Caryn Meininger explores whether your creative drive comes from genuine desire or hidden fear. Anxiety and excitement feel identical, and what seems like wanting something might actually be fear of missing out. The real question: are you creating to thrive, or to avoid being broke and alone?
How does one discern from desire and fear? Because anxiety feels the same as excited. In my body, we're constantly creating from either fear or desire. But sometimes is it you desire it because you fear what won't happen if you don't desire it, or vice versa.
I think Shakespeare said it best. He said, to be or not to be. That is the question. So the question you ask yourself is, do you want to be thriving, to be healthy, to be loved? Or do you not want to be alone, broke, abandoned and sick? So when you are excited, what are you excited for? For no longer being broke or for ability to bless the lives of others through your generosity?
