Evening Prayer I Rise Like the Phoenix I God is My Business Plan

Happy evening. Welcome, my beautiful friends. We're changing things up tonight. For all of you who love routine, we changing it up tonight. I have no idea what we're gonna do. That is always a little vulnerable. Now, it's always a surprise video on the healing work or the practice, but tonight I've inspired to do the beginning different. Why? Why? Because that's how it goes. Right? That's how it goes. When we create business with God, we're actually invited all the time to lean in and do things differently so that we stop relying on ourselves. It's so aggravating and so fun. It's both. It's both places. So take tonight. Let's drop in and see. I. Maybe we'll start with sound, maybe we won't. Maybe we'll do the say, your creative process, the beginning. I don't know. It's killing me. Are you ready? I'm ready. I'm excited and I'm nervous. So let's just drop into our bodies. Let's get here in our bodies. Yes. Wherever you've been today, let's bring you back here into home. Your body is home. So I want you to place your right hand on your heart, your left hand on the front solar plexus, just getting back into your body. I want you to move forward and back, and I really want you to feel your sit bones, which are right at the base of your tush. Let's move it back and forth, back and forth. All right. Let's move the ribs back and forth with the neck. Ah. We're gonna get into our bodies. Let's move our neck side to side, saying, oh, hello, beautiful traps. Thank you for holding up my neck today. Thank you, shoulders for carrying the burdens physically and emotionally. Shoulders up to your ears and open your heart up to your ears and open the back. So what are we gonna do here? I'm gonna invite you to be with me in this space right now. I want you to open your heart. Soften, soften. Soften the walls around your heart. Open your heart. Ah. So when I open my heart tonight, on the inside of my heart walls is grief. Why? Why is there grief in there today? There's no reason for me to have grief there, but there's something about grief that showed up when I softened my heart now. Oh, okay. Oh. I'm just getting all vulnerable on y' all tonight, so routine helps me feel safe. And when I break routine and I get real vulnerable, there's grief on the inside of that. Grief shows up. So this is why I'm being inspired to lean in and not have the routine nailed down like I've been doing it. Damn it. I like routines. It's okay. It's okay, because I can feel the grief on the inside that wants to find the light. So maybe you relate to this. Maybe you were raised with routines. Maybe routines feel safe to you, and maybe this is going to throw you off, that I'm not doing my normal routine. Tonight I'm going to invite you to lean in with me. Full heart, full trust. I'm here showing up in my vulnerability, pulling my grief out to this. To this space and seeing what it needs. What does it need? What do I need tonight? What do you need tonight? Let's find that. So let's breathe in. All right, so we're gonna take all the magical pieces that we always do. We're just gonna do them in a bunch of different orders. How about that? So first and foremost, I'm gonna just use some smell. Smell is really important for me. I use this smell all day long. This is how I drop in. So once you just drop into your body, I want you to notice your body. Does your body feel safe? Do you feel emotions starting to show up? Do you feel grief showing up? What do you feel? What are you experiencing? Be present and witness it. Hmm? So I want you to think of one time or many times in your life that you've had somebody witness you. They've witnessed you. They've seen you in all your light and in all your dark, in all of your magic and all of the hard. I want you to imagine whatever that has happened in your life. Maybe you had a mentor, maybe you had a parent, Maybe you had a best friend who was just saw you in all of it and just so much love through it all. Now I want you to be that witness for yourself right now, okay? You're gonna witness yourself in that way. I want you to look at yourself and see all your good and all that you think is bad or dark or not worthy or not light or not good enough. Whatever words you say to yourself, right? When you see all of your gifts and all of your struggles, once you just close your eyes, hand on your heart, and I want you to say to yourself, I witness you. I witness you. I see you. I see you. I see you. I love you. I witness you. I see you. I see all of your gifts. I see all of your struggles, and I love you. Why don't you just notice your heart? How does it feel? Does it feel liberated? Does it feel heavy? How does your heart feel? Now, if your heart is feeling liberated, then I want you to breathe in this magical light throughout your body, letting the liberation from your heart pulse down through your body. It's like. It's like waves. It's like waves moving in the ocean. This liberation is going to move throughout your body. Now, if your heart is feeling heavy, my heart is feeling heavy. So let's go there. Oh, goodness. I giggle when it's too much. When it's too much. Or just giggle. Oh, man. Tonight. What is happening in my heart tonight? So what I'm hearing is that routines for me are my safety. And anytime I move out of routine, I have to really open my heart and it does not feel very safe. So why am I sharing this all with you? I don't know, other than I'm feeling inspired to share with you and maybe you relate to this. My hope is that this lands for you. I'm not just sharing you with my story just to share with you. I'm hoping it lands for you. Maybe you're seeing a blind spot in your life that you've never seen before. Let's notice the heaviness on the heart. We need something to lift it up. So this is where we're going to call in our angels. Oh, look. We are going to call on our angels. Thank you. Thank you. Give me something here. Okay. Oh. We're going to call in our angels. We're going to call in our guides, our leaders. We're going to call on those who can support us, who love us, who are here to help us with our work. We're going to call them in and through the divine light to come and show us right here, right now, how do we. How do we loosen the heaviness in the heart? The grief that's stuck like plaque inside the heart right now. So there's like grief that's stuck and it's closing off the energetic heart space. It's saying something. Hold on. They're not saying the nicest things. So that's when I know it's not true. That's when I know. So I'm going to speak this out loud. Okay? So chakras, talk to me, right? I'll work with you. If I'm. If I. If I can sit next to you or even you just tell me that I can sit with your chakras. I can hear your chakras. And they talk to me now. They speak old, limiting beliefs. They're telling you. They're telling me what's stuck in there. So chakras, it's not. It's not so much that the chakra is talking to me, but it's. It's the things that have clogged the chakra, the negative energies, the negative entities, the old belief systems, the generational patterns. Those are the things that I hear, and that's how I know what to clear out of the chakra. So I guess the chakra itself is not speaking to me. It's the things that got stuck in there. Right. I don't know if any of this makes any sense, but roll with me. Okay? So when I went into my heart just now and I was like, okay, we're gonna lean in. We're gonna be vulnerable, and I want to release this grief. What I heard was that this is extremely dangerous. Like I heard them say, this is very dangerous to be vulnerable. Do not be vulnerable. Warning, warning, warning. Right? Like someone turned on, like a fire drill, like, warning, warning, warning. And that's how I know. Oh, these are old beliefs. These aren't truths. This isn't truth. These are old beliefs that I picked up probably from drama, probably from generational drama. All these things that say vulnerability is not safe. So I'm going to go in, and we're going to. We're going to love on them. Okay. We're going to love. We're going to love on them. Oh, my gosh. I love that I wore my heart shirt tonight. How perfectly timed that was. So I want you to be with me right here, right now. So place your hands together. Why? Because this is like a real grounding energy. Pushing your fingertips together, elbows straight out. You're going to take a deep breath into your lower womb. And out. And in and out. One more and out. Now I want you to open up your chest. Open up your chest. Letting your arms go all the way back. Oh. All the way forward. Okay, we're going to ask your board of directors, your spiritual team to come and help us clear out these old beliefs. So how are we going to clear these out tonight? Let's see. Drop in with me, invite you to listen. Okay, so this is actually where the sacred creative process is showing up. Look at all of our normal things. They're just starting to peek up like little flowers everywhere. I love it. Okay, so I want. We want to pay attention to our ears. So right now, one of my favorite things that Napoleon Hill said, if only I got a memory that could remember word for word, but he said something about, don't stick cotton balls in your ears. Like, listen, hear here. So that's really. We're like pulling out the cotton balls. We're pulling out the things that have clogged our spiritual hearing, that have clogged our ability to spiritually hear. I'm gonna pull it out. We're gonna ask the divine light to touch our ears, that they will be cleaned and cleansed and cleared so that we can hear exactly what needs to be heard. Then we're going to ask that divine light will just pour through our. Our crown and our third eye, opening up the crown so that we can hear the divine hear God opening up so that all of our spiritual gifts, the ones that we were given from the beginning of time, that have always been with us, that they will be activated. And then we're going to ask that light will cleanse our lips with coal. This is part of my deeper practice. I usually don't teach this piece, but there's a vision of coal that cleanses the lips so that the lips may be completely renewed, cleaned, cleared, and that we speak only what needs to be spoken. So take a nice deep breath in. So now I want to listen. What can we do to lift the grief? What can we do to lift the grief? That's. That is holding your vulnerability hostage? So the grief is holding the vulnerability hostage. It's not allowing it to come out. It's not allowing it to break through. Okay, so we're going to go into a vision, all right? I want you to close your eyes. I want you to visualize, Okay, So I want you to visualize that you are in space, that you are standing in the midst of space. Black all around you, and you're like in this time, speed light tunnel, like Star wars right here. Okay? Like light speed tunnel. You're in it. I want you to just take some deep breaths in and I want you to feel how, like, everything is moving, right? Like in space, like everything is moving. There's really nothing that's super secure and stable, that even earth is moving, right? Like everything is moving. Everything is moving. Everything is, like, in motion. Specifically in this. This tunnel, this light tunnel. It's just all in motion. So I want you to take a deep breath in and notice that even in the midst of motion, even in the midst of all the movement, even in the midst of feeling like there is no stable ground to place your feet, That you're safe. You are safe. You are safe. I want you to say that out loud. I am safe. I am safe. I am safe. I am safe. I am safe. I am safe. So we're going to open up the vulnerability piece inside of you. This piece that is. It's so magnificent. It's your Phoenix. It's the Phoenix that has risen time after time after time. Every time you walked through hell and you've risen. This Phoenix is your vulnerability. So I want you to see the Phoenix unfold its beautiful wings, rising up out of the ashes, out through the heart. I want you to just breathe that in and feel it is in the sharing of you rising from the ashes. It is in you sharing your stories of rising from the ashes. That cracks open the vulnerability. I want you to see these light beams pouring through your cracked pieces in the heart. And the light comes in, it starts to loosen the grief. It also starts to expand. The light expands. The light expands. I want you to feel the Phoenix opening up its wings in your heart space. Opening up the vulnerability. You. Ah, you are so beautiful. You are so beautiful. I want you to see that, feel that. Your vulnerability is your beauty. Your vulnerability is the access to your heart. It is the bridge. It is the bridge that allows people in, is the bridge allows you to go out and meet, connect, share and love. So this Phoenix, this beautiful Phoenix, this the symbol of your vulnerability. We're just gonna thank it for being here. It's showing me like this gorgeous, gorgeous golden orange. And like this deep, deep lapis, like these beautiful rich colors. Let's breathe those colors into your heart. Allowing these colors, this love, this light, to move in, to ebb, to flow, to heal, to expand, To create safety and being vulnerable. Take a deep breath in. I want you to pull your knees up like you were little, okay? I know we all did this when we were little. I want you to pull your knees in, find your sit bones. I want you to look down and I want you to notice your heart and I want you to feel, feel the safety of having your body pulled in around your heart. And I want you to let your heart know. I don't know if you can hear me. Let me do it here. I want you to let your heart know. Let your heart know that you are the caretaker of your heart, that you are the protector of your heart and that you are safe to share it. Take a deep breath in, Feeling the safety and this cocoon that you've made. Feeling the safety in this cocoon. Then you're going to roll up. We're going to open up like the Phoenix. Okay? So you're going to take your arms and I'm going to turn kitty corner here. Would you breathe in? And you're just going to open up. Open up. Open up. Open up. Holy. Speak to your heart. Speak to your heart. It is safe to be open. It is safe to be open. Open, open, open. It is safe, safe to be open. I am the protector. I am the protector of your heart. I am the protector of you heart. Speak to your heart. I am the protector of you, my dear beautiful heart. And I open you up to share and to receive. Okay? I want you to visualize this beautiful, magnificent, golden lava energy. It's moving in like a spiral, like this. Can you hear my kittens? They are jumping on my tent. I love it. They just want to be a part of this party. That's all they want. Okay, you're gonna just breathe in. It's happening right now. The golden lava light is moving into your heart, moving into your heart. And it's moving like this and it's creating this beautiful, safe braid, this beautiful, safe circular motion around the heart. And once you come back into the space, Hear it, feel it, know it, see it, experience it. And then we're going to ask our angels that they will open up safe opportunities for us to feel vulnerable. Let's just practice it. Yeah. So I want you to invite your angels to open up safe opportunities for you tomorrow to be vulnerable. And each time you're vulnerable and you are received. Each time you're vulnerable and you are loved, you're going to change the pattern in your DNA coding. You're going to change the pattern in your cells and your. Your partners in this. You, your angels, your guides, your board of directors, they are here to support you. Your vulnerability is your magic. It is your magic. It is your phoenix. Deep breath in, breathing out. Oh, my dear friend, thank you for leaning in with me as I got vulnerable tonight, as I threw out my routines. We'll see how it goes tomorrow. We'll see if this is how the new way is. I have a feeling it is. So thank you for being with me. Thank you for being you. Thank you for being you and all of your magic and all of your light. I may not see you, but I can feel you. And I'm sending you so much honor of who you are, so much witnessing of your gifts and sending you my deepest love. I will see you in the morning.