A personal reflection on dropping out of high school, self-forgiveness, and mental health struggles. The speaker shares how a conversation with a pastor shifted their perspective on moving past mistakes and building a better life.
Me, the only me being able to make the decision to drop out of high school. If there's a way not to start your life for me, like that was a way. That man, dude, why would you do that? Why are you that stupid? Like why would you let somebody else impact your life now? What are you gonna do? Like you can't even read or write. Your grammar sucks. Like you're bad at math. I'm purposely running through narratives that would like go through my brain for years and years and years. And I was like, I can't live in this like mental waste dump. And so I started to realize, like to move forward, to gain traction, to become unstuck in this just toxic waste dump of mental bull crap. How do I do this right? How, how do I go? Where do I go? And it actually was a. A pastor of a Nazarene church, he was the pastor of my grandparents church, had a conversation with me about forgiveness, forgiving the math teacher, but also forgiving myself for the actions. Because here's the very interesting thing. My math teacher hurt me once. I continue to hurt myself over and over and over again.
