Day 36: How to navigate a pressure-cooker kind of day.

Okay, it is day 36, the end of day 36, and today was a very intense day. So I had a lot of deadlines, a lot of client work. So the, the thing that I went to bed with last night thinking about was that I have tasks, projects that are due for completion today. And that meant I was going to have to make some concessions. Like, I— some of the non-negotiables I have are working out. Like, that's really important to me. I want to maintain my body, helps my mental health, all of that, you know, all of those things. But I realized last night that I was up working late. If I cut into my sleep any anymore, you know, like if I did 4 hours of sleep that I wasn't going to function at my best. So I need to get 5, 6 hours of sleep at least. And so the only way to get what I needed to get done today was to forego the training. That's like close to 2 hours, sometimes a little more than 2 hours. And man, when I got down to 4 o'clock today, I still had like 2 projects left and I was sure it was going to take me 3 hours to get it done. And I started to feel this anxiety and this stress. You know, my wife comes home from her position at the school where she works, and I was already feeling it like, oh man, you know, are we going to have any time together tonight? And I like to stop working at sundown. You know, I practice the Sabbath, and it was like, oh man, I just felt all the anxiety. But you know, I just head down and kept going with going into it. And I was able to complete it. Like, I had actually started these projects and was in various stages of completion on both of them. I thought it was going to take a lot more to refine it and finalize it than it actually did. So it was about 90 minutes and I was done. So the lesson for today for me was, and this is one I want to pass on, people depend on you. Who is depending on you? And if you are not stepping into your responsibilities and making plans and making concessions to fulfill on the promises and the responsibilities that you have for other people, you know, you're letting yourself down and you're letting them down. You're not being in integrity. So, and normally I get like really worked up if my routine is screwed up, but I made the decision last night that I was going to forego this. If things would have changed, if things would have worked out differently and I would have been able to go work out and train, I would have done it. But I planned for not being able to do that. So I'm going to shift and I'm going to do it tomorrow. And, you know, it was a good night. I'm out in the garage. We've got things going on in the house right now. It's kind of quiet, but out here it's quiet. So I just want to get that done. And yeah, so that's it. You know, people depend on you. So make your decisions. And, you know, sometimes things have to give. You can't— I can't always fit everything in today, but I can make concessions and shift my schedule and still accomplish the things that are important to me. So that's it. Thanks.