On the podcast @the_whole_hogg I talk about my struggle with anorexia.

30 Jan 2026 · 1 min

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In this brief podcast excerpt, the speaker shares a raw, personal account of living with anorexia, emphasizing the extreme fear of gaining even a small amount of weight—so intense that she would rather die than gain five pounds. She recounts how dismissive comments like "just eat a cheeseburger" feel like a death sentence to her, highlighting the profound disconnect between external advice and her internal reality. The conversation also touches on the emotional isolation she feels, noting that few people truly understand the lived experience of anorexia, and she expresses relief at being able to discuss it openly with someone who listens.

I can't tell you how many times people just said, "Just eat a cheeseburger," and I'm like, "If you fucking knew what that means for me, that would be death." I mean, I remember telling my husband, "I would rather die than gain 5 pounds.
Just kill me." Oh, oh my goodness.
Yeah, and I was very serious. Yeah, yeah, yeah. And I look back on that now and it's so sad, but that is really the way it feels. Yeah. Glad I can talk to because nobody talks about what it's really like to be anorexic. And that is your reality. Yes, that's true.
And, and I know it can be obviously that like a controlled, like that, that controlled thought all the time. But to be consumed and swamped by that every second of the day, like thinking over everything and overthinking, like, I must just like— what? That— no wonder it wears you down mentally as well.