you learn that your partner has had other partners, even those that came way before you. So don't necessarily think of it as, you know, it's an insecure, anxious response. Really what it is in many of you is your caveman programming coming to life and doing what it's supposed to do, but doing it a little bit too well. Because here's where it kind of goes off the rails. It's where this retroactive jealousy becomes obsession. You start having repeat ruminations and thoughts in your head. Was he better than me? Was he more endowed than me? Does she love him more than me? Did he bring out a level of lustfulness and sexuality in her that I haven't seen? Did they do things together that we haven't done together? And then you start grilling her and asking her questions about her past. And then you may start actually snooping and going through her private things, digging into her phone, going into journals and diaries, and snooping through old internet accounts. That is insecurity. That is not healthy. That is your anxiety feeding itself. Some psychologists say that this retroactive jealousy in a lot of people kind of functions as a form of obsessive-compulsive disorder. You have obsessive thoughts, and then you have compulsive reassurance seeking, and then you have a temporary relief, and then the obsessive thoughts come back, and around and around you go. Here's the hard truth. If you do not respect her past, if it really bothers you, if you are forcing yourself to be okay with it, that tension that you're feeling will not go away. Those feelings will just go, you know, further underground, and they will become obsession, resentment, and passive-aggressiveness. So you got two choices, as far as I can tell. Number one, stop obsessing, stop snooping, Stop judging, stop digging, stop experiencing the mental loops. Just put the whole thing to rest. Number 2, for some of you guys, respect your values. If past promiscuity, for example, and taking part in a lot of casual sex, if that goes against your values, then respect that about yourself. The worst thing you can do is to remain in a relationship that violates your standards and your values just because you are afraid to be alone. You are not controlling, so to speak, for wanting a gal to have a certain past, but you are controlling, you are insecure, and you are anxious if you try to control her and control the situation and punish her for what has happened in the past. So again, here's what not to do. Don't interrogate her about her sexual past. Do not ask for comparisons to past lovers. Don't dig through all of her personal effects and, you know, scroll through her phone and everything else to find comparisons between you and past lovers. All that does is end up strengthening that addiction that you're feeling, that obsession that you're feeling. You're constantly looking for that little hit of reassurance, and it's a little hit that never comes. You're just going to end up needing more and more reassurance, and it builds and builds, and the snowball builds, and eventually it all just blows up. Eventually she's gonna feel like she's on trial for something that happened years and years ago. And she will resent you for it. And she will leave you for it. And probably rightfully so. So it's time to get radically honest with yourself. Can you accept her for who she is and her past? And if not, leave. If so, put it to rest. Build your own sense of value. All of this, like all of these insecurities in a relationship, are based on your low sense of value. You don't like yourself very much. Otherwise, frankly, you wouldn't care about any of this because you would have a sense of abundance in life, especially when it comes to romantic relationships. Look, retroactive jealousy is a brutal thing, and most of us have experienced it in one way or another. But those feelings you're having, those resentments you're having, those anxieties you're experiencing are not about her. It's about you. Are you the kind of man who owns his values? Or are you the type of man who twists himself into a pretzel just to, quote, make it work? You cannot change her past, but you can change how much power it has over you and how you feel. If this is something that you're dealing with, something you can relate to, let's talk about it. Join the brotherhood at help4men.com or jump right to the join page at help4men.com/join. We have private discussion forums, many live Zoom meetings. We record all of them. 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