Rebeccah SilenceWorlds Leading Love & Emotional Healing Coach • Speaker • Author • Creator of The Unsilent Woman

This Is What Happened When I Finally Allowed Myself to Feel

17 Nov 2022 · 1 min

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This YouTube monologue by Rebeccah Silence (recorded Nov 2022) describes a prolonged emotional breakthrough: two years of intense crying and emotional release described as a burst floodgate. She recounts overwhelming grief, anger, fear, projection, and self-protective survival responses that led her to unconsciously build walls, increasing disconnection from family rather than the connection she wanted.

And I remember as much as I knew already, it wasn't enough. It wasn't enough to have me feeling that there was no threat when it came to my family and my family dynamics. And I just remember two straight years of tears. It was like the floodgates burst open, the dam had burst and there was no stopping the flooding of emotions. There was so much grief, there was so much anger, there was so much fear, there was so much projection, there was so much self protection and emotional survival going on with me that without me meaning to, had me build walls around me, creating more disconnection with my family versus more connection, creating more of a barrier between my soul and the souls of my loved ones than I ever wanted or meant to happen.