Someone admits they lied about a baby dying to hurt their partner, then realizes an apology won't fix it. Both are grieving and need to stop seeing each other, but the desire to reconnect lingers.
And I might hate you for the rest of my life, for real, because you knew, you knew.
Why would you tell him that the baby was dead though?
To be honest, I wanted him to be hurt. I wanted his feelings to be hurt. I just wanted him to feel something 'cause I never feel like he feels anything and I'm always the one just feeling some stuff, like feeling hurt, feeling lost.
You wanted him to feel what you're feeling.
I did, I did. And I apologized to him for that and I know that's never gonna be enough. You know, apology is not enough. I understand that and I understand what I did was wrong. And it was very wrong and I'm sorry, but I did.
I wanted to punish him. I really wanna encourage y'all to stop sleeping together. I really do. I really do. Because you two are both hurting and are grieving still and there's so much going on.