A first-person account of a transformative MDMA experience in February 2020 that revealed long-standing barriers in a relationship. The narrator describes a sudden clarity prompting personal change (weight, dental work, hair growth, engagement) and a request for their partner to join; the partner quickly agreed, leading to a major conversation in early March 2020.
And then In February of 2020, she and I were running two events in San Diego. We had a client and a friend who had been running MDMA Journeys for ages. Corey went home to take care of the boys. He asked me if I wanted to have the experience. I said yes. And I had this absolutely transformative, earth shattering experience that basically like shone a light on this wall that had been built between us. Every brick of that wall had a little story or excuse or justification about how relationships crumble over time, how needs get ignored over time, how just happens. A promise 30 years ago gets in the way of our presence today. And. And I came home from that perfectly 100% clear for the first time, I think ever that the transformation was. Had to be led by me. And in the past, when we were trying to fix things, it was like, well, you do this and I'll do this and then we'll do this and then I'll do this and you do this and we'll do this. And it just changed to, I need to get on with my life. I'm going to lose weight, I'm going to fix my teeth, I'm going to grow my hair and I'm going to engage. And I would love for you to come with me. And I expect that you can't because we've been dancing around this now for years. And the beautiful part about that two things is, number one is that she chose in really quickly. And to be honest, I was skeptical about her motivation about that. And then shortly after that, I think we had sort of like the big talk starting like March 4th, this is 2020.
