After her twin sister was killed, a woman describes losing her sense of self: she stopped sleeping, eating, going to school. She was haunted by survivor's guilt, wondering if attending a basketball game that day somehow caused the tragedy, before finally blaming the shooter.
I honestly don't know who I am anymore without my twin sister. I don't sleep the same. I can't eat the same. I haven't went back to school. I don't even wanna follow my dreams. I don't even wanna do anything because I planned it all out with this one person that's no longer here to do it with me.
I understand. So are you struggling with guilt over that moment?
Absolutely. Mm-hmm. Then I felt like if I would've never went to that basketball game, she would've never ended up there.
Got it, I understand. So are you blaming yourself for your sister's death?
Honestly, don't blame nobody but the person who shot her. But at first, I can honestly say that I questioned myself a lot.
That's good. That's good that at least you don't blame yourself.